Hey, I beg you, if you are gonna break me, at least hand me some tape.
Do not watch me go from crazy to insane
I beg you to at least give me a clue to sooth the pain.
If you gonna break me, maybe give me a hint.
Don't make me give life a bow.
Don't make me build sadness its tent.
Don't make me give up on my now.
If you know you ain't gonna hold me long enough.
If you gonna throw me at the first sight of the dump.
Then please don't bother picking me up.
The next time I visit, hand my cheek your hand and my hand not a coffee cup.
Why do you keep squeezing?
There is no more hurt you could to me.
You really can't make a difference by adding a cup of water to the sea.
Or screaming to the mosquitoes that they disturb us while we sleep.
All i ask i that you reduce my weep.
That you give me a help sip.
You no longer make my heart beat.
No longer make my eyes leak.
And like a skyscrapper I'll keep hanging.
Sep 5, 2020
Sep 5, 2020 at 5:23 AM UTC
The dead man
He is aware of every breath he takes
Alert to every step he makes
Deep in his head he hears the end's knock
He answers it gladly opening the door
Embracing him all the much
He welcomes it with a smile and a dagger atop his head
He wears the happy face he needs not a mask to cover the rage dying to erupt
His spirit moves from day to day
And father and father it goes away
He is a living corpse hoping for death to pave the way.
He is a murderer, he has killed himself anyway
He is no longer aware of the love he gives nor gains rather he is aware of nothing and nay
He is no different from the one in the grave
Cause he does not wonder what tomorrow has to say
He fails to see the love around him
He fails to understand that not only he has worries beside him
He does not realize his friends and family still love him
He forgets that God everyday gives him a chance to rethink things
Maybe if he began to believe again
Maybe if he looked around and saw they loved and how important he is.
Maybe if he began to see that the world isn't better without him then he would begin to understand that suicide is the wrong ring.
Dec 2, 2019
Dec 2, 2019 at 12:33 AM UTC
Today the end begins
Today i end it,
I end the ongoing death by death itself
I look at the birds and i want to be free like them and since i cant borrow their wings i borrow wings from death
Well no one ever said life is compulsory
Neither is it necessary for the spirit to remain in the body
I am drowning everyday and not in water but in my own blood cause for a long time now i have been a living corpse
I feel empty, deserted and rejected and today this suicidal feeling will be perfected
And to describe my emptiness is a bit difficult,
I am tired of my heart being in constant conflict with my feel like time is no longermind
I am tired of my body bot being able to fulfill what my spirit wants
I crave love in all its wholeness
Even if it were as little as my life right now
I wish someone could breakthrough but ever rigid heart and make it right
Well love only comes to those who believe it
And right now i don't know which to believe in
To believe in faith or in love, because i have believed for 17 years now and it does not seem to get better, rather my faith is dying and love along with it
I am tired of always having my eyelashes and my tears romance
Im tired of my heart pleading to my eyes to hold those tears for just a moment longer
And my annoying belief that it will all be better
And so i look around i notice something
I no longer care about anything or anyone.
Well that's too far, i don't think i care about myself anymore.
So why don't i end it?
Why don't i begin the end?
Oct 18, 2019
Oct 18, 2019 at 5:27 AM UTC
There are times I like to be on my own
Not that I'm some introvert
Not that I'm a sadist
But there is a Fulfillment in the silence
The ideas flow, endless
I go deep into myself
And i crawl into my mind which has a very small door but a large world
There i am a god
There i create the animals, the memories, the happenings
In there no bad times
No heart breaks
Just love, happiness, paradise
Well why not its my world, its my book
There every movie, every song, every story is more than just words, they are life.
There I ignite the stars and connect their sparks
I own cars, bars.
I could make that lady that broke my heart mine
I could make a journey to heaven with no plane in time
I could be tell the sun to go into its shell
If that is the wish of my girl
I could tell the waters to stand
I could make the ground to land
There i could be whoever i want to be
I could sing like Rihana and rap like jay z
I could own Danerys and take Drogo with me
I could be the combination of Ronaldo and Messi
I could see whatever i want to see
I could be with those i deeply love
I could bring down heaven from above
paradise would be the name of the globe
So you see why i love to be on my own
In my world
A world of no blood
A world where i am god
But i know this world is temporary so i crawl back into earth to face reality
A place where i don't long to be
And when I'm bitter i crawl back into my world
You can make red blue
The old, new
The hot, cool
You should try it too
For he who controls the mind controls himself
Oct 18, 2019
Oct 18, 2019 at 5:26 AM UTC
Yeah
I am about to take you to a world
A really amusing one
One out of the imaginations of man
A world where the YES of one is doubtless,
And the NO meant nothing less.
Where there is zero tolerance
Cause it knows no violence
Where love and peace are its theme
And hate and darkness dim
A world of no worries,
A world where death brought no Mourning's
Where death ia seen as freedom,
A path to God's own kingdom
Where death is seen as Gods love
And as such, a blessing from above
A world where your talent is revealed to you,
And true love to be is shown to you.
A world with no pain
Where everyone was shown his own path, her own land
A world where we know our destiny
And didn't have to waste time living a fantasy.
Where at night we got drunk with ale
Cause we fear not a fail
And God has assured us his hail
Alongside a wonderful tale
A world where fear exists not
Because trust never has a but
A world where love is a permanent seal
And no one dares to tamper with God's will
A world with no spill of blood
In other words, a FANTASY WORLD.
Oct 18, 2019
Oct 18, 2019 at 5:21 AM UTC