brianna-sutterfield - Hello Poetry

She doesn't love me. He doesn't want to make love to me. And I feel very, very lonely.

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Jun 3, 2016

Jun 3, 2016 at 12:51 AM UTC

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She doesn't love me. He doesn't want to make love to me. And I feel very, very lonely.

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I fall in love with people that want to **** themselves. And I'm afraid to die.

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Apr 15, 2016

Apr 15, 2016 at 12:39 AM UTC

Irony.

I fall in love with people that want to **** themselves. And I'm afraid to die.

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This one time I had friends, It was cool, I guess. I thought I found a soul mate But she was a mess. She over thought everything She was always misunderstood. I broke through her walls And did everything I could. This one time I had friends You could say that it was neat. I hung out with this artist girl She was the coolest thing you'd meet. She had all this potential But her folks were really **** I tried my best to help But I guess it was a miss. This one time I had friends It was almost kinda great. This other girl I knew Had to have been by fate. Eyes as green as emeralds She was always so much fun. They say green stands for envy I guess so, 'cause I was done. This one time I had friends I suppose it felt pretty good. I tried to be the best And show up when no one would. She had poor self esteem It started in her childhood. We'd been friends for almost 16 years That's probably longer than it should. This one time I had friends It was ******* awesome. Then there was this tiny girl And I should have used some caution. She was the coolest girl I knew I was addicted to her energy. We were really close for a few short weeks And then she up and left me... This one time I had friends And I guess it was okay. I miss when they were 'round I wish someone would stay. I guess I'm not the type of person Who was ment to have companions. But I think I'd feel a whole lot better If I weren't consistantly abandoned.

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Mar 28, 2016

Mar 28, 2016 at 11:30 PM UTC

This One Time I Had Friends

This one time I had friends, It was cool, I guess. I thought I found a soul mate But she was a mess. She over thought everything She was always misunderstood. I broke through her walls And did everything I could. This one time I had friends You could say that it was neat. I hung out with this artist girl She was the coolest thing you'd meet. She had all this potential But her folks were really **** I tried my best to help But I guess it was a miss. This one time I had friends It was almost kinda great. This other girl I knew Had to have been by fate. Eyes as green as emeralds She was always so much fun. They say green stands for envy I guess so, 'cause I was done. This one time I had friends I suppose it felt pretty good. I tried to be the best And show up when no one would. She had poor self esteem It started in her childhood. We'd been friends for almost 16 years That's probably longer than it should. This one time I had friends It was ******* awesome. Then there was this tiny girl And I should have used some caution. She was the coolest girl I knew I was addicted to her energy. We were really close for a few short weeks And then she up and left me... This one time I had friends And I guess it was okay. I miss when they were 'round I wish someone would stay. I guess I'm not the type of person Who was ment to have companions. But I think I'd feel a whole lot better If I weren't consistantly abandoned.

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I want you to want me. With raw, unweavering power, I want you to want me. I want my scent, my voice, to dance whimsically into your senses. I want my face, my body, to creep into your memories. I want you to want me as if your very life is dependant upon my touch. I want you to want me as if you were addicted to the taste of my lips. I want you to want me in the way that I'm always wanting you. I want you to want me in the way that I never stop thinking about you. I want you to want me with a passion that burns hotter than hellfire itself. I want you to want me with needs more intense than the wind and rain that falls from the heavans. I want you to want me.

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Feb 4, 2016

Feb 4, 2016 at 12:18 AM UTC

I Want You to Want Me

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Started off small. The world in our hands. Four years pass. Like a camera flash. Boyfriends, parties, now we're in my car. Road trips, "I'm glad you're my friend". You're unique and I'm consistent. I understand you. You appreciate me. Soul-mates. College, drinking, smoking. I'm in your house with no one home. Depression, obsession, times are changing. You're drowning. Your eyes are clouding. I'm on the shoreline watching. I'm throwing rocks like life preservers. Waiting for you to catch one. Blinded. Undecided. Sitting in the silence. Waiting.

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Jan 19, 2016

Jan 19, 2016 at 10:57 PM UTC

Time.

Started off small. The world in our hands. Four years pass. Like a camera flash. Boyfriends, parties, now we're in my car. Road trips, "I'm glad you're my friend". You're unique and I'm consistent. I understand you. You appreciate me. Soul-mates. College, drinking, smoking. I'm in your house with no one home. Depression, obsession, times are changing. You're drowning. Your eyes are clouding. I'm on the shoreline watching. I'm throwing rocks like life preservers. Waiting for you to catch one. Blinded. Undecided. Sitting in the silence. Waiting.

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Sliver of silver moonlight beams. From the other side of the window gleams. Shines so bright in this dark lit room. But I cant get out of this awful gloom. Heart aches and I feel it cracking. But I cant think of reasons for it to be happening. I hate myself and I'm so ******* sad. I'm no good at anything and it makes me mad. I cant make music, I'm an awful writer. I have no degree so I'm impossible to hire. I grew up never knowing what to do. With no interests, talents, or will to give clue. I'm stuck as an adult with what feels like no future. I'm stuck in my head and I feel like a loser. I don't know anything and I hate myself. Wish there was a way to escape this hell.

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May 5, 2015

May 5, 2015 at 12:26 AM UTC

Struggling with Self Hate Again

Sliver of silver moonlight beams. From the other side of the window gleams. Shines so bright in this dark lit room. But I cant get out of this awful gloom. Heart aches and I feel it cracking. But I cant think of reasons for it to be happening. I hate myself and I'm so ******* sad. I'm no good at anything and it makes me mad. I cant make music, I'm an awful writer. I have no degree so I'm impossible to hire. I grew up never knowing what to do. With no interests, talents, or will to give clue. I'm stuck as an adult with what feels like no future. I'm stuck in my head and I feel like a loser. I don't know anything and I hate myself. Wish there was a way to escape this hell.

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I wish you would say every thought in your head While you blissfully stay 'sleep in our bed. I would stay awake the whole night through Just so I could hear every word from you. But you've been asleep for quite a few hours And I've been having a breakdown that comes in showers. I've been staying silent so I don't wake you up But all I want is to be held and rubbed. I love you so much and the future scares me I know the road we're on is pretty bumpy. I feel like when we talk I'm the only one speaking I know saying what's on your mind isn't very easy. So I wish you would say every thought in your head While you blissfully stay 'sleep in our bed. Then I could stay awake the whole night through Just so I could hear every word from you.

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Mar 30, 2015

Mar 30, 2015 at 1:10 AM UTC

Midnight Meltdowns 2.0

I wish you would say every thought in your head While you blissfully stay 'sleep in our bed. I would stay awake the whole night through Just so I could hear every word from you. But you've been asleep for quite a few hours And I've been having a breakdown that comes in showers. I've been staying silent so I don't wake you up But all I want is to be held and rubbed. I love you so much and the future scares me I know the road we're on is pretty bumpy. I feel like when we talk I'm the only one speaking I know saying what's on your mind isn't very easy. So I wish you would say every thought in your head While you blissfully stay 'sleep in our bed. Then I could stay awake the whole night through Just so I could hear every word from you.

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One year ago today I hopped on a plane by myself for the first time. One year ago today I laid my eyes on you for the first time. One year ago today my hands held you for the first time. One year ago today my ears heard you for the first time. One year ago today my lips brushed against yours for the first time. One year ago today my heart began to beat for the first time. One year ago today I knew for the first time.

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Mar 12, 2015

Mar 12, 2015 at 1:13 PM UTC

One Year Ago.

One year ago today I hopped on a plane by myself for the first time. One year ago today I laid my eyes on you for the first time. One year ago today my hands held you for the first time. One year ago today my ears heard you for the first time. One year ago today my lips brushed against yours for the first time. One year ago today my heart began to beat for the first time. One year ago today I knew for the first time.

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You're the source of all my anger. You were the one who was a ****** mother. You're sad, you're selfish, you drink every night. Your words of abuse cut like a knife. You think you're so tough and you don't give a **** Then you try to manipulate; well, tough luck. I'm not falling for the guilt trips; I know your games. I refuse to speak with you and I feel no shame. You think you raised me to have respect. But you were a tyrant who gave nothing but threats. I remember being frozen with fear. You'll never apologize because you don't ******* care. You're never wrong because you're so ******* perfect. I don't even matter, I'm just a reject. You were the reason I cut so many times. But don't worry, I'm doing just fine. If you don't change soon you'll lose another kid. But it's not your fault of course, we're easy to rid. You're a wreck; completely broken. You don't even remember how to be human.

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Mar 10, 2015

Mar 10, 2015 at 1:39 PM UTC

Mommy Dearest

You're the source of all my anger. You were the one who was a ****** mother. You're sad, you're selfish, you drink every night. Your words of abuse cut like a knife. You think you're so tough and you don't give a **** Then you try to manipulate; well, tough luck. I'm not falling for the guilt trips; I know your games. I refuse to speak with you and I feel no shame. You think you raised me to have respect. But you were a tyrant who gave nothing but threats. I remember being frozen with fear. You'll never apologize because you don't ******* care. You're never wrong because you're so ******* perfect. I don't even matter, I'm just a reject. You were the reason I cut so many times. But don't worry, I'm doing just fine. If you don't change soon you'll lose another kid. But it's not your fault of course, we're easy to rid. You're a wreck; completely broken. You don't even remember how to be human.

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He's asleep and I feel like **** I can't seem to cry but I want to throw a fit. I work in the morning and I hate my job. All I want to do is lay in bed and sob. I don't know if my parents' plane ever landed, And sometimes I still feel like I've been abandoned. I call myself an artist but I don't think that's true. I don't really put work into anything I do. I'm afraid I might be an imposter just following a fad. I don't know anything about anything and I know that's bad.

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Feb 26, 2015

Feb 26, 2015 at 10:40 PM UTC

Midnight Meltdowns

He's asleep and I feel like **** I can't seem to cry but I want to throw a fit. I work in the morning and I hate my job. All I want to do is lay in bed and sob. I don't know if my parents' plane ever landed, And sometimes I still feel like I've been abandoned. I call myself an artist but I don't think that's true. I don't really put work into anything I do. I'm afraid I might be an imposter just following a fad. I don't know anything about anything and I know that's bad.

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