I want to catch you attention,
but not hear that I'm beautiful for my size.
The things you say stay with me,
they tumble around in my head.
I will overthink and pick apart each word,
compare it to how we act together.
I want to find my butterflies,
find someone who wants to make me smile.
But I also want to be the reason your always smiling,
I want to be able to chase away your bad days.
Jun 2, 2016
Jun 2, 2016 at 10:49 AM UTC
I feel like I need a recharge..
need to plug back into myself for a while.
Maybe have the sun charge my soul,
melt away all the darkness.
But I cant find the sun.. cant find the warmth
to bring me back to life..
Apr 15, 2016
Apr 15, 2016 at 9:42 AM UTC
You are forever my Heart and Soul.
My love for you will never cease to grow.
You bring light and love to my day, I love you more
than words could ever say.
From this day on I know this is true,
I cannot wait to spend my life with you.
Feb 10, 2016
Feb 10, 2016 at 10:54 AM UTC
There is a crack in my Armor
its beginning to let the dark creep
back in to my life.
I keep trying to patch my life
but my fingers are numb from trying
from trying and failing..
how can it be so hard to fix
who I am, I don't want who I used
to be.. I just want to figure out who I
even am anymore..
I feel shattered on the inside..
cant remember the last time I felt whole.
Dec 3, 2015
Dec 3, 2015 at 11:33 AM UTC
Sometimes I feel so hollow
just a shell of who I was or would have become
My internal war destroys what I think I want
making me feel doubt about it all
most days I stop trying to fight it
letting it consume what little happiness
I find..its greedy like that
always wanting more..
I know its selfish to allow others in
when darkness will surely win...
Dec 2, 2015
Dec 2, 2015 at 5:35 PM UTC
The chaos in me wont subside,
I try and push myself, make myself FEEL happy.. be happy
but I cant control the Riots inside my head.. causing destruction of
my heart and deteriorating my mind..
I hear people talk to me.. or rather at me, telling me to take my time
that I just need to focus on me.. but how can I focus with all the noise
in my mind.. its deafening ..
My greatest fear is that it will win.. it will completely shatter the thought of who I was or wanted to be.
Dec 2, 2015
Dec 2, 2015 at 2:21 PM UTC
Yesterday came and went
With only the memories that are crushed in
my mind.
Everyone reminded me that its ok and
that I am stronger for having the courage
to leave and want more for my life.
Even though I have moved on from what
became of us, I reminded of the failed parts
of my life.
Oct 9, 2015
Oct 9, 2015 at 8:34 AM UTC
Who am I?
Who should I be?
Why cant I find my place in world full
choices?
I know that I'm everyone's cup of tea,
more like the tea bag just feeling used.
I pray for peace and self acceptance.
Knowing I need to love me before I can
find where I truly need to be.
Pulling in different directions
barely holding on, my strength depleting.
I'm weak and so tired,
just wanna fold into myself until
it all passes. but the darkness there
can be deafening too.
C.F2015
Oct 3, 2015
Oct 3, 2015 at 11:54 AM UTC
Wrapped in your warmth
Snuggled to your side
your arm draped over me
with pride you cannot hide.
I am yours and you are mine
Forever with you is where I want to be
To cherish each day
For all eternity.
C.F2015
Sep 28, 2015
Sep 28, 2015 at 3:19 PM UTC
The first time can be scary
not sure you made the right choice.
Unfamiliar sounds and smells
gives you a rush you can never forget.
But with every new one
you slowly become submerged in this world.
The ink lets you express your heart
or heals your soul.
For a moment time stands still
and your at peace.
Accepting yourself and choosing
to live the life you want.
C.F15
Sep 1, 2015
Sep 1, 2015 at 12:19 PM UTC