why.
those three letters come to mind, every time.
why?
the question I seem to ask too much.
although, other questions are valid too.
is there really a divine reason?
when will I ever know?
can't they see?
don't they feel what I feel?
til death do us part, but what kind of death?
death of the spirit, the heart, trust...?
does departing with my body grant that the pain is all gone?
why?
Aug 10, 2023
Aug 10, 2023 at 3:44 PM UTC
Familiar feeling.
Once so keen. Lost it over time.
Rebuilt myself. Allowed you in.
5 years passed and I could be me.
3 years passed with you.I was me.
Promises of not repeating orbiting me to the familiar feeling.
Built that trust so far, only to be shattered.
A ring and a baby change this circumstance. Not what it was before.
This time I have to be strong. For me. My body. My baby.
I still love you. But why would you do this?
Me, it's me. You, it's you. Why?
Total of 9 years now, with this familiar feeling.
Will I ever say goodbye?
Jul 31, 2023
Jul 31, 2023 at 10:41 PM UTC
Who I was
When my heart was broken
Has sent backup
I have gone through hell
But now I'm back
Only with scars to show
Sep 22, 2020
Sep 22, 2020 at 3:33 PM UTC
Lately,
I can’t seem to get you off my mind
My vivid dreams wake me up in a sweat
My day dreams flash my un-lived life
I’m making up scenarios that further my debt
I just need to sleep it off, sleep it off
Tomorrow is a better day
The sun will rise once I sleep it off
Jun 16, 2019
Jun 16, 2019 at 1:54 PM UTC
Depression is saying “tomorrow I’ll do that” every tomorrow
Depression is laying in bed starving but not caring enough to get up
Depression is pushing away the people who are trying to show their love
Depression is your room looking like a tornado went through it
Depression is
Apr 10, 2019
Apr 10, 2019 at 8:36 PM UTC
red flags dancing in the storm you caused
mentioning high tide or danger
"take cover, find safety"
is what they were screaming
I decided to stick around to fight off Mother Nature
but there's no fighting Mother Nature
your idea was made up
lies already formed behind the curtains of your shower
when I was dreaming of better things
Dec 12, 2018
Dec 12, 2018 at 11:32 AM UTC
An “accidental” download
accompanied with fast words and pictures
Frantic, but for what?
The truth or a black lie?
It is no business of mine what you do in your spare time
It’s only the whole family you will break
My father will slip away
Family events will decay
Along with the love that we all once adored.
Oh mother dear,
Why is it that what you fear
Is what you befriend to escape what is non existent
Now this secret I must keep
That will stew inside me deep
Not willing to ruin everyone else’s day
Aug 25, 2018
Aug 25, 2018 at 1:56 PM UTC
One bottle of wine all to myself
Didnt even need a glass
Just drank straight out of the bottle
Not one person aware
Just as I prefer it
Im sure it will come to a head
As soon as my tongue touches that one drop
that will push my limit
Everyone will hear it time and time again
Cant keep it bottled up
But for now, I'll keep the bottle up
Apr 23, 2018
Apr 23, 2018 at 1:11 AM UTC
Saying hello with a bright smile and welcoming eyes
How did I get so good at pretending
My insides are on fire
I could burn this whole place down
For the sake of everyone on their highs,
I won't
put holes in these walls with my angry fists
yell at the undeserving
I will
keep pretending
until it becomes my reality
Apr 23, 2018
Apr 23, 2018 at 1:07 AM UTC
A green aura of envy
Apparent yet hidden simultaneously
Melodies flow and the music plays a delightful tune
Every stitch sewn by her maker was made with better wool than mine
Beyond the desired looks, their love is secure
Just one more thing to add to the list
In my arsenal you ask?
Broken poetry and unused words
Majority says nay
Minority says yay
Love around here has been suffocated
Plenty to share, none to myself
Loves taken a hiatus status
I’ve folded my hand.
Consistently dealt a 7/2
My cue to return to real life
Is when the water turns cold
Mar 28, 2018
Mar 28, 2018 at 4:12 AM UTC