brigette-beck - Hello Poetry

Happiness was once mine When I was forever young The world was at my fingertips Its miseries yet unsung. As reality crushed me And my happiness slipped away I fell out of faith My anger led me astray. *And so I turned to blazing screens* A new world within the one I'd known Self-loathing poured from its depths Crying, “You have always been alone.” *And then I turned to poetry* It was my sole source of light It quelled my fears and gave me a way out. I gained the upper hand in my fight. Then he entered my life And I thought my happiness was secure The one I knew I would spend eternity with Of this I was completely sure. But then I turned to blood I dragged the blade across my skin Just like he had done, those broken promises Our silent scarlet sin All those hopes and visions I’d had Slipped away with my blood But I was staying strong for him In my eyes, holding back this horrid flood. I wish for the happiness of my youth And the happiness of being real But in the end, life only gives you hell. This blood,this poetry Is all you you'll ever feel.

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Feb 16, 2017

Feb 16, 2017 at 4:33 PM UTC

My Living Death

Happiness was once mine When I was forever young The world was at my fingertips Its miseries yet unsung. As reality crushed me And my happiness slipped away I fell out of faith My anger led me astray. *And so I turned to blazing screens* A new world within the one I'd known Self-loathing poured from its depths Crying, “You have always been alone.” *And then I turned to poetry* It was my sole source of light It quelled my fears and gave me a way out. I gained the upper hand in my fight. Then he entered my life And I thought my happiness was secure The one I knew I would spend eternity with Of this I was completely sure. But then I turned to blood I dragged the blade across my skin Just like he had done, those broken promises Our silent scarlet sin All those hopes and visions I’d had Slipped away with my blood But I was staying strong for him In my eyes, holding back this horrid flood. I wish for the happiness of my youth And the happiness of being real But in the end, life only gives you hell. This blood,this poetry Is all you you'll ever feel.

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I can't lose you though I almost did so many times in my journey of loving you I found myself in you and strength to protect the ones that matter I learned to reignite the flame so I'll stay up with you all night now that I know how to save a life

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Jan 31, 2017

Jan 31, 2017 at 11:15 PM UTC

pray to God he hears you

I can't lose you though I almost did so many times in my journey of loving you I found myself in you and strength to protect the ones that matter I learned to reignite the flame so I'll stay up with you all night now that I know how to save a life

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To you, the partner of my heart and mind: I know you're broken far beyond repair You don't have faith in the life you've designed And you've lost all hope, fallen in despair. I understand you more than you admit I've seen some of the deepest parts of you. Your light is playing games, its glow outwits And plays, and it’s the reason you withdrew. It's always there, it was there from the start I can see it now, shining bright as day. If you could only see what's in your heart Then you would know why I will always stay. I love you, every flaw and every scar. And I believe in you and all you are.

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Jan 2, 2017

Jan 2, 2017 at 12:08 AM UTC

Hope

To you, the partner of my heart and mind: I know you're broken far beyond repair You don't have faith in the life you've designed And you've lost all hope, fallen in despair. I understand you more than you admit I've seen some of the deepest parts of you. Your light is playing games, its glow outwits And plays, and it’s the reason you withdrew. It's always there, it was there from the start I can see it now, shining bright as day. If you could only see what's in your heart Then you would know why I will always stay. I love you, every flaw and every scar. And I believe in you and all you are.

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Words run through my veins Freed by the cold sting of a pen. Flowing over my arm in stanzas and rhymes, I relish the feeling Of poetry running under the pen. So many times I cut the words free Until I have a song Falling in crimson drops from my body, And I can again contain the words I hold in my blood. But my body replenishes the words, And I must again free them. The pen cuts through my veins Spilling the sonnets and the ballads, And I do this again and again, Until just once the pen goes too deep. The words flow too swiftly to make a poem And I lose the would-be poems that made me. I release the poetry in my veins, And as they desperately try to revive me, I slowly fade out. My words were my strength and my downfall.

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Oct 1, 2016

Oct 1, 2016 at 9:49 PM UTC

Blood

Words run through my veins Freed by the cold sting of a pen. Flowing over my arm in stanzas and rhymes, I relish the feeling Of poetry running under the pen. So many times I cut the words free Until I have a song Falling in crimson drops from my body, And I can again contain the words I hold in my blood. But my body replenishes the words, And I must again free them. The pen cuts through my veins Spilling the sonnets and the ballads, And I do this again and again, Until just once the pen goes too deep. The words flow too swiftly to make a poem And I lose the would-be poems that made me. I release the poetry in my veins, And as they desperately try to revive me, I slowly fade out. My words were my strength and my downfall.

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Falling. Falling. Falling. Wind and fire and rain. Through closed eyes I see all. Falling through darkness Into the abyss Falling headfirst An eternity of waiting And falling. Through the very threads of time I fall Watching the hours tick by And the seasons rewind And the horrors of the past reopen. With eyes closed I fall through darkness. Opening them, The fire, the wind the rain is gone. Only the heart is left Fractured Broken And bright. Falling I shatter the heart.

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Sep 18, 2016

Sep 18, 2016 at 9:38 PM UTC

Dive to the Heart

Falling. Falling. Falling. Wind and fire and rain. Through closed eyes I see all. Falling through darkness Into the abyss Falling headfirst An eternity of waiting And falling. Through the very threads of time I fall Watching the hours tick by And the seasons rewind And the horrors of the past reopen. With eyes closed I fall through darkness. Opening them, The fire, the wind the rain is gone. Only the heart is left Fractured Broken And bright. Falling I shatter the heart.

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I've stopped the writing, this method of fighting. The things that kept it at bay Have all turned to gray. Thoughts reign over my head, Things that I never would've said. Death lurks in the corners of my mind, I thought I'd left this behind. But no, I've descended again Into this chaos, misery and pain. The ones I love have come with me. I brought them down when they were free. Now, my love, you deserve far more. I'm weak, the very thing against which I swore. Weak, crumbling, and broken, My love, the depth of my pain is unspoken. So I will do as you do And as much as I hate to, I will find serenity in this bittersweet hell. Of this pain I will never tell. So in the end, To you, my love, my best friend, And to the part of myself that I lost, I'm sorry

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Aug 18, 2016

Aug 18, 2016 at 10:52 AM UTC

In The End

I've stopped the writing, this method of fighting. The things that kept it at bay Have all turned to gray. Thoughts reign over my head, Things that I never would've said. Death lurks in the corners of my mind, I thought I'd left this behind. But no, I've descended again Into this chaos, misery and pain. The ones I love have come with me. I brought them down when they were free. Now, my love, you deserve far more. I'm weak, the very thing against which I swore. Weak, crumbling, and broken, My love, the depth of my pain is unspoken. So I will do as you do And as much as I hate to, I will find serenity in this bittersweet hell. Of this pain I will never tell. So in the end, To you, my love, my best friend, And to the part of myself that I lost, I'm sorry

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You always said I had sapphires in my eyes. But I never said anything back Because yours were my demise I was speechless, intrigued By what I had beheld Everything in your beautiful eyes Was unparalleled. No words hold enough power To describe everything I saw Their green was bright, hopeful The kind that left you in awe. Like the forest after a storm Shining brilliant and new But also a passionate, churning sea Reflecting everything in you Hopes for the future Memories of the past The essence of who you are I can start to find at last The beauty of you is apparent Looking at your eyes, anyone could see But to think that of all the people that have seen them Your eyes see a future with me

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Jun 28, 2016

Jun 28, 2016 at 12:22 PM UTC

Emeralds

You always said I had sapphires in my eyes. But I never said anything back Because yours were my demise I was speechless, intrigued By what I had beheld Everything in your beautiful eyes Was unparalleled. No words hold enough power To describe everything I saw Their green was bright, hopeful The kind that left you in awe. Like the forest after a storm Shining brilliant and new But also a passionate, churning sea Reflecting everything in you Hopes for the future Memories of the past The essence of who you are I can start to find at last The beauty of you is apparent Looking at your eyes, anyone could see But to think that of all the people that have seen them Your eyes see a future with me

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To watch the world from a prison of blurred dreams is a torment beyond any other. Swirling images, free from reality, distorting any perception one may have had. Mind, body and soul stripped away from all.

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Jun 21, 2016

Jun 21, 2016 at 8:02 PM UTC

Distorted Reality

To watch the world from a prison of blurred dreams is a torment beyond any other. Swirling images, free from reality, distorting any perception one may have had. Mind, body and soul stripped away from all.

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The memories replay in my mind The poems that I've read so many times The truth of you I try to find Scanning each moment, each complex rhyme I try to understand the scars on your arm The depression you've resigned yourself to But I feel in you more than just your blade’s charm There's a light deep down inside you So long you've been fighting To always keep that light All the thoughts you put into writing: You're winning your fight But I still have trouble finding who you are The truth is more than I can ever hope of seeing Even in your bittersweet hell, with every scar You care with every fiber of your being The truth escapes me No matter how hard I try But I do know that you’re a deep, beautiful sea The reason for the sapphires in my eyes

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Jun 7, 2016

Jun 7, 2016 at 3:56 PM UTC

Truth

The memories replay in my mind The poems that I've read so many times The truth of you I try to find Scanning each moment, each complex rhyme I try to understand the scars on your arm The depression you've resigned yourself to But I feel in you more than just your blade’s charm There's a light deep down inside you So long you've been fighting To always keep that light All the thoughts you put into writing: You're winning your fight But I still have trouble finding who you are The truth is more than I can ever hope of seeing Even in your bittersweet hell, with every scar You care with every fiber of your being The truth escapes me No matter how hard I try But I do know that you’re a deep, beautiful sea The reason for the sapphires in my eyes

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Your lips were unique, full of unspoken words, hidden memories, and I felt them all. Every last one of them. The passion of your voice and the meaning behind your smile. The pain you hide deep in your heart, I felt it. In the way that you kissed me, held me, loved me. I felt it all in the soft passion of you.

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May 28, 2016

May 28, 2016 at 6:59 PM UTC

Passion

Your lips were unique, full of unspoken words, hidden memories, and I felt them all. Every last one of them. The passion of your voice and the meaning behind your smile. The pain you hide deep in your heart, I felt it. In the way that you kissed me, held me, loved me. I felt it all in the soft passion of you.

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