should i be selfish or should i not?
i want to stay as someone whom you knew i was.
the someone who understands you in every way.
i want to stay as the someone whom you already opened up to just on the first day we met.
i want to stay as someone whom you could trust and depend on, even though i cannot depend on myself.
i want to be understanding, i really do.
but i don't even know who is speaking to me anymore. is it the angel or the devil?
this voice keeps telling me to be selfish. my greed is swallowing me whole and i don't know how to fight it.
it keeps telling me that:
i want to be someone more than understanding to you.
i want to be someone to tell you good nights and sweet dreams.
i want to be someone who hugs you every time you feel the world's closing up on you.
i want to be someone whom you'll let kiss your scars and all your expressions of art.
i want to be someone whom you'll let to have you just the way you are.
i want to be someone closer to you than anyone else.
i want to be someone who sees you during your lows so I can bring you back up to your highs.
i want to be someone who showers you all the love and care you deserve because **** it you deserve eveything good in this world.
i want to be someone who will always be there by your side during the days you feel lonely and when you feel like darkness is swallowing you whole.
i want to be someone who's like a glue to you that will let you put together the broken pieces of who you once were.
i want to be someone you'll hurt because I know you are worth hurting myself for.
i want to be someone who'll cry over you because i know you are worth every drop of my tears.
i want to be someone who tells you you are enough. you are even more than enough, with all your scars and everything you hate about yourself, you. are. enough.
i want to be someone who makes you realize that you, for fuck's sake my dear you you you, of all people in this world, deserve to be happy in this cruel life we live in and that you can be loved with all your scars and painful moments.
i want to be someone whom you'll let love you through each time that passes.
i want to be your everything.
but for fuck's sake that is too arrogant and selfish of me.
my heart is telling me that if i let you go, you will be the best thing i never had.
and yet, my conscience is telling me i'll just end up breaking you even more than you already are that's why i have to let you go.
so tell me, should i be understanding or should i be selfish?
Jul 22, 2018
Jul 22, 2018 at 9:08 AM UTC
promises are made to be broken for people who break promises but promises are kept for a lifetime for people who know how to keep them.
Mar 12, 2017
Mar 12, 2017 at 8:45 AM UTC
i have a secret to tell you.
i don't love you anymore.
i don't think about you anymore.
my heart doesn't beat fast whenever i see you anymore.
i have already moved on and started something new.
everything died since we parted.
all the memories, forgotten.
all the kisses, forgotten.
all the hugs, forgotten.
all the love, forgotten.
let me tell you a secret once more.
i lied.
Mar 12, 2017
Mar 12, 2017 at 8:36 AM UTC
She is as bright as the sky at daytime,
brightening everyone's lives as they smile.
He is as mysterious as the sky at nighttime,
witnessing everyone's secret within a mile.
She is a beautiful daytime so to speak,
he is a mysterious nighttime for everyone to keep.
Though each other long to be within reach,
but each other are not destined to meet.
Nov 1, 2016
Nov 1, 2016 at 10:42 AM UTC
"look out! the killer's around!" is what they say.
"look out! the killer is near!" is what they shout.
"look out! the killer has a knife!" is what they warn.
i don't really get it. i don't have a knife yet i think as if i'm killing myself. i'm not dangerous to be feared, nor psychotic to terrify people.
the thing is, i am scared of myself. dangerous thoughts linger longer than time.
people may see me normally in their eyes. but when i look at myself in the mirror, i see differently.
in my eyes, i am the killer. not the one who kills other people with force but rather someone who kills herself with her thoughts.
thus, the most dangerous killer in this world, is no other than one's self.
Jul 10, 2016
Jul 10, 2016 at 9:37 AM UTC
she's a raging storm,
he's a calm summer weather.
not destined to be.
Jun 26, 2016
Jun 26, 2016 at 7:23 AM UTC
Weak just to love you,
but strong just to protect you.
Just to be with you.
Jun 26, 2016
Jun 26, 2016 at 7:22 AM UTC
With this vast world we live in,
nothing seems to last forever.
Countless people come to and fro,
but only few have given me shelter.
It was you who first stepped in,
made me feel things I never knew would matter.
Back then you were the stars to my dark sky,
thank you for making it brighter.
You were the first to ever look past my flaws,
and embraced me in your arms tighter and tighter.
The first to love me as someone special,
and the first to let me experience such closure.
You were a knight in shining armor,
you were my knight and at the same time my armor.
But then, slowly and slowly, you began backing down,
and rust seem to slowly and slowly engulf the armor.
You showed me your love in sweet small ways,
but as time passed they turned smaller and smaller.
Such sweet simple gestures turned so small that even my heart,
it cannot feel them any longer.
Throughout the time we've been side by side,
only few memories were shared from one to the other.
But my mind and heart cannot lie,
that I am grateful for all the times we were together.
An us may no longer be,
but I know this is for the betterment and sake of each other.
With us now in our separate ways,
there is now room for growing and flourishing in the future.
Words cannot fathom enough how I am thankful,
for the little infinity we've had together.
Within numbered days you have had given me forever,
and for that I am truly grateful.
Jun 18, 2016
Jun 18, 2016 at 9:38 AM UTC
8:56pm
oh the things i'd give and do,
just to feel your arms around me,
holding me close and tight,
never letting go.
Oct 8, 2015
Oct 8, 2015 at 10:10 AM UTC
i gave you love like mine
and you're no longer alone
when the sun shines.
tear drops on your shirt,
no longer present.
i told you i'll let them fall
only when you're full of content.
i became yours,
and you became mine.
you were asking for love,
and i gave it.
all my love is now yours,
cherish it, nurture it, treasure it.
Oct 8, 2015
Oct 8, 2015 at 10:07 AM UTC