money,
love,
power,
fame
everybody is looking
for something
Feb 10, 2019
Feb 10, 2019 at 9:50 AM UTC
it's said if you ain't first, you're last,
so I keep going 'til I crash
then wake the morning with a grin
to burn through all that **** again
I never wake up feeling good
but reason why is understood
although I know it brings me pain
i'm not complete if I don't train
Feb 8, 2019
Feb 8, 2019 at 1:45 PM UTC
but I don't know how to
in a world where
not having money
is just another way to be dead
Feb 8, 2019
Feb 8, 2019 at 1:35 PM UTC
try to be productive, but it's
hard to come up with the energy when
the only gift I may possess, my
words cut like a razor's edge and
leave me bleeding
with every negative thought,
another laceration
worthless,
lazy
(my ears are ringing)
"but wait, there's more!"
now comes the replays,
all the times I wasn't there
when I was really needed
(legs feeling weak)
all the people that have left this world
their faces
( I want to curl up in a little ball)
the last time I saw them, and my
mind struggles with that, incessantly
(I no longer want to exist)
until i'm too shattered, too
weak
to drag my *** out of this
bed
Feb 4, 2019
Feb 4, 2019 at 9:54 PM UTC
by candlelight, I'm warmly dressed
my demons finally at rest
the trick, I guess, to get them ******
and they leave me the **** alone
no feeling less, not good enough
or what-ifs am I thinking of
so good to finally be at peace
i'm simply resting in my seat
anxiety and ADD
don't get the chance to **** with me
Feb 2, 2019
Feb 2, 2019 at 8:11 PM UTC
the waking hours can be chaotic,
like being in the eye of the storm
I see the destruction around me,
hear the deafening sounds of the winds,
and i'm not sure which way to go,
if I was to run away
but after it dissipates, the days return
to a peaceful, harmonious state
and nights with her are calm and tranquil
Feb 2, 2019
Feb 2, 2019 at 10:05 AM UTC
speeding round the curves
flying over the hills
my ***** went in my stomach,
I spilled some beer,
when we had to slow down
for that tractor
with a plow attachment
interrupted
was about to take a ****
Feb 2, 2019
Feb 2, 2019 at 12:20 AM UTC
***
be it half full
or half empty,
fill it with
whatever
makes you happy
or pour some out
for whoever makes
you
h a p p y
just be sure to save
a little for yourself
Feb 1, 2019
Feb 1, 2019 at 10:31 PM UTC
spark the fire, and with each inhale,
I begin to drift further
in and out
of consciousness
deeper in,
further down
and somewhere between
exists inspiration
coming through
in waves
so I jot down what I can
because I don't remember dreams so well
but other times,
I just enjoy the vibrations
as they pass through every cell of my body
Feb 1, 2019
Feb 1, 2019 at 8:28 PM UTC