I can't stop thinking about you
I still love you
I can't stop loving you
I wish I didn't think of you.
You treated me like absolute ****
I should never go back
Never give you another chance.
But I can't shake it.
I cannot get rid of the feeling.
You are ever present.
I gave you a piece of my heart
And I never took it back
I don't want it back
I want you back.
I want you to apologize
I want you to come home
I want to hug you
I want to wake up to you
I want to hear you
I want to love you.
I do love you
I can't shake it.
Please help us both
Please come home.
Nov 3, 2016
Nov 3, 2016 at 11:24 AM UTC
FOUR YEARS
You've asked me to wait FOUR YEARS
FOUR YEARS for you to do what you want
FOUR YEARS for me to play along
FOUR YEARS to love you from afar
Well guess what, it's ******* hard
And I'm just your dog?
That waits for your return?
Oh she'll always be there
It's fine, she's mine
YOU DON'T OWN ME
NOT EVEN MY LOVE
I can give that to WHOMEVER I PLEASE
And those days when you don't accept me
When you argue with my choices
And counter my opinions
I HAVE A BEAUTIFUL MIND
You do too
So just let them be beautiful together
STOP CLOSING YOUR ******* THOUGHTS
OPEN YOUR HEART
LET THE BREEZE TOUCH YOUR SOUL
GET BLOWN SOMEWHERE
AND JUST ENJOY THE RIDE
four years...
four years
and a hell of a lot of tears
May 10, 2016
May 10, 2016 at 3:45 AM UTC
I haven't wrote about you in a while
Because I prefer to push it down
With others,
The feelings and urges are so obvious
But with you I don't know
You're like a memory
That now tempts me as an image
And a voice
Just a memory
Flickering into my reality
Only ever so often
Ha
Will you ever actually come back?
I can't live my life waiting
You're living your dream
I hope you're happy
That's all I ever want
Happiness
For you
And for me
If they coincide - great
If not
We'll learn to go on
May 10, 2016
May 10, 2016 at 3:38 AM UTC
I'm not ready
I am so not ready
I'm not ready because I'm scared
I'm scared to feel
I don't want to see you
Because I'm scared
Of what I'll feel when I see you
I like being alone
I've really grown to it
I'm scared
I don't know
I don't know if
I need you to show me
You taught me what love was
But now I can't remember
And I'm not sure
I want to try again
I'm so scared
My heart isn't ready
My soul isn't ready
If it was out of love
Yes, the pain is worth it
So is our love strong enough?
You have 8 days
To make me know
May 10, 2016
May 10, 2016 at 3:34 AM UTC
Did you know
then,
That every time
you,
Called me
sweetheart,
That one day
you,
Would stop talking to me?
May 3, 2016
May 3, 2016 at 10:21 PM UTC
I can't decide
where I went wrong
But then I realize:
I didn't.
You did.
Feb 10, 2016
Feb 10, 2016 at 12:06 AM UTC
But then I'll listen to a song...
And I'll want nothing more...
Than to pull you in -
And kiss you hard.
Kiss you as hard as you hurt me.
Feb 7, 2016
Feb 7, 2016 at 3:14 PM UTC
It was real
And you got scared
But I'd hold you hand
If you'd hold my gaze.
Days and days
they go by
Sit and think
and wonder why.
How I let myself fall so hard
How I let myself believe
How I let myself think
You wouldn't leave.
Ha!
You were a dream
And I was a game.
Don't come back
But come again.
Feb 7, 2016
Feb 7, 2016 at 3:10 PM UTC
I've grabbed your necklace
Wrapped it through my fingers
Pulling it
Pulling you
Closer to me.
The metal's cool touch
Sweet to my chest
That usually sits on yours
Gives me a shock.
Doesn't shock me awake
Just shocks me deeper
Making all of me
Invest in the sensation
In every sensation
You're giving me.
Your necklace.
Cool to the touch
Light to the soul.
Making me want more
Which you give me.
All it takes
Is a grab of your necklace
Pulling us down
Even deeper than before.
Jan 23, 2016
Jan 23, 2016 at 2:35 PM UTC
And now I ask you
To fade away
Into a distant memory
Making me question
If we were
ever
even
real
Jan 22, 2016
Jan 22, 2016 at 4:24 PM UTC