I feel like I'm drowning
Sinking to the bottom
Of the ocean
To heavy to stay a float
Screaming for help
My words drowning me
Panic shoots through my body
As I realize no one can save me
I'm fighting to stay a float
Tiring myself out
I'm dying faster
The more I struggle to stay alive
I'm killing myself trying to save myself
Apr 11, 2019
Apr 11, 2019 at 1:14 AM UTC
When we met I didn't know you were hiding behind a disguise
There was something dark deep inside
When I met the real you there was no turning back
I was in love with your disguise
Dec 26, 2018
Dec 26, 2018 at 3:26 AM UTC
The pain
Still lingers
It bubbles up inside
And out my eyes
Pouring down my cheeks
Aching the empty space in my chest
The left over memories
Overwhelming my mind
And takes my breath
Dec 26, 2018
Dec 26, 2018 at 3:26 AM UTC
I never got addicted to the drugs
Every time I snorted it
And felt the burn
the foggiest that over took my mind
It wasn't the drugs
It was the boy that introduced me
That was my addiction
My downward spiral
That's where I lost myself
In his arms
I craved his lips
Not his pills
I wanted his love
Not his drugs
Oct 31, 2018
Oct 31, 2018 at 2:56 AM UTC
I'm crumbling
Underneath all this pain
Like a historical building
After a hurricane
The devastation so dramatic
It's hard to rebuild
What you destroyed
Your words hit me
Like 150 miles per hour wind
Salty tears like ocean water
Taking over everything
Your hatred drowns me
My life completely changed
You destroyed something beautiful
In the matter of minutes
Aug 10, 2018
Aug 10, 2018 at 2:48 AM UTC
If I were a little white pill
You'd search for me
If I were something you could snort
You'd pay attention to me
If I were a drug dealer
You'd never leave me alone
If my lips were a crack pipe
Your lips would always crave me
But I'm not any of those things
I'm just a girl that loved you
And that wasn't enough for you
Aug 3, 2018
Aug 3, 2018 at 12:56 AM UTC
I Stopped loving you today
I Replayed all the memories
Confronted all the pain
With rain falling down
I let you go
And Found the parts
I had lost while loving you
Aug 3, 2018
Aug 3, 2018 at 12:40 AM UTC
You say I'm stuck in the past
But the past is the only place we existed in
There never was a future
You Abandoned me
Left me with nothing but memories
I wanted a future
I had it planned
I dreamed a life with you
One that you never wanted
You weren't capable of it
You say it's not your fault
I didn't want what you could give me
But what you gave me was nothing
And I wanted something
Something besides nothing
You can't blame me for that
Aug 3, 2018
Aug 3, 2018 at 12:38 AM UTC
I've got a scar for every memory
Etched up and down my thighs
A different story on each wrist
A reminder of all the pain
I've endured through the years
Written all over my body
I used to regret it
But now I embrace it
Because I'm a survivor
Jul 31, 2018
Jul 31, 2018 at 1:14 AM UTC
You can't blame me for what you've done
I can't help you pushed me away
I can't help you traveled miles away from my heart
I can't help the journey I had to take
To make my way back from your mistakes
You don't know the roads I've traveled
The tears I've cried the scars I've earned
The battles I've battled because of you
You don't know my story because you never tried
You can't expect me to feel the same after everything
Jul 31, 2018
Jul 31, 2018 at 12:15 AM UTC