im stuck between what my mind and heart wants
nothing seems to be in its right place
or maybe im just never meant to be anywhere that i happen to be
my mind is always caressed by clouds and burned by the vocalists of the earth
words are as scorching as the rays of the sun and my writs are itching once again
and im scared im scared im scared this world is not for me
Jul 7, 2015
Jul 7, 2015 at 2:31 PM UTC
ignore the words
that scatter through my mouth
instead let me paint you a story across your lips
my tongue is the paintbrush that will reveal the secrets behind my scars
let me inhale the life that is within you
let our breath become one, allow my heart to finally steady
let's explore the rythm of each others' bodies
and i'll sing you the song that i can't ever remember the words to
instead of bleeding, let's exhaust our lust
and sweat out the bleakness that dominates our hours of the night
taste the desires that linger within the gaze of my eyes
they speak more than my words can ever say
Dec 16, 2014
Dec 16, 2014 at 12:29 AM UTC
this life is based on impermanence
i'm flailing through the sea of screens that demand attention
my eyesight is wasted on things that don't exist
and my thoughts are plagued by lies
that block the words of my surroundings
i won't remember much
this life is based on fleeting pleasures
i'm willingly sacrificing my mind
to a soulless machine
society is built upon a parallel universe
meant to close the boundaries between us
but it seems that it deepens the gap that exists
with those that are on our either shoulder
i may not be completely brainwashed yet i'm struggling to find the clean air
Dec 15, 2014
Dec 15, 2014 at 10:36 PM UTC
i may be "real"...
but i sure as hell don't know what i want
Dec 1, 2014
Dec 1, 2014 at 11:16 PM UTC
and still i wonder what it takes to be better...
Nov 3, 2014
Nov 3, 2014 at 10:52 PM UTC
my mind is enveloped within clouds
everything reaches me through a clouded veil
not present on earth; i'm not like all of you
speech is forced and muscle contractions carefully controlled
i don't understand, and i feel so separate, i can't find myself
and you all just laugh while i'm slowly floating away
lately i don't want to be anywhere near the ground
i'll come to terms with my eyelids kissing the raindrops
Nov 1, 2014
Nov 1, 2014 at 3:13 PM UTC
just when i believe
that i'll break through the glassy surface of the water i'm trapped beneath
and finally get a breath of fresh air
some part of you pulls me back under
i hate admitting that i find you suffocating
my head at times feels like its about to explode from the pressure
i've been underwater too long
and my mind has become too accustomed to murkiness
the calm exterior only hides the fact that i'm slowly drowning
but i'm killing my lungs like you do
so perhaps we both are drowning since we can't breathe
but i'm losing myself in fantasies and drugs while you lose yourself in pretty girls
and i keep feeling myself being pushed further beneath the water...
i'm forgetting how to swim.
Oct 7, 2014
Oct 7, 2014 at 9:23 PM UTC
but i think that i'm as addicted to you as you are to Marlboro's
quitting you cold turkey was a ******* mistake i'm left with these cravings
that make my veins itch and my body feels like it's full of cement
i cant help but think of you at night when only white noise lies with me when it used to be you with your arms wrapped around me
but when i wake up you are the first thing i think of and you aren't there anymore even though i chose to leave you since i thought you were toxic like the tar that coats your lungs but now im struggling to breathe easily anyway
it doesnt make sense to be full of emptiness but i can somehow feel it in my chest and i cant even take a hit off of you because i am not the cigarette that gets to touch your lips
and like quitting smoking everyone has said i'll be healthier without you but my mind is feeling so sick despite the smile painted on my face
Aug 26, 2014
Aug 26, 2014 at 10:00 PM UTC
i love listening to words spill
from uncaring mouths
the way they temporarily cease the bombardment of harsh winds
within my consciousness
and
i love having the pressure from lungs removed
and to be able to intake oxygen as easily
as the the trees within the forest
but sometimes i hate the sleep that plagues my eyes
when there's a world to see
and i hate the letters my heart receives from my mind
with the scalding words that dull my senses
in the midst of an utterly sensational universe
Jul 31, 2014
Jul 31, 2014 at 12:04 AM UTC
sharp shots to the nerves
helping to dissipate the numb that
infects the core
footsteps creeping forward
approaching something
that appears to look like better stories
faces painted for the daytime
keeping the moments predictable but
leaving the hearts yearning for chaos in the nighttime
Jul 16, 2014
Jul 16, 2014 at 8:13 PM UTC