cain-the-wanderer
122/M/Cain Punishment
I have to walk this terrible world forever. / My two books so far. Print and e-book. / https://www.amazon.com.au/Black-Halo-Ryan-Geoffrey-Hayward/dp/B0DH8JGCYS / - - - / / https://www.amazon.com.au/Living-Dying-Ryan-Geoffrey-Hayward/dp/B0CV8B56DH
Do you wish to see the worse of me,
My chaos could destroy this whole **** world!!!
The storm of my **** ******* anger
I'll pull you into this sinking current,
I'll burn down your weekend lodge
after a few bottles of whiskey or scotch.
I watch on the jetty as you are a-flamed,
They say only then you are free of blame
I'm doing you a favor as now your sins,
belong to Jesus and nothing to do with me.
Apr 4, 2025
Apr 4, 2025 at 8:36 AM UTC
I'm a ghost in my family home,
My dad died tonight and its strange,
as my brother's living with his friend
I never knew such of quiet-ness.
Its not like the vocals through motel rooms,
and the still-ness is killing what's left of me.
I don't think I'm even human anymore.
I need to hear the junkies and their speak.
Bats covered in red and drops of their red,
I'll never forget identification,
Do I really see the haunting
The last time I see his body?
I need to hear shouting through the walls,
before the weeds in my liver grow so tall,
Left me a fortune but money means nothing
I once but now believe in shallow breathing.
I never deserved my father's blessing.
Look,
a shaven,
new look,
and I
with my eyes,
now fallen dead,
You can't
wish to be,
And if you are to **** me,
I won't ask Jesus to save me.
A stranger's ask for bulleit
A shot of the bourbon whiskey
but of course they don't have it.
I just wish to feel something
other than this fallen misery
I lost the best and the memories
& my dreams will surely **** me.
I'm getting too tired,
to continue to live.
Apr 4, 2025
Apr 4, 2025 at 8:15 AM UTC
In the ocean,
drowning
my blue skin,
gets torn within
sharks noticing
****** waters red.
The day of the dread
suffering as I bled
And the mutilation
can never be mended.
I was once a Christian,
before my ******
injecting sessions.
I dream of galloping horses
and sweet fallen green leaves
How is this going to end,
A corner of Oppressed,
I still dance impaired.
Apr 4, 2025
Apr 4, 2025 at 7:54 AM UTC
I was assigned 6035689 10
by the Government,
I am no longer a person
Just a weak little insect.
But I refuse to be their smashing
I'm ready with my butcher knives,
as they smash in without knocking
I'll have Henry Lee Lucus's smile
and start slicing away with glee.
I have played the game of suicide,
but my enemies have always failed,
In the end I'll be like Cain with hail
I have no grave stone to the denials.
Its's never will be
an end
to their
bruising,
accusations
poison
testimonies
Casted from sea
to my gravity
to end me.
Apr 4, 2025
Apr 4, 2025 at 7:37 AM UTC
I was hoping this is the end,
I have no wife & family,
And signed my truth decree
but its not enough for them.
Not even with hopes & pleas.
My heart is tightly pressed
I write this raw-fully bare.
Obsessed like a new trend
but not one of holy bless
Red is forever on a dress
And there is the metallic
if you sniff its sweet smell.
Like blood brothers kept
to promises of ocean's depths,
without the cheat of flares
Just another boat wreck.
Smashed with two best friends
scrambled in a special blend
I write thoughtfully hemmed,
And all of this I had dreamt
Sinking my fallen descent.
Apr 4, 2025
Apr 4, 2025 at 7:20 AM UTC
Deep in the eye of the void,
Black-ness won't be your solving
Hope is just a dream we wish,
as the corporates adds you to a list
The gun loaded with bullets,
He sees them all as Zombies
A setup or government conspiracy,
try and solve this **** mystery,
Tides wash ashore with bodies.
Apr 4, 2025
Apr 4, 2025 at 7:01 AM UTC
If the stones are smashing,
attempting to break
the emotions of your heart,
A shield is a temporary measure
but won't save your empathy
when you are breaking down.
Gripping the rope with blood,
attempting to escape this lake,
full of corpses filling a flood
greed or power is always a sake.
Crawling and soaked with mud.
to their feet that you will kiss,
Not to a fairy-tale princess,
No flicking of pages you'll miss.
They assigned a number
as you wake and slumber
You belong to the system.
Apr 4, 2025
Apr 4, 2025 at 6:55 AM UTC
A fireworks display,
I'll burn a corpse smoking,
while your closet secrets are locked
The black door's not going to open,
but the white door is your heaven.
Keep manipulating the child
and make the masses go wild.
A lit lighter won't flick in the wind,
No letter as you open the envelope,
A memory that's dragged from a dream,
A jumper with an amateur's seams.
Apr 4, 2025
Apr 4, 2025 at 6:39 AM UTC
You witch-hunters,
thought,
I'll be you heretic
I'll lie down
Let you rope me,
You don't know,
Cain too well.
He'll grab a lantern
and smash it
against your head.
I bet that ****** hurts,
And the rest of you,
Cain grabs a samurai sword.
This beach,
I'll fill it with gasoline
and fling it with
my chaotic power
with your henchmen
I'll then
light up the flame,
and all in my name.
Don't mess with Cain.
Apr 4, 2025
Apr 4, 2025 at 5:45 AM UTC
She says she's 21,
will drive me
from the nightclub
as I am very drunk,
I don't refuse
and notice she's beautiful
but so many I have sunk
We get to my house and she
asks to come on in
I may be intoxicated,
but not my morals within
Sorry, you're too young,
don't take this badly
You are are so sweet,
but gotta end this sadly.
I'm twice your age,
I do not say this gladly
But find a lover you're own age
though you're lovely.
Apr 3, 2025
Apr 3, 2025 at 4:10 PM UTC