Hello my name is Jo and Im a shapeshifter
Hello Jo
I change when Im around him
He makes me someone who gets drunk
He makes me into a person willing to forsake those most important to me
He makes me into the worst version of myself
He is my father
He uses everything he's got to overpower everyone else
I learned my shapeshifter habits from him
Thats why Im here
To say enough
To put a stop to my shapeshifter ways
Jul 16, 2013
Jul 16, 2013 at 8:39 PM UTC
Name it.
It's on the tip of your tongue.
don't worry I won't tell. I'll keep your secret.
I'll help you solve the riddle. well, the old ones are white. the young ones are a raw pink. and the babies are blood red. all in different directions. road maps. showing roads, streets, alleys, and avenues of pain. hidden well and undiscovered. well almost. but it's ok everything can be blamed on the cat or maybe just extreme klutziness. this is the first and last time.......that someone will find out. Locked away with a plain key. one that will never be beautiful or extraordinary never hung on a delicate chain for everyone to see. keep yourself close and your pain closer
Jul 16, 2013
Jul 16, 2013 at 6:10 PM UTC
all jingling together. one for the house. one for the car. one for the truth. one for the secret never told. you keep them close to your heart. these keys. like the skins of an onion.one tearful layer after another must be peeled to find the center. like tiny bells they are constant reminders of commitments and promises. So which one is the key. which one do you what? The key to happiness? Or the key success? pick your key. choose wisely.
Jul 9, 2013
Jul 9, 2013 at 2:44 PM UTC
*You have hurt me too deep this time
Now its irreversible*
She goes into the room that once was a safe haven
She tears all of the things that remind her
Remind her of all the happiness
That has been shot to hell now
She sets all of it on fire
And as the happy facade melts away
The truth is visible
It was a jail cell disguised with
Glow in the dark stars, posters, and pictures of fake happiness
After, sitting alone among her memories
Scattered ashes of a life that has caught fire
She screams for no one and no one comes
And at last the tears wander down her cheeks
Melting into nothing
Disappearing just like her
Jul 9, 2013
Jul 9, 2013 at 2:36 PM UTC
Sometimes people are in a bad place
And we keep it bottled up where no one can see it
Then at some point the bottle is just too full
And something has to spill out or the glass will shatter
My bottle is full to the brim and has been for a while
This is my spill:
Someone to believe in me
That's all I need
No matter what happens, no matter how many times I fail
No matter how much I change my mind
No matter if I'm cheerful or depressed
I used to have someone who was this to me
But in my limited experience I have learned:
That nothing is forever
This was no exception
There position is open
So far no takers.
Jul 7, 2013
Jul 7, 2013 at 1:12 AM UTC
How can I explain it to people.
They accuse me of changing my mind.
Of flip flopping
To them I want to say:
"Hey, if you had a life changing decision to make would you just make a snap judgement?"
Should I take the road that takes me the farthest?
Should I take the road that makes me happy?
How can I know what will keep me happiest?
There is no guarantee.
How am I supposed to choose what is best?
Sometimes we make stupid decisions based on stupid things.
I'm afraid of making the wrong decision.
Jul 7, 2013
Jul 7, 2013 at 12:54 AM UTC
the unreachable black hole disguised as a star
something you cant quite mange
teasing you with its proximity
there are many things in the universe control is not one of them
Jul 4, 2013
Jul 4, 2013 at 7:47 PM UTC
He dials a number he thought he knew by heart.
She waits for the call she knows will never come.
They live in separate worlds of pain.
Ring, Ring, Ring
Him: Hello?
Her: Hi....Who is this?
Him: I'm sorry is Julie there?
Her: No sorry I think you have the wrong number
Him: Ok thank you
Her: Ok....Bye
Him: Hey wait....I know this is crazy but do you want to get coffee sometime?
Her: ............Um.........I'm sorry I don't even know you
Him: I just have a feeling....Please....It's just a cup of coffee
Her:..............No. I'm sorry
Him:Well I guess you have my number now......Call me if you ever change your mind....Bye.
Her: Bye.
Jun 26, 2013
Jun 26, 2013 at 6:46 PM UTC
The sky relinquishes its water
The tears I can't cry
Are substituted by the endless droplets bombarding my face
Silent and Imperceptible
We broke like a cloud split apart by lightning
It was sudden but not without pain
Both of us blind
It was a shot in the dark that killed us
Transformed us back into you and me
We are the puzzle pieces that look like they are a match
But once put together it becomes obvious that
They are completely the wrong shape
Jun 26, 2013
Jun 26, 2013 at 6:34 PM UTC
Note To The Reader: Attempting to read all of these would be ridiculous but I hope that you can scroll through and hopefully see something you can connect to.....
1. I am sad or unhappy a lot
2. I am happy sometimes though and so I try to make other people laugh then to make up for the times I make them cry
3. I love sunny days with a light breeze and alternately heavy rain and thunderstorms
4. I am a sucker for all things involving sugar in all its forms
5. I am an analyzer
6. I am a worrier
7. I am messy
8. I am opposed to people who aren't themselves and people who apologize for saying the truth
9. I am a terrible typer and speller
10. Fine is a word I use for almost everything
11. I dislike spending time with most of the people I know
12. I dont think the apocalypse would be a bad thing
13. Eight is my lucky number
14. I love books as they are my escape
15. I am in love
16. I want to be an artist
17. Music is my life and the reason I'm still alive
18. I only watch really funny movies or really sad movies
19. I love making lists
20. I love buying new notebooks and pencils
21. I'm self conscious and stubborn
22. I'm mildly lazy and very direct
23. Obsessed with DIY
25. Im a freak about germs
26. I am and have been depressed from a very young age
27. My favorite colors are blue and brown
28. I believe in magic but not true love
Jun 23, 2013
Jun 23, 2013 at 3:19 AM UTC