mother problems
chicken pox
asked my aunt
she replied
shower my mother with love and care
after many tries
chicken pox
appointment to the end
of chicken pox
sent my mother a message that she wasn’t okay
drowsy drowsy
medicines
drowsy
shouts and screams
a clueless father
a I-dont-give-two-fucking-shits sister
exams over
results out
failed my favourite subject
HOW DID I FAIL LITERATURE
chicken pox doctor
misdiagnosis
then gave me wrong number of weeks to rest
choreography for bollywood
tamil folk
parents were showering ill concealed parental
concern
went to support
ran ran ran
confused and nervous
of the entire world hating me
i ran. ran. i ******* ran
wash the dishes
cooked **** - got scolded for not cooking
extremely pms-y father
why the ******* hell did that happen
cooked
messed up dishes
ate dinner outside
whole family sick
syf prac horrendous
out of breath
trying to run
dinner outside everyday
people who didnt listen
people who didnt care about the dance
time limit
one week before kanal
havent finished choreography
CHICKEN ****** POX
came back to school
parents being ***
whole family down with chicken pox
mother working her *** off
she doesnt want any help
dancing dancing dancing
mother’s talk about me trying to get away from dance
raffles diploma
performance
november performance
i couldnt dance
kicked out ruthlessly
kanal
five minutes before
a message no more such activities next year
marche dinner
screamed and screamed
out of breath
******* hole in my throat
ran ran ran ran ran
away from idiosyncrasies
raffles diploma
career choices
out of money
where did all the money go
where did all the money go
goals
fashion designer
parents : banker, scientist
work backwards from the goal
dance i want to dance
outings
2 days before
go on to khan academy
father only listens to himself
crushed bones
crushed ribcages
i cant breathe
still running
Nov 15, 2014
Nov 15, 2014 at 3:48 AM UTC
remember the times
I thought I was black and white as this page
My poems were out to represent
this black and white
and soon enough
this black and white starts to fade
with time everything starts to fade
once it had faded into the black and white
on this page
like this page
now it seems against the page
it fades into
more and more colors
the world's seems to be more than just
black and white
like on this page.
Oct 16, 2014
Oct 16, 2014 at 9:37 AM UTC
Holed up in a bed
With a few blankets
A running nose
Temperature as hot as a fire
Poor throat, my poor throat
Letting lose of the dust at its base
A running nose
A blocked nose
Hidden ears
burning forehead
sick.
Aug 24, 2014
Aug 24, 2014 at 6:57 AM UTC
Had a way with words
Had a way with these many letters
All scrunched together
Scrambled to the edges that hold them together
I don't know what I'm writing
Don't care enough to know
that I am writing.
Confusion and confusion
beguiles me
as I scrunch and scramble more words.
Aug 24, 2014
Aug 24, 2014 at 6:52 AM UTC
chilled to the core of the bone
with a myriad snowflakes
and beautiful beautiful shaven ice
around me
falling through my tousled hair
all bathing in the sun's glory
Wish I could be there.
Jul 8, 2014
Jul 8, 2014 at 8:51 AM UTC
people around me
are
over-achievers
all cut from the same cloth
OVER ACHIEVERS
people leading groups of people
getting As
involved in a million different things
and I sit here
with just one thing
and that one thing isn't even complete.
Jul 8, 2014
Jul 8, 2014 at 8:49 AM UTC
the body, a cage
myriad of feelings
craving to be let out
Hush, little child, stay right in there
You don't deserve to be let out
the body,
holding for the litany of plain actions
every single day
the body,
God is in it,
heaven?
hell?
what is this
the body,
a circus act
standing on a thin rope
ready to tilt and fall
a lifeless body
with a lifeless heart
sits there
awaiting the cold,cruel stab
to the heart
May 12, 2014
May 12, 2014 at 8:09 AM UTC
Where did you go?
Where is your spirit?
Remembered that you told me
that you'll be behind me all the way
That's what you said
The special connection we shared
Where did that go?
Have I changed to a somebody you didn't care about?
My mother , grandmother - all would have been better
if you didn't succumb to the weight of your heart on your shoulders
Why, why
Why do you do this
Was Heaven a far better place than Earth?
If that is so, tell me
how to get there
Or tell me
How to solve everything that comes my way
Life's been going downhill
Since the day you left us
Come back, grandpa
Come back
I miss you
and I love you.
May 9, 2014
May 9, 2014 at 9:18 AM UTC
Sacred place, it is
I lay on the ground
Soaking in the moisture and
the very green smell
I look to the white canopy above
and smile
sheepishly
my heart being caressed by the lovely words
uttered by thy soul
It's a lovely place
Close the door, opening my castle on the clouds
Closed from all bad days and bad nights
Closed from the monstrous glares and tiring faces
The endless criticisms
I can never run away to such beautiful places
Because monsters from my either world barge in
Bang the door
And scream
And pull
And drag me out.
O' ain't I the tired soul?
Why can't you see?
May 7, 2014
May 7, 2014 at 10:15 AM UTC
sometimes,
when you are so sad,
so happy
you can't feel
it's a numbing sensation
passivity and neutral
and all
it's debilitating
you can't feel.
you can't know
what you need to know
and what you need to
feel.
Apr 18, 2014
Apr 18, 2014 at 12:22 AM UTC