they describe betrayal as
a knife in your back
so why does it feel like
it's going straight through
my heart?
Jan 25, 2014
Jan 25, 2014 at 1:37 PM UTC
time heals wounds
but I have run out of time and
out of luck because
these wounds
are not fading and
you have hurt me
more than my body
can repair.
Dec 28, 2013
Dec 28, 2013 at 6:09 PM UTC
I don't exist anymore
I'm a shadow
within your eyes. I am
only black dust and
oil on the ground and
dead insects on the windshield.
Dec 28, 2013
Dec 28, 2013 at 5:53 PM UTC
find me on the dark side of the moon,
in the neglected spaces of your decaying soul, and
in the cracks of your fractured bones.
Dec 26, 2013
Dec 26, 2013 at 11:26 PM UTC
let yourself in through my
open wounds
I'll shelter your
crooked frame and
I'll nurture your
crumbling heart
Dec 26, 2013
Dec 26, 2013 at 9:38 PM UTC
I’ve been dreaming about you lately.
sometimes they're daydreams about
you and I
living together
in a small house with
kids of our own, learning
how to live a full life.
happy.
I'm finally happy, clean.
no more cuts, no more burns.
no more thoughts of ending it all.
some dreams are
strange;
dreams of you slitting your own throat, telling me you
want to die.
I can’t stop you because I
understand your pain;
a wanting to feel
nothing.
and I just let you cut
deeper,
watching blood escape your
broken veins.
some dreams are
terrifying;
dreams of you driving to my house in the middle of the night, your
reckless driving causing you to
crash.
hours later, as we're all searching for you, I find your
body, cold and weary, lying on the
street.
no last words, no goodbye kiss.
but there's one dream in particular,
the scariest of them all.
no blood, no guts, no death;
we haven't seen each other in awhile, so
things get heated pretty fast.
we're alone.
hugs turn to
kisses and kisses turn to
touches and needless to say,
clothes come off.
you're bewildered by what you see:
cuts everywhere.
my arms and thighs are laced in
rows of red.
new wounds, old scars,
everywhere.
I've hid them from you for
so long. and you told me
you were an understanding guy, but you've never
seen me so
vulnerable, so weak.
all walls have been
broken down.
things don't go well from here on out.
speechless, you don’t say a word, but you don't need words to
express your disgust,
I can see it in your eyes.
who wants to love a sad girl?
*who wants to **** a freak?*
the hardest part is watching the
pain flicker in your eyes.
"I'm better, I promise."
you never believed it, but you wanted to.
you wanted to have a normal girlfriend, believe me, I know.
although there's nothing gory about the dream, it's
scary as hell.
it could happen.
one day you could see my
scars and you could run.
just like everyone else.
please don’t be like them.
please.
Dec 25, 2013
Dec 25, 2013 at 11:32 PM UTC
every night I
try to dream of
happy things-
things like being with you.
but those dreams haunt me,
for they will never come true.
Jun 28, 2013
Jun 28, 2013 at 2:37 PM UTC
how do you bleach
someone from your brain because
I can't stand the thought of you
anymore.
Jun 26, 2013
Jun 26, 2013 at 12:10 AM UTC
loving someone like you is
so hard because you and I both know that
you deserve so much better than me but
for some reason,
you've decided to stick around and try to
understand me enough to
put my broken pieces
back together
Jun 25, 2013
Jun 25, 2013 at 8:54 PM UTC
it's 12:31 and there's
nothing I crave more
than daisies in my hair,
a coffee in my hand,
and you.
Jun 25, 2013
Jun 25, 2013 at 12:32 AM UTC