Speak
In the midst of the voices
And a myriad of choices
Bring Your clarity
Teach
In the midst of the know it alls
And the fears of too many falls
Bring Your sanity
Sep 30, 2021
Sep 30, 2021 at 9:24 AM UTC
I'm older,
I'm tired, and it shows.
I'm slighty cynical, very sensitive, questioning everything I've ever done
A midlife crisis, you could suppose.
In a week of 7 days
Somehow I muster strength for a few good things
I'm still a dreamer (and I'm not the only one)
But disappointment, no answers, bad experiences sting
And yet I don"t want to change
I miss the peace and purity of heart
But not the naivety and being played and endless trying
I like that I'm more street smart
So I am stuck, not better sometimes bitter
not here neither there
I think I've moved on, only to find I'm back at square one
Sometimes gasping for air
At times even this glass half empty is glass half full
I believe everyone comes to a standstill
I believe it's utterly necessary to go back to the drawingboard
To get wisdom, capacity and to be filled.
I'm older,
I'm tired, and it shows.
However, with God this may be a new beginning.
Who knows?
Jun 24, 2018
Jun 24, 2018 at 2:12 PM UTC
In the train
on my way
to another day
Another place
But now it's time
To get to a different space
If I can do it
Here below the Montana skies
Between you and I
But sometimes I am feeling
A little lost
A little unable
To make the connection
Or maybe even the desire
Or maybe my heart has grown cold
Cold like the snow
still clinging to the grassy horizons
Maybe I need you to warm me again
Woo me again
But wondering if my heart will receive it.
Sometimes I can step in a space
And sing of your grace
But it seems like when I lost everybody
I also lost you.
#chandredewet
#journeythoughts
#amtrakempirebuilder
#6March2017
Apr 14, 2017
Apr 14, 2017 at 11:08 AM UTC
Am I a friend or an entertainer
Are you my friend or my fan
When the show is over do you go home
Or do you stand by my side
I cannot dance and laugh and fill your cups
And turn around and find my home's empty
While I never did it for reward
I am a friend and not an actress
I need friends not fans
When the show is over
I am not okay with standing alone anymore
At least Hollywood pays you dollars
And while I am hurt, I have not entirely given up
but it's not up to me anymore
Maybe one day you'll know...
-chandre de wet 02/06/2016
Jun 2, 2016
Jun 2, 2016 at 2:27 PM UTC
I press into you,
You press into me
Discernment is heightened
All muck is revealed.
The world is insensitive.
or if I euphamize it, street smart.
things outside seem volatile
far from the peace in my heart
Yet as I respond to your beckoning
you trully are my safe place
For this grace I am grateful
Now allow myself in your embrace
Aug 17, 2015
Aug 17, 2015 at 4:38 AM UTC
there is pain in my heart
the I plaster
there is shame in my soul
that screams disaster
there is doubt in my mind
there is fear in my thoughts
Still the still small voice whispers to me:
You're not alone
my beautiful child
You're not alone
You're the one that I love
You're my treasure
I'll seek you till I find
You're not alone
I'm Emmanuel
I am learning to trust
though its frightening
I am learning to share
things I'm hiding
I am letting me go
I am loving though it costs
While still hearing his voice sing over me:
Nov 26, 2014
Nov 26, 2014 at 6:50 AM UTC
this season
i dont know
i dont know where to go
i dont know how to fix things
i dont know all the answers
i dont know how to make it
i dont know, I dont know
what i've seen
is when i give up
he can work and move
so even in my i don't knows
i'm giving up
God work and move
God keep the pieces of my heart together
And heal me once again
God help me in my relationship with others
Help them in their relationship with me
But mostly God,hold me.
So that I can be ok, even when I don't know.
Nov 26, 2014
Nov 26, 2014 at 6:49 AM UTC
The face of South Africa
is a multicoloured face
hair of various ethnicities
eyes from blue to black
many languages,dialects and slang
customs and culture a kaleidoscope
What is a South African?
Can one really define?
Except by the beat in the heart
of the one birthed in this nation
or adopted this as home
White, Black,Coloured, Indian, Chinese...
the list goes on and on...
I am a South African
Nov 26, 2014
Nov 26, 2014 at 6:46 AM UTC
As I listen once again
I'm wondering if you could hold me
Can I rest my head on Your shoulder
knowing you or I'll never leave
Can You hold my heart inside your hands
I'm afraid I'd let it go
This relationship's so precious
I cannot afford to take any risks
You're the only one who knows me
You know me better than myself
Will You show me how to love You more
Show me how to bless Your heart
I'm standing here with outstretched arms
Praying you'll reach down
I cannot without You Lord
I'm clumsy with my heart
Nov 26, 2014
Nov 26, 2014 at 6:44 AM UTC
I will praise You for all that You are
For You are more than everything
I will praise You regardless of what I feel
For this is bigger than emotions
I will praise You no matter who’s watching
For You are my song, and can’t be quieted
I will praise You for all of my days
For my day,my years,my life belongs to You
I will praise You early in the morning
For You have given me a brand new hope
I will praise You in the darkest of nights
For Your light will never be overshadowed
I will praise You when my heart is broken
For You are the healer of wounds
I will praise You when I reach higher heights
For without You I am lower than low
I will praise You for every good thing
For that simply means that it came from You
I will praise You for every grieving trial
For if I made it through it only means I’m stronger
I will praise You for every good friend in my life
For it only means for each friend put in my life,You have thought of me
I will praise You for my family
For You love me enough, not to leave me alone
I will praise you for every smile and laugh that comes from my lips
For it is only the joy of Your Salvation that makes me happy
I will praise You for every tear, and broken heart
For it is then that I feel Your comfort the most
I will praise You for my every breath
For it means that You have a purpose and hope for me
I will praise You even in my death
For it means at last I can be with you
I will praise You no matter what.
For You are everything,
My life, my being, my comfort, my strength, my love…
My God.
Nov 26, 2014
Nov 26, 2014 at 6:42 AM UTC