brittneybrannum
MUSINGS OF AN INFJ / / I'm a college student studying psychology and double minoring in history and English. When I'm not studying, I try to spend as much of my time in nature or in the local museum or library as I can. / What's an INFJ? Well, it's a rare personality type, we're an estimated 1.5% of population. / the long technical version: http://www.typelogic.com/infj.html / but if just want a fun/ny summary: http://www.buzzfeed.com/drewr8/31-infj-problems-demz?sub=2529025_1522684
Pale
denim
overalls
cover the bear
waiting for Sarah
to return from an MRI;
polished shoes and white coat speak
to the four-year-old's mother. Child
embraced, parted lips radiate smiles.
In Teddy's ear she whispers, "It's all gone."
Feb 27, 2014
Feb 27, 2014 at 8:35 PM UTC
We should all be able to recite Dickens's famous line,
“It was the best of times, it was the worst of times.
It was the age of wisdom, it was the age of foolishness";
and many of us can finish this J. Austen quote,
“It is a truth universally acknowledged that."
If these authors, whom we have proclaimed
through the ages to have produced
some of the greatest writings we have known,
used a passive voice to tell their tale,
why then do we now state to the same audience
that voice is an evil so great that the flowing cloud
of ink from neither pen nor printer can be allowed
to touch their paper with its words?
Feb 23, 2014
Feb 23, 2014 at 1:48 PM UTC
Facing the dedication plaque of The East Coast Memorial in Battery Park,
sat a navy spiral bound with a worn post-it note upon the cover.
Head slightly tilted, I scoff at the carelessness of some kids.
Intending to toss the book into a bin we keep at the office
filled mostly with hoodies and socks –
don’t ask me how you lose just one, ’cause I don’t know—
I look down upon the cover in my left hand
and notice this phrase, written in a young girl’s script,
“Please take me home, share your journey, then pass me on;”
and I am struck by the naivety of these words.
Flipping the cover open, my eyes are then met with,
“April 24, 2001
My name is Samantha, and I live in Moneta, Virginia. I’m twelve
years old and enjoy science…”
What am I supposed to do with this: a child’s attempt at unifying the world?
Turning the page, the date was now September 10 of the same year,
and the story is of James, a homeschooled old boy from Richmond,
flying up to Colorado to visit with his dad. Tossing
it on a terminal chair near a flight bound for LAX it was found
by a twenty-something named Megan, meeting her twin who had just finished
his second tour in Kuwait. The new mother briefly skimmed
the pages while waiting for her brother, then penned a piece
about who she dreamed her daughter would become:
a surgeon, particularly that of the heart.
Becoming intrigued by this woman, I sat down on the nearest bench
and continued their tale. Seeing John’s flight arrive,
the diary was placed into her pack to be carried home,
before she rushed to greet her closest friend.
Four years later, while cleaning out boxes for a New Year’s resolution,
the journal was thought of and Megan left in the Kroger basket
while she gathered the ingredients to make her great-grandmother’s vegetable soup.
On his way to pick up medication for his father,
a history professor saw it next. Adding a short account
regarding his focus on minorities and women in American History,
Dr. Clark handed the spiral to his niece, who was heading towards Manhattan
to visit her grandfather.
After a five hour flight, an orange duffle bag was placed upon a hardwood floor.
Tales of life left on the living room table, Amy settled in for the night.
A veteran of World War II, Walter is eighty-seven years old
and takes his life moment-by-moment
because that was the only way to survive
with bombs exploding and friends falling dead on either side.
Though he rarely spoke of his time in Germany,
as he sat before a carved eagle,
like he had every morning since its dedication in 1963,
he thought about the men who served under him.
And in this notebook, he wrote their names: every man in his unit,
who did not come home.
Entrusting their stories to another, he finished his walk.
Staring down at this last entry, my mind forgot how to think.
I was overwhelmed that this diary of a twelve year old girl
had somehow managed to become a memorial to those killed in action.
Silent moments passed, and with bound letters still in hand,
I thought about my niece, who lives in Virginia,
about fifteen minutes from this girl called Samantha. I wondered
if they had ever met and if that child had the slightest imaginings
about what passing on her tale would become.
And yet, what was I supposed to write?
How could I follow the somber courage left behind by this man?
And then, as if lighting had flashed above my head, my body jolted
with realization that my tale was theirs.
Feb 22, 2014
Feb 22, 2014 at 3:37 PM UTC
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Feb 22, 2014
Feb 22, 2014 at 3:34 PM UTC
In this limited mother tongue
by which I communicate to you,
all I can call it is love.
Cannot express through the utterance
of a single word, if a father holds
a daughter in his arms for the first
time with a smile like the glowing light
of the full moon, looks at his wife
and says, you're both so beautiful.
This thing we call love cannot articulate
the husband and wife, who married as teenagers
have been together for seventy years:
stood by each other, with barely any food,
thanked God for what they had;
and when he could no longer stand,
then she would pause beside him.
Nor can it show the heart struck newly weds
eager to be just like them.
Love does not express the emotions
of adolescence. Doesn't define a deceleration
with flowers, chocolates, or teddy bears. Nor
tell me if we're in a Romeo and Juliet
fin'amour named true love.
My language has been redefined
through technology and celebrities.
But fundamental element, binding our souls
is spread so thin, how could be defined?
Feb 22, 2014
Feb 22, 2014 at 3:32 PM UTC
Underneath the Australian sun,
we have begun to gather wallaby grass
for the night's fire. It hasn't signaled
anybody, but scorching flames keep the wild dogs
at bay. Losing count, four
nights, I think, have now passed.
Mother and father must be ill
from worry; we've
never been far this far out before. Amidst play
of seek and hide, Frank went in search
for the perfect spot -- a fairly good one
as it took two hours to find him--
but night arose, and father's compass
had been left upon the porch's rail.
A few days later, we managed
to find a small amount of water,
but it won't last
with three of us; and I can already see
the exhausted expressions carved upon
my brothers' faces. Though Isaac
continues to search, I believe
even he shall soon relinquish the hope
that rescuers will arrive.
It's been a week. At what point
will the police discontinue our search?
When a month has passed?
With no food and the last drops
having evaporated onto our parched tongues
before the sun was set,
how could we survive that long?
But the question wandering deep
within my mind is, “Does anyone
even believe we are alive?”
Perhaps it is not worry
our parents are now suffering,
but grief.
Though I cannot tell the boys of my suspicions,
nor can let them see my fatigue
Feb 22, 2014
Feb 22, 2014 at 3:31 PM UTC
Whispers: black holes concealed within night sky.
Feb 22, 2014
Feb 22, 2014 at 3:30 PM UTC
why, God?
can't you see the
tears flowing
like the Jordan
from these eyes
that You created?
why?
Adonai,
why has this shame
been cast upon me?
in this village You
placed me in, there
are a hundred
laughing children
in the arms
of every other woman.
am i alone put aside?
Lord,
you know how much
i love Your ways,
kept and followed
every command
since i was a girl,
let me love a child
for a little while,
let me suckle
a son to my breast
and i will give him
back to You.
Rapha,
let this prayer
fall like pure
soundless snow
from my lips
look down
upon Your servant,
look down
and remember her.
Feb 22, 2014
Feb 22, 2014 at 3:29 PM UTC
impressions left upon ground
digging deep into the earth
walk on the narrow path
journey alone, deep in the woods
warm air fills my lungs
deep breath in
and out
dandelion and snakeroot
tickle my nose
and the ever present scent of
pine is underneath
on then
first step over fallen log
which has just begun to rot
rest
sip fresh water and have
a protein bar
up ahead lie two gardens--
carefully planted
one yields potatoes, one nectar
a place for butterflies to dance
walk by the stream
then head past pavilion
finally go towards the car
dream and wait for another Saturday
Feb 22, 2014
Feb 22, 2014 at 3:26 PM UTC
hope
joyful
happiness
radiates through
a beautiful smile
as youngest child is told
the great news by her mother
tears begin to fill in her eyes
she hugs her teddy bear and whispers
can you believe it? the cancer is gone
Feb 22, 2014
Feb 22, 2014 at 3:23 PM UTC