carina-johnson
26/F
Love to write short poem, rhymes, and life stories, and collages. / / Found a passion for poetry when my Uncle/father/best friend died in 2014, / I've kept a lot to myself, It's a few that I would love to share with you all. / #beginnerpeoms #view #relate
Losing myself! I don't know if I'll have anything left
Anything left to give to those whom need it most
I can't grasp life
Should I end it all
I can't walk
I can't stand
I can barely crawl
Crawl back back to my happy place
Wondering if I can muster up any space
A space where in can I can hide
Hide all the pain that's dwelling dwelling inside of me
This can't be what God has destined for me
Destined to live and be others peace
Pieces of me are tumbling down. I used to be able to turn everyone's frowns upside down
Buy yet mines in stuck in a continuous state
State of nonexisting promisies
Promises are meant to be broken, torn away and dumped like last weeks dinner. Rotting away at your soul...til you no longer have control
Control over my mind
Am I coming or going?
Will you meet me at the end?
To say giving my all is and forever will be my deadliest sin
Mar 7, 2018
Mar 7, 2018 at 11:25 PM UTC
The night is young
Where should we go
To wonder off to no mans land,
You play a great game
Having me fall in love over again
We sink into love quicksand,
You told me you'd never hurt me
Now I have nothing to show for my time and effort,
To see me down brings you comfort
Comfort to know I'll never depart
For you
hold the key to my heart
No family no peers for this I have reached my Whits end
To think we were once friends
Jan 7, 2018
Jan 7, 2018 at 9:35 PM UTC
Looking at the wall,
Not knowing if I'll fall or crawl,
Crawl towards my dreams in hopes to regain my strength to pull myself back up to my feet.
Looking at the wall I consider myself lucky to be able to see such a thing,
The things I see are not the wall but for me my life flashing before my eyes.
Have I falling to my own demise?
As I try to continue to crawl towards the wall so I can pull myself up I see those who want to keep me down,
I cry yet I continue to crawl as the wall and the floor simultaneously drift further from my grasps.
No one around to ask,
Ask for assistance in trying to help me to my feet,
As I continue to crawl a single tear falls from my eyes, it was not my demise, it was my test, the people I see are not there to hinder me, yet they're here to forgive me and help me see what they see, me struggling to simple be, when in all actuality I have been and will continue to aim for that wall.
Jan 4, 2018
Jan 4, 2018 at 4:58 PM UTC
I am yet fascinated by the way you smile,
I am fascinated with the tone and masculinity in your voice,
I am fascinated with how you're man enough to let me take control of the steering wheel for a while, while we get life under control,
I am yet fascinated with how generous you are to others even those who've turned their backs to you,
I am infatuated with your entire bean, you are my hero in many ways even if you can't see it, you've been fighting a battle of pain and agony yet you can still manage to smile and laugh, and when you do it sounds like two angels are singing to my inner spirit. You are my strength.
I Carina Britney am and forever will be fascinated, infatuated, sincerely and deeply in love with you Joseph Britney
Jan 3, 2018
Jan 3, 2018 at 8:05 PM UTC
It's a girl,
As beautiful as black sparkling pearl,
No one can take you away from me,
It's destiny can't you see,
To have a baby girl to live the life that was meant to be,
Be here be free,
Chase your dreams let's be happy..
May 3, 2016
May 3, 2016 at 12:09 PM UTC
I love I do,
Truly can't wait to set my eye's upon you,
I've been waiting on this day for as long as I could Imagine,
To say loving you will be my number one passion,
I want to cuddle and protect you from the world,
Rather your my hansom son, or my beautiful baby girl,
Times has changed and so will people,
I will cherish you as if you were born in a steeple,
You will be my light at the end of the tunnel,
With you by my side there isn't anything that can cause me to trumble,
For I will be
your protector,
your provider,
your mentor,
your friend,
I will try my best to shield you from all those who choose to harm you,
Until my body turns cold and blue,
My love I encourage thee to strive for things in life,
Live without hate nor strife,
For you will forever have changed my life
Jan 18, 2016
Jan 18, 2016 at 9:20 PM UTC
It's the rhythm in the beat,
When it moves down my body to my feet;
At this time I will not make a single peep,
As my body flows from side to side trying to relive those beautiful nights
Nights that are just filled with music and love which is never too steep;
Sweep me off my feet til our gentle lips meet,
Allow me to return your worthy greet within time;
Unwind while we sip on that Red wine,
Tell me stories of past loves so I can know how to conquer and become the one above,
Above all the other women you thought you once loved;
Twinkle your eyes to glance a hint of the sunrise,
Let your body be at ease while I set up our final surprise;
This is the way you will meet your demise... Music conquers all.
Jan 12, 2016
Jan 12, 2016 at 10:33 PM UTC
Sick and tired of being sick and tired,
All seems lost at the governments cost;
My heart is heavy watching the guy I love go through so much agonizing pain,
Can he just live his life without the upcoming thought of going insane;
Oh my bad sorry we're not on the top of you concern,
Barely making ends meet with the simple dollars we try to earn;
Working for the man, what man would want to see another human being in pain,
Feeling as if his life is being washed down a drain;
The drain of life that's constantly washing away the good and spitting out the bad, Yes I meant how I worded it, You're supposed to wash away the bad and bring for the good...
Tell me why do so many of our loved ones suffer,
We work just to stay afloat ;
Afloat of the endless sinking world we live in,
Where no man sin is greater than the next;
Wishing bad karma's on our ex,
Just thinking about the next thing that's oh so cool so we can Flex;
I am Outraged,
Outraged that we as a whole can not get along,
Knowing that if everyone sticks together this world will continue to grow strong,
Stop shooting down others because of who they call their sisters and brothers,
We are all the same,
What color do you bleed...Red.!
My word will not go unsaid.....
I AM OUTRAGED with the world I so call home.
Jan 3, 2016
Jan 3, 2016 at 6:17 PM UTC
It's like the inevitable either you can climb it, or simply take the longer route and walk around,
The mountains are yet alive so when you go there for peace they'll make the slightest sound,
They will will not crumble do to a simple step,
Neither did they judge you when all you did is wept;
Be one with nature,
because rather we like it or not that is our future;
To become back one with where it is that our bodies came,
To finally realize that no matter what we do in life we are all indeed the same;
To the grass below and to the sky's above,
we will once become those we love;
To the mountains and to the sea,
To know that no one is below or above thee;
Dec 29, 2015
Dec 29, 2015 at 6:22 PM UTC