By my side.
was always you.
even when i would hide.
you knew exactly what to do.
actions speak louder then words.
you once told me.
now you fly high like a bird.
your finally able to be free.
I know mommy.
here with us is were you want to stay.
when we say no you become balmy.
i'll always talk to you when i pray.
I wish this was a dream.
Mommy im your really gonna be missed.
i can hear myself begin to scream.
your new life will always be blissed.
Mommy i love you.
I know you'll always love me.
even when i dont know what to do.
ill think of you while i sit under a tree.
Jun 25, 2015
Jun 25, 2015 at 10:29 PM UTC
She walks through proud.
Her smile screams it loud.
She knows shes worth it.
Her past was the painful ****
Nobody can knock her down.
But the unwanted frowns.
Her heart is the biggest!
Believe it or not her smile is the thickest.
She is so beautiful and happy.
Her actions are alittle slappy!
Her soul was just above.
She was called love.
Apr 20, 2015
Apr 20, 2015 at 9:22 AM UTC
Im taken.
But you I cant have forgotten.
I know I shouldn't feel this.
We both moved with bliss.
You hate me at the moment.
But I cant find myself to own it.
Now your gone.
Now its not the same when were done.
The one who has me I love.
But you I will always be inlove.
I hate you.
But I love you an don't know what to do..
I cant do this no more.
I feel like a used *****
I miss when you acted dumb.
when we only had a few drinks like a ***
even though we didn't make it through.
Ill still be here for you!
Im sorry for all the pain.
But your love was deep in my vain.
Apr 20, 2015
Apr 20, 2015 at 9:10 AM UTC
You made me think.
We had everything together.
Look im starting to drink.
You had told me we would be forever.
Now I sit in my room.
I found my best shiny friend.
When we play there's a mess, cant use a broom.
One day mr. silver will help me find the end.
He scream about love and pain.
Crying cause he says my beauties deep.
One day ill find my beauty in vain.
After I find it the boy might get to hear me weep.
He was the one to make the dreams.
The ones where I cant help but scream!
Love.... fake, my friend says.
Im here to help you sleep.
There wont be no suffering for days.
don't have to worry about the tummy deep.
they would be better without breath.
so we can give the boy what he wants. two deaths.
he broke the two hearts.
with his lieing darts.
thank you mr.silver....
Feb 27, 2015
Feb 27, 2015 at 12:02 PM UTC
Her heart was so fragile.
But a boy came an it's broken.
She only thought it was natural.
But you came with a tocken.
Your voice,
all day in her mind,
She loves the noise.
with you she's just fine.
Feb 17, 2015
Feb 17, 2015 at 12:21 PM UTC
The moment you want to cry.
you cant stop it.
its would all be easier if you were to die.
not dealing with everyone making you feel like ****
Why cant anyone hear?
The blade screams my name.
I'm shaking from fear.
I walk by in shame.
Every day I try to confess.
I feel invisible, please see me.
Even if I look like a mess.
Im drowning in a black sea.
Jan 15, 2015
Jan 15, 2015 at 9:52 AM UTC
Age 5, your my world I love you baby girl.
Age 7, Baby I want you to be careful this world is cruel.
Age 9, Your getting older but no boys okay?
Age 11, See boys break hearts please just sit and stay.
Age 13 (you realize everything you start to self harm), your to old or your not that old.
Age 15 (you run away things get worse and you have suicide attempts) Your just a bad child I wish you were gone your not good enough, you should have been sold.
What happened to me being your babygirl...
What happened? I guess your right this world is cruel.
I was so happy then I felt alone.
I know I did bad things but so did you when you were grown.
Hey daddy, Hey mommy... Look at my wrist.
I ripped a blade across it feeling Bliss.
You should have seen it, it looked like there was a ******
The boy I loved left me, he was my only girder.
Nothing ever lasts...
Im only reminded of my past.
Jan 10, 2015
Jan 10, 2015 at 11:27 PM UTC
I always want to cry.
It gets so bad that I slowly die.
There is just so much pain.
It wont stop even with a sharp blade to my vain.
I got to watch the blood as it slowly spilled out.
I never even had to shout.
I felt numb, maybe the monster had gone.
I was dying, but finally I was done.
I felt happiness no pain, no shame.
But the sad part of it all was I was saved and I was to blame.
Jan 8, 2015
Jan 8, 2015 at 10:18 PM UTC
How much can you love someone?
why cant I just leave and be done?
why do I have so many questions..
not a doctor but I think I have depression.
Im stuck, inlove and in pain.
I once took a blade to my vain.
I wanted it to stop.
I just felt sad enough to drop.
I was blinded by a boy.
who acted like I was nothing but a whorish toy.
I still loved him, it could have just been the fact that he was my first.
I hated myself I hated him but he was the answer to my thirst.
How do you get ride of your thoughts.
the one that for the longest of time you fought.
it is shameful I know this but it is also a lesson.
even if its all done you can feel the lingering essen.
Jan 8, 2015
Jan 8, 2015 at 9:37 PM UTC
I try so hard just to scream!
I feel this is only becoming a dream.
Why can't I even breath?
is it all because my grief?
I think im beginning to sink...
or is it just me staring at the water on the outside of my drink?
I think this is called depression.
so sad how fast a brightly world can be turned blacken.
Im already drowning.
I know, I can see you frowning...
please give me your hand..
i'll be your biggest fan.
if you don't its okay, I guess im not really scared.
in death im just alittle tared....
you're the one who broke my heart
you should be happy to watch me break apart.
but sadly im afraid I can't stay for very long....
Cause don't you see that im already gone...
Jan 8, 2015
Jan 8, 2015 at 12:09 PM UTC