brekkywho - Hello Poetry

You have always been unexpected Friendship, love the whole lot of it Leaving you was painful freedom Still missing you, but I know I can rely on you. I thought we were on the same page, I’d have your back always No matter the passed time. But I’ve recently learned, so painfully learned- that you don’t have mine. I used to think you could never surprise me but I never saw this coming I used to think we’d always respect each other I guess everything has to change Things I thought were forever are slipping away My time is up, my secrets are out I couldn’t believe they came from your mouth I thought with everything changing Our trust would stay the same I expect the worst from those around me So the sins against me never surprise me But with you it was different I thought you were here to stick I told you things I’ve never told anyone You were the closest person to my heart Loyalty meant so much to you You know it meant the same to me I used to think you could never surprise me but I never saw this coming I used to think we’d always respect each other But I guess everything has to change People who I thought were forever are turning away Safety no more, my secrets are out I couldn’t believe they came from your mouth I thought with everything changing Our trust would stay the same You’ve outed me to my enemies In a foolish slip of tongue or with malicious intent, so unlike you. Now enemies they circle me and those close to me Seeking out a weakness which I only let you see. It was only meant for you and me. Coming together while I was black and blue I thought I’d be forever safe with you I was never once afraid of you Little did I know you were another wolf dressed in gold, Summer only as lovers, you’ve brought the winter cold, You’ve done the only thing that could ever truly **** me. What have you done to me. Lucky for you I take your secrets Undeservedly To the grave with me, Stay away from me Don’t even lay sunflowers for me. I wish that I could take it all back Every secret I shared with you Every loyalty every memory every vulnerability Tears running down my cheeks Sharing breaths under the sheets Wish I knew in less than a year you couldn’t care if you betrayed me if you ruined me Like only you could hurt me. You’ve wounded me You’ve burned me Beyond repair

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Aug 10, 2019

Aug 10, 2019 at 7:35 AM UTC

10.8.2019

You have always been unexpected Friendship, love the whole lot of it Leaving you was painful freedom Still missing you, but I know I can rely on you. I thought we were on the same page, I’d have your back always No matter the passed time. But I’ve recently learned, so painfully learned- that you don’t have mine. I used to think you could never surprise me but I never saw this coming I used to think we’d always respect each other I guess everything has to change Things I thought were forever are slipping away My time is up, my secrets are out I couldn’t believe they came from your mouth I thought with everything changing Our trust would stay the same I expect the worst from those around me So the sins against me never surprise me But with you it was different I thought you were here to stick I told you things I’ve never told anyone You were the closest person to my heart Loyalty meant so much to you You know it meant the same to me I used to think you could never surprise me but I never saw this coming I used to think we’d always respect each other But I guess everything has to change People who I thought were forever are turning away Safety no more, my secrets are out I couldn’t believe they came from your mouth I thought with everything changing Our trust would stay the same You’ve outed me to my enemies In a foolish slip of tongue or with malicious intent, so unlike you. Now enemies they circle me and those close to me Seeking out a weakness which I only let you see. It was only meant for you and me. Coming together while I was black and blue I thought I’d be forever safe with you I was never once afraid of you Little did I know you were another wolf dressed in gold, Summer only as lovers, you’ve brought the winter cold, You’ve done the only thing that could ever truly **** me. What have you done to me. Lucky for you I take your secrets Undeservedly To the grave with me, Stay away from me Don’t even lay sunflowers for me. I wish that I could take it all back Every secret I shared with you Every loyalty every memory every vulnerability Tears running down my cheeks Sharing breaths under the sheets Wish I knew in less than a year you couldn’t care if you betrayed me if you ruined me Like only you could hurt me. You’ve wounded me You’ve burned me Beyond repair

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Shifting landscapes of us I am yet to get used to. How many times have I wandered between The many “what ifs” and “if onlys” and “I wish’s.” How many times have I actively slapped my very own hand When it invariably reaches for you. The reaching is a selfish hungry thing. I crave you when I am disappearing. Even though I loathe how I define myself when I’m with you, She is better than the unknown That is chasing and gaping at my heels. And that isn’t love. Thirsting after comfort and memories Thirsting after somewhere to belong Is not love. It is hard to admit It is hard to choose to walk away Every Hour We Are Apart. And that craving Of how you made me feel The warmth The connection The love A love I have never seen nor tasted before A love I did not know how to treat Is always being denied And cruel suggestions And those closest to me doubt my choices Like they would have any part in the consequences of the choice I would live with everyday. I don’t even entertain the white day anymore I used to spend hours building our life Stacking our goals into the shapes of home The mansions in my mind Were never here to stay Do I seek a grass of an unattainable green? I lay in the dark, many hours after we ended the call. I will myself to cry. The pain boils in my chest and aches in my bones. But I lay in silence, trapped. Are we not even worth tears anymore? Is this when the grieving stops? I fear seeing you now. Because I am half bloomed. The branches we grew on and nurtured Are drying and snapping away in the breeze I fear you will not like me If you see the stranger I am now Foreign and thorny to the touch. Will you still think me pretty? Will you still want to touch me? No matter how close I get to the edge To giving in and sprinting back to you To beg on my knees for your forgiveness To ask you to help us bring back the love, No matter what I can not reconcile and justify The hatred I held For who I became when we loved. Loathesome and breaking Hair knotted against my scalp My angles softened and blurred Till I became more invisible to the world Than I have ever been. We stopped the world on its axis Our minds grew old Our bodies ceased their progress And only came alive when we set each other alight. No, I can never return to a halting. Dust is preferable to ice. Frozen and still To the death. I am wind and rain I must move to live And life rises in my gusts. The waves of creation Roll across new paths For I am alive again Wind snapping in the sails Rising on the seas I soar to new skies. The missing comes The loss never leaves Maybe I’ll always want you But you’ll never be good For me.

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May 1, 2019

May 1, 2019 at 11:25 PM UTC

29.4.2019

Shifting landscapes of us I am yet to get used to. How many times have I wandered between The many “what ifs” and “if onlys” and “I wish’s.” How many times have I actively slapped my very own hand When it invariably reaches for you. The reaching is a selfish hungry thing. I crave you when I am disappearing. Even though I loathe how I define myself when I’m with you, She is better than the unknown That is chasing and gaping at my heels. And that isn’t love. Thirsting after comfort and memories Thirsting after somewhere to belong Is not love. It is hard to admit It is hard to choose to walk away Every Hour We Are Apart. And that craving Of how you made me feel The warmth The connection The love A love I have never seen nor tasted before A love I did not know how to treat Is always being denied And cruel suggestions And those closest to me doubt my choices Like they would have any part in the consequences of the choice I would live with everyday. I don’t even entertain the white day anymore I used to spend hours building our life Stacking our goals into the shapes of home The mansions in my mind Were never here to stay Do I seek a grass of an unattainable green? I lay in the dark, many hours after we ended the call. I will myself to cry. The pain boils in my chest and aches in my bones. But I lay in silence, trapped. Are we not even worth tears anymore? Is this when the grieving stops? I fear seeing you now. Because I am half bloomed. The branches we grew on and nurtured Are drying and snapping away in the breeze I fear you will not like me If you see the stranger I am now Foreign and thorny to the touch. Will you still think me pretty? Will you still want to touch me? No matter how close I get to the edge To giving in and sprinting back to you To beg on my knees for your forgiveness To ask you to help us bring back the love, No matter what I can not reconcile and justify The hatred I held For who I became when we loved. Loathesome and breaking Hair knotted against my scalp My angles softened and blurred Till I became more invisible to the world Than I have ever been. We stopped the world on its axis Our minds grew old Our bodies ceased their progress And only came alive when we set each other alight. No, I can never return to a halting. Dust is preferable to ice. Frozen and still To the death. I am wind and rain I must move to live And life rises in my gusts. The waves of creation Roll across new paths For I am alive again Wind snapping in the sails Rising on the seas I soar to new skies. The missing comes The loss never leaves Maybe I’ll always want you But you’ll never be good For me.

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“Will you crush my spirit someday?” It was almost a joke When the fear was shared. Now Lying in bed Day shifting to night Unable to rise Defeated The truth I let you become The hand That felled me

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Dec 2, 2018

Dec 2, 2018 at 2:17 AM UTC

2.12.2018

“Will you crush my spirit someday?” It was almost a joke When the fear was shared. Now Lying in bed Day shifting to night Unable to rise Defeated The truth I let you become The hand That felled me

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I try to write about you Try to sing like I used to Rattling breath Wheezing and violent The defeated silence I lost my voice Somewhere along the way I stopped being everything You insist you love But are you just in love With set paths Predictable roads Are you just in love With not being alone Deep down I think you suffer like me There’s voices whispering Telling you you will never be loved And this is your last chance too I tried to sing I thought pulling out What my old voice wrote Would remind me what I sound like But instead I’m in silent tears Note after note Verse after verse Black and white it’s written Obvious I’ll tell you about my last songs The last true voice I ever had I sung our fears I sung my truth It’s so cliche To say im broken But the evidence is too damning We’ve always been doomed I sing about a last great defeat Blades that ran me through I sung about a soul tearing A destruction of self I cannot be in love My missing pieces have not grown back Fires ravaged the forest I grew After evil hands tore them up Right to the roots Black black black Loss loss loss I guess I never really moved forward The memories are fleeting If they ever come up I have forgotten the details But the belief The shattering The robbing of self Has come with me all this time The labels given to me I wear as a crown Of metal and debris Announcing to all I am Beautiful Tragic Lost

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Oct 8, 2018

Oct 8, 2018 at 5:51 PM UTC

21.9.2018

I try to write about you Try to sing like I used to Rattling breath Wheezing and violent The defeated silence I lost my voice Somewhere along the way I stopped being everything You insist you love But are you just in love With set paths Predictable roads Are you just in love With not being alone Deep down I think you suffer like me There’s voices whispering Telling you you will never be loved And this is your last chance too I tried to sing I thought pulling out What my old voice wrote Would remind me what I sound like But instead I’m in silent tears Note after note Verse after verse Black and white it’s written Obvious I’ll tell you about my last songs The last true voice I ever had I sung our fears I sung my truth It’s so cliche To say im broken But the evidence is too damning We’ve always been doomed I sing about a last great defeat Blades that ran me through I sung about a soul tearing A destruction of self I cannot be in love My missing pieces have not grown back Fires ravaged the forest I grew After evil hands tore them up Right to the roots Black black black Loss loss loss I guess I never really moved forward The memories are fleeting If they ever come up I have forgotten the details But the belief The shattering The robbing of self Has come with me all this time The labels given to me I wear as a crown Of metal and debris Announcing to all I am Beautiful Tragic Lost

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Thank you. For the support, the positivity and encouragement. We all know how powerful Words can be. And you’ve made such a difference to me with yours. I hope I can pay it forward And give someone The same love you gave me. Thank you, always —WindLass

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Jul 4, 2018

Jul 4, 2018 at 8:05 AM UTC

4.7.2018

Thank you. For the support, the positivity and encouragement. We all know how powerful Words can be. And you’ve made such a difference to me with yours. I hope I can pay it forward And give someone The same love you gave me. Thank you, always —WindLass

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I’ll never tell I made the promise unconsciously I closed the shutters Nailed the doors shut Pulled the curtains To convince I’m not sure who That no one was home So no one would hurt me anymore I’ll never tell Each time I tried To dig the roots up Pull out the rot The thorns wrapped around my words Bound them tight With the shame The anger The fear The pain I’ll never tell Rickety structures Grew over me Armor Cutting the hands Of any who Came too close I cut my hands Trying to pull them down To embrace them I’ll never tell It never belonged to me Though the brand Gleams on me In the moonlight When you tried to kiss me How he did Seems like only yesterday Your eyes hold fear Misunderstanding The creature claiming me I couldn’t stop The roaring of my blood The rising of the scream I never let out When hungrier hands Closed on my throat The colours the same The smell the same The hand on my thigh the same The innocence of the embrace The trust How it all started It’s not the same It’s not the same This is ma coeur It’s not the same It’s not him My world shifts between One of heaven One of hell I cannot find my reality Not even to ease your fear I could not stop my own Rising like it did too late On a night So the same I felt again His bruising on my skin Green and blue fingerprints On my wrists My collar bone My leg My throat My hips ‘It’s so hot’ he’d say As I shrank away Not for the first time It was our repeat routine He’d always go too far I’d leave him With fear and shame And he’d always be so sorry ‘I love you’ he’d say ‘There’s nothing wrong with this, this is normal’ he’d say When I’d shrink from his hands Tell him no no no I’d tell him don’t touch me like that And he’d say sorry And do it again and again. Tell me how unhappy it made him If I didn’t let him do it I don’t remember when I stopped trusting him When i started to be afraid My friends told me It wasn’t normal It wasn’t okay When I’d finally share the secret ‘Get out of there!’ They’d say. ‘It’s not safe!’ But I don’t think they even knew What was coming What he could do. I should have left him long before It’s my fault you see I taught him it was okay To abuse me In a way My own nature and upbringing Is to blame I was born without a single desire To fight I’d bow my head and take the punches Even as a child I could not even play wrestle with my siblings And they’d laugh and push me in front of strangers like a party trick ‘Look’ they’d say, ‘She won’t fight back’. You see it hurt me more To fight back To hurt them Than it did to be hurt By them. I was taught to love trust and forgive all I was taught to be gentle Even when the world isn’t gentle with you. So I forgave Over and over Second, third, twentieth chances Because he said he loved me He was right wasn’t he? Some part of me knew My body, knew. His lips on mine Gave me a bitter taste in my mouth I’d spit him out I’d be repulsed I stopped feeling like his touches were affectionate And started taking them Like punches Everything was blue It smelled like a new car I was leaving him. I couldn’t bear it any longer. His pain was a violent thing. I hurt with him I couldn’t shut him out I just wanted him to feel better I should have known better Than to reach for him. I wrote it out It still feels dishonest So damning Even now I cannot raise Even a verbal hand against him I don’t want anyone To see the telling I thought it’d be something I could forget and bury But this isn’t moving on Sharing moments with my love With his ghost I’ll never tell I promised Because once I do The witch hunt would start And my life and his Would be ruined worse Than I am ruined Already. I’m sorry You saw his branding I saw how afraid you were. I’m sorry You have to share me with it. I’m sorry, My love, that I’ll never tell.

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May 5, 2018

May 5, 2018 at 8:28 AM UTC

1.5.2018

I’ll never tell I made the promise unconsciously I closed the shutters Nailed the doors shut Pulled the curtains To convince I’m not sure who That no one was home So no one would hurt me anymore I’ll never tell Each time I tried To dig the roots up Pull out the rot The thorns wrapped around my words Bound them tight With the shame The anger The fear The pain I’ll never tell Rickety structures Grew over me Armor Cutting the hands Of any who Came too close I cut my hands Trying to pull them down To embrace them I’ll never tell It never belonged to me Though the brand Gleams on me In the moonlight When you tried to kiss me How he did Seems like only yesterday Your eyes hold fear Misunderstanding The creature claiming me I couldn’t stop The roaring of my blood The rising of the scream I never let out When hungrier hands Closed on my throat The colours the same The smell the same The hand on my thigh the same The innocence of the embrace The trust How it all started It’s not the same It’s not the same This is ma coeur It’s not the same It’s not him My world shifts between One of heaven One of hell I cannot find my reality Not even to ease your fear I could not stop my own Rising like it did too late On a night So the same I felt again His bruising on my skin Green and blue fingerprints On my wrists My collar bone My leg My throat My hips ‘It’s so hot’ he’d say As I shrank away Not for the first time It was our repeat routine He’d always go too far I’d leave him With fear and shame And he’d always be so sorry ‘I love you’ he’d say ‘There’s nothing wrong with this, this is normal’ he’d say When I’d shrink from his hands Tell him no no no I’d tell him don’t touch me like that And he’d say sorry And do it again and again. Tell me how unhappy it made him If I didn’t let him do it I don’t remember when I stopped trusting him When i started to be afraid My friends told me It wasn’t normal It wasn’t okay When I’d finally share the secret ‘Get out of there!’ They’d say. ‘It’s not safe!’ But I don’t think they even knew What was coming What he could do. I should have left him long before It’s my fault you see I taught him it was okay To abuse me In a way My own nature and upbringing Is to blame I was born without a single desire To fight I’d bow my head and take the punches Even as a child I could not even play wrestle with my siblings And they’d laugh and push me in front of strangers like a party trick ‘Look’ they’d say, ‘She won’t fight back’. You see it hurt me more To fight back To hurt them Than it did to be hurt By them. I was taught to love trust and forgive all I was taught to be gentle Even when the world isn’t gentle with you. So I forgave Over and over Second, third, twentieth chances Because he said he loved me He was right wasn’t he? Some part of me knew My body, knew. His lips on mine Gave me a bitter taste in my mouth I’d spit him out I’d be repulsed I stopped feeling like his touches were affectionate And started taking them Like punches Everything was blue It smelled like a new car I was leaving him. I couldn’t bear it any longer. His pain was a violent thing. I hurt with him I couldn’t shut him out I just wanted him to feel better I should have known better Than to reach for him. I wrote it out It still feels dishonest So damning Even now I cannot raise Even a verbal hand against him I don’t want anyone To see the telling I thought it’d be something I could forget and bury But this isn’t moving on Sharing moments with my love With his ghost I’ll never tell I promised Because once I do The witch hunt would start And my life and his Would be ruined worse Than I am ruined Already. I’m sorry You saw his branding I saw how afraid you were. I’m sorry You have to share me with it. I’m sorry, My love, that I’ll never tell.

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I think The worst part Is not the evil act itself But The robbing of choice Remembering it is.

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May 1, 2018

May 1, 2018 at 6:22 AM UTC

30.4.2018

I think The worst part Is not the evil act itself But The robbing of choice Remembering it is.

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Echoes Muted and bouncing Reaching me delayed. My hands hazy and grey Colourless. Lifting my eyes Opaque clouds above Mists and shadow below Still the echoes Are reaching me. Try to take a step toward the voices I fall The darkness writhing and curling Around my feet and legs Bound. I open my mouth To scream The shadows flooding down my throat Stealing the sound. The clouds descend Heavy on my shoulders All encompassing. I struggle to my feet. My muscles and bones screaming I manage a step Crumpling to my knees Exhausted. The voices take shape ‘What’s wrong?’ ‘Talk to me?’ ‘Tell me how to help?’ ‘I don’t understand ‘ ‘Just think happy thoughts’ ‘Make changes, take steps’ I open my soundless mouth Try to bellow the words Into the heavy cold dark Try to tell them Help Me! I am trapped and can’t find the way out. Desperate I reach through the cloud Arms shaking with effort I reach toward The last haven The last heaven My heart, ma coeur My cherished summer For some light and warmth. As I reach Sightless I feel the threads of shadows Snake up my arms Flooding from my mouth Reaching for him with sharp cold Clawing fingers Trying to claim His golden heart through me. I withdraw Eyes wide with fear Ma coeur is not safe near me. The voices of others Who have fallen by my greyed hands Cut through the shadows Piercing my bloodless heart. ‘I’m just going to go’ My hearts voice says ‘I’ll leave you to it.’ I empty my lungs As I try to beg him not to go With only eerie silence To reward my efforts Sobbing voiceless in the quiet Shadows feathery movements Drink every tear. The sun turns away, I feel the muted heat Fade. I commit the last sounds of his laugh to memory And do the right thing At last. I let go. Cold, I curl into myself. The shadows My only company. Darkness, be my friend, I plead As it claims me once again.

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Apr 25, 2018

Apr 25, 2018 at 5:10 AM UTC

25.4.2018

Echoes Muted and bouncing Reaching me delayed. My hands hazy and grey Colourless. Lifting my eyes Opaque clouds above Mists and shadow below Still the echoes Are reaching me. Try to take a step toward the voices I fall The darkness writhing and curling Around my feet and legs Bound. I open my mouth To scream The shadows flooding down my throat Stealing the sound. The clouds descend Heavy on my shoulders All encompassing. I struggle to my feet. My muscles and bones screaming I manage a step Crumpling to my knees Exhausted. The voices take shape ‘What’s wrong?’ ‘Talk to me?’ ‘Tell me how to help?’ ‘I don’t understand ‘ ‘Just think happy thoughts’ ‘Make changes, take steps’ I open my soundless mouth Try to bellow the words Into the heavy cold dark Try to tell them Help Me! I am trapped and can’t find the way out. Desperate I reach through the cloud Arms shaking with effort I reach toward The last haven The last heaven My heart, ma coeur My cherished summer For some light and warmth. As I reach Sightless I feel the threads of shadows Snake up my arms Flooding from my mouth Reaching for him with sharp cold Clawing fingers Trying to claim His golden heart through me. I withdraw Eyes wide with fear Ma coeur is not safe near me. The voices of others Who have fallen by my greyed hands Cut through the shadows Piercing my bloodless heart. ‘I’m just going to go’ My hearts voice says ‘I’ll leave you to it.’ I empty my lungs As I try to beg him not to go With only eerie silence To reward my efforts Sobbing voiceless in the quiet Shadows feathery movements Drink every tear. The sun turns away, I feel the muted heat Fade. I commit the last sounds of his laugh to memory And do the right thing At last. I let go. Cold, I curl into myself. The shadows My only company. Darkness, be my friend, I plead As it claims me once again.

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I’m still so in love with you. Oh the hours I’ve spent Reliving the pictures of us I held in my mind and in my hands I’d look so carefully Study our smiles Your eyes, My eyes Every freckle and lash Looking for that offending something That doomed us to fail At work I’ve been helpless Gazing out the window Dreamily Heart and mind far away Wandering with you. ‘Oh that’s a girl in love’ The old lady said As she chuckled and shuffled out the door My cheeks reddening. What do I make of it all I had so much questions and doubt. Why do I only grow in more love for you The longer we are apart Why won’t it fade Like everything else? How can I still want you this much When I know so strongly we are wrong Why can’t I even use This violent imagination To even imagine myself with someone new? Everyday is worse Than the one before it My calling reaching deafening pitch Ma coeur ma coeur Come home. I’m still so in love with you. I want to throw my arms around you Bury my face in your neck Breathe you in Oh how I crave you Kiss every inch of you Tracing the lines of you Painting you with my fingers Feel drums deep in your chest, Under my hands Your laugh like sun bursting From behind clouds And how you’d look at me Holding my face so gently Fires in your eyes Fierce and gentle at the same time The crooked smile The nervous hands Asking, never taking Oh how I want you. I live for your words An addict I’ve become Counting the minutes between Each contact. Each word. I imagine how you’d say them The shape of your lips Your summer eyes Changing and folding With the seasons of your sentences If words were water My darling, Let it pour. I’m still so in love with you The missing is unbearable Desperate and hollow I’ve become Your ghost A spectre to follow your bright futures I never wanted to be a shadow. I am becoming yours. I’m still so in love with you And for that reason I can’t have you. For I left you to force you forward So how can I justify Taking you back Even if it is Into my begging arms.

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Apr 24, 2018

Apr 24, 2018 at 9:08 AM UTC

24.4.2018

I’m still so in love with you. Oh the hours I’ve spent Reliving the pictures of us I held in my mind and in my hands I’d look so carefully Study our smiles Your eyes, My eyes Every freckle and lash Looking for that offending something That doomed us to fail At work I’ve been helpless Gazing out the window Dreamily Heart and mind far away Wandering with you. ‘Oh that’s a girl in love’ The old lady said As she chuckled and shuffled out the door My cheeks reddening. What do I make of it all I had so much questions and doubt. Why do I only grow in more love for you The longer we are apart Why won’t it fade Like everything else? How can I still want you this much When I know so strongly we are wrong Why can’t I even use This violent imagination To even imagine myself with someone new? Everyday is worse Than the one before it My calling reaching deafening pitch Ma coeur ma coeur Come home. I’m still so in love with you. I want to throw my arms around you Bury my face in your neck Breathe you in Oh how I crave you Kiss every inch of you Tracing the lines of you Painting you with my fingers Feel drums deep in your chest, Under my hands Your laugh like sun bursting From behind clouds And how you’d look at me Holding my face so gently Fires in your eyes Fierce and gentle at the same time The crooked smile The nervous hands Asking, never taking Oh how I want you. I live for your words An addict I’ve become Counting the minutes between Each contact. Each word. I imagine how you’d say them The shape of your lips Your summer eyes Changing and folding With the seasons of your sentences If words were water My darling, Let it pour. I’m still so in love with you The missing is unbearable Desperate and hollow I’ve become Your ghost A spectre to follow your bright futures I never wanted to be a shadow. I am becoming yours. I’m still so in love with you And for that reason I can’t have you. For I left you to force you forward So how can I justify Taking you back Even if it is Into my begging arms.

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All things have their time Flowers bud then bloom In fragrant bursts of colour and life Wilting, browning, curling and dying Just how they should Trees shake off the frost Greening up skeletal branches Till the trunk sways Under a crown of bushy green That slowly turn gold orange and brown And drops As the world cycles again. We too, bloomed. You made me bloom Then we wilted I wilted And we ended. My most fervent dream for us Was always that we’d somehow be evergreen Despite what nature has taught me. We lived in summer, and died just before winter. Except I wonder if we are now Just dead branches Wilted petals Fallen leaves When since the ending Greenery has burst from our skin Better than the unpruned tree Our love seemed to be. Maybe we had to let the bad fall away Maybe what we had was the bad So that something better could grow The world keeps moving Whether I will it to or not And gold that was not yours Asked for me. And I know we had our time And this is a time for pruning But how can I accept Different flowers When even as he spoke I wished For yours. All things have their time Sunflowers and deep roots, Tell me, Is our time truly over?

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Apr 22, 2018

Apr 22, 2018 at 8:26 AM UTC

22.4.2018

All things have their time Flowers bud then bloom In fragrant bursts of colour and life Wilting, browning, curling and dying Just how they should Trees shake off the frost Greening up skeletal branches Till the trunk sways Under a crown of bushy green That slowly turn gold orange and brown And drops As the world cycles again. We too, bloomed. You made me bloom Then we wilted I wilted And we ended. My most fervent dream for us Was always that we’d somehow be evergreen Despite what nature has taught me. We lived in summer, and died just before winter. Except I wonder if we are now Just dead branches Wilted petals Fallen leaves When since the ending Greenery has burst from our skin Better than the unpruned tree Our love seemed to be. Maybe we had to let the bad fall away Maybe what we had was the bad So that something better could grow The world keeps moving Whether I will it to or not And gold that was not yours Asked for me. And I know we had our time And this is a time for pruning But how can I accept Different flowers When even as he spoke I wished For yours. All things have their time Sunflowers and deep roots, Tell me, Is our time truly over?

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