I fell in love with a boy.
He was tatted and different than any other guy i ever met.
we met in the most funny of ways, working in a subway together, we talked almost all day.
texting and calling I fell for the guy who was not my type.
to short and way to old but i guess love truly has no numbers.
we talked about everything his daughter, my family and his, our friends and what brought us so far from home.
we laughed a lot and it was so simple we became fast friends.
then one night we went from friends to those with "benefits".
Slowly it changed we became more and more to each other.
Our relationship turning to love.
now we are a little ways down the road, starting our family.
November will be a month I will never forget...
the month OUR baby will be born
Apr 18, 2016
Apr 18, 2016 at 1:09 PM UTC
I smile down at you
Looking in your deep brown eyes
You look up and coo
The world a place of wonder and beauty
You could never see the bad
You only see the love
And as I watch you grow
I know you are going to be strong
Your beauty shines on like a light
and the best part is
You are mine
Nov 26, 2014
Nov 26, 2014 at 12:40 PM UTC
You left me
I cried
Grew stronger when I just wanted to die
You were everything to me
My friend
Protector
Adviser
My love
Now your just my ghost
You haunt my waking hours
And steal the sleep I have
I wake often in fear that I loat u and when I realized I already have
Tht my night ears are real
I feel just as lost as before
I need you
But that is something I can never have
Nov 26, 2014
Nov 26, 2014 at 12:35 PM UTC
I'm lost without words
I feel like I'm a new person
But a lost one
I have no right to the words I say
Empty inside
I can clearly see and hear yet it is foggy and new
It pains me not knowing what it is that will come of me next
Who will be by my side In the end
I think of my favorite songs and their deep note lyrics and how they seem to reach out nd grab hold my heart how I would give anything to get lost in a song and live free and be happy again
Nov 26, 2014
Nov 26, 2014 at 12:31 PM UTC
i thought it was right before
now I am not so sure
I led you on
and I am sorry
I don't deserve to be in your life
stop, please stop caring
you deserve better and someone
who will love you right
im a tool not cool
Aug 28, 2014
Aug 28, 2014 at 1:03 PM UTC
YOU TOLD HIM YOU LOVED HIM
IT BROKE HIS HEART WHAT YOU DID NEXT
YOU SENT A TEXT
THAT WAS MEANT TO STING
IT SAID "HEY MAN, THANKS FOR BEING A GREAT FRIEND"
YOU DID IT TO MAKE HIM CRY
AND HE DID AS HE DIED INSIDE
YOU WANTED TO SEE
IF HE WOULD REALLY BELIEVE
THAT YOU WOULD EVER LOVE HIM
HE DID YOU KNOW
AND WHAT DID YOU DO?
YOU TOOK IS HEART AND PLAYED WITH IT
HE WAS YOUR TOY
HE WAS A SPACE HOLDER
TIL YOU FOUND SOMEONE NEW
THEN YOU GOT RID OF HIM IN A CRUELISH WAY
YOU SENT A TEXT
FRIEND ZONED
May 19, 2014
May 19, 2014 at 2:57 PM UTC
Finally
finally is what I am thinking right now
finally I am done
finally the accusers are gone
finally I wont have to come to place that rejects
finally I will be alone with my thoughts
finally the judgment will all go away
Finally
Finally
finally you will leave me alone
finally I wont have to hide in the halls
finally I wont be confined by these walls
finally I can be free
finally I will be me
finally I can be happy
Finally
May 19, 2014
May 19, 2014 at 2:53 PM UTC
the class is laughing
at the boy
he stutters
they think he is weird
they don't understand
that he cant help it
why do they tease him
he isn't so different from them
he trys to tell them
but the words get stuck
repeating
they laugh
he cries
he wonders down the hall
trying not to be seen
but they always find him
he wonders why he cant just be invisible
like the girl in the back
the one who is always watching but never speaks
one boy comes up to him
and talks real slowly
he teases him and talks at him like he is stupid
the girl in the back looks up
from her book then
she stands up
all eyes are on her
wondering who she is
whispering begins to flow
who is this girl
no one knows
she walks to the bully and the boy who is misunderstood
she opens her mouth
saying leave him alone
the surprise is she stutters too
she smiled at the boy and says
I know how you feel
this is how their love story begins
May 19, 2014
May 19, 2014 at 2:49 PM UTC
I miss the way your heart beat felt
beating away on my chest
the way your hand was always clammy
but so **** strong
you held me close
now your so far away
I wish you were still here
because I love you
May 19, 2014
May 19, 2014 at 2:43 PM UTC
I never knew thought you’d be this big a part of my life
You mean everything to me
Though funny that it is I never knew you a short few months ago
You were just some kid in my grade
Now you’re the guy I wish I would have paid more attention to
I would have paid more attention to
I wish I would have been there for you when you need someone
I blew my chance with you
It hurts, it really does, that I had to say goodbye to you
That I’m not the girl you look forward to seeing
That she’s the one you want in your life
Because she was there for you and I wasn’t
I was scared to show how much you meant to me
How much I truly loved you
How much you made me happy How sad too, you’re my everything
And I know that will never change, I could never move on from you
I am always going to love you
I am always going to pray you will wish I was there
I will always hope when you walk by you will be walking to tell me you miss me
That you need me
That I am the one you see when you close your eyes
That I am the one you want to hold and never let go
I know it will never be that way again but I will always hope
I promise to wait for you, even if I have to wait till the very last day
I can’t imagine not having you in my life, to replacing you
There is no one like you
You’re my one and only boy and you better know that
I will wait for you…forever if I have to
May 13, 2014
May 13, 2014 at 2:46 PM UTC