brass-knuckles-mike
37/M/American
There was a time that I routinely found this forum as a place of expression. 16 years later my activity is shatteringly infrequent. This is my haven when I do not care what you think but need to get something out there... to make something or else.
We believed in a promise once
The Boss or When in Rome
All our rebellion found its voice
In punk, rock, or BioDome
And we believed
That we were not alone
We found communion
In words that didn't rhyme
We chased our kindred
As a way to find home
When life interrupted us...
Some of our musical heroes
Gave us versions of songs
That wont make the radio
Some acoustic arrangements
Showing the art of rock
In cello or piano
Life always feels like we're throwing up
Woah, oh oh... Growing Up.
And woah oh, Thunder Road.
Jan 25
Jan 25, 2026 at 5:13 AM UTC
Every thought too fast to speak
In every moment an emergency
Would you hear me
If I spoke without reason
Would you feel me
If I ignored your touch?
Does my love for you
Fall with the season
Or maybe I
Or maybe I
Am running out of luck
You split the winds with your temper
Your passions are tempered
For the desire
To be tied in a truss
If I give in
I give to you too much
Would you want me still
If I am weathered...
In a sandstorm can you feel my touch?
Does being blind in the dark
Stir the disfunction
To see what we are not
You spoke to me in riddles
Expecting a solution
But I only had questions
And neither of us should have survived this far
I will meet you in the car.
Dec 12, 2025
Dec 12, 2025 at 2:57 AM UTC
I am a terrible man
Replete with terrible features
Too old for a hopeful youth
Too young to concede defeat... yet
And that was precisely how we met
A terrible woman
Wiping her knees from dirt and grass
Disenchanted and disaffected... yet
Complete with a smile
To purloin your sirloin
And you'd thank her for the chance
Improbable possibles
Impossible improbables
I looked around and I doubted
There were bookies taking bets on us
You fool,
You damnable child
And me
A man-child, **** you
Like sunset and sunrise
Our crossings be brief
But from time to time
When the weather and stars align
We meet
And call it Twilight
Just for some dumb ******* to turn into a sparkly vampire movie.
Oct 31, 2025
Oct 31, 2025 at 4:58 AM UTC
Where do we keep heroes now
In concrete stars
On Hollywood
Or sunset boulevard?
Where can we find
The voices calling
When graveyards
And tears feed
Our gardens?
Oct 31, 2025
Oct 31, 2025 at 4:45 AM UTC
I surrounded myself with people
Who I thought looked like me
Whose painted faces
Looked just like how I tried to paint mine
But where others covered there pain
With a mask
I just asked my pain
Why cant I paint
Two decades of friendships
Forged in fire and suffer
And brotherhood and heroism that
Decided the fire wasn't going to be enough
Huh
How long did that last
Trace the path through the woods back
And the file "adult" didn't unfold with the map
Its funny that we never considered
The aftermaths
Of time, space, separation
Disillusion, security, and all of the isms
That we want to blame for this is why
And this is it
And we dont try for real anymore.
I once believed
I had a brother
Not even from another mother
Not even, but more to me than my own brother
I once believed
And there is no one Id rather talk to right now
In my insomnia
Than the brother I chose
Who had unchosen me
Jul 2, 2025
Jul 2, 2025 at 4:46 AM UTC
<Act I>
It's probably been far too long
I've been keeping all my doors closed now
It's what you have to do
When you live inside haunted houses
Would it be different if I'd said
I wished I was haunting you
If it's not real
Turn all of my lights on
Just hold my hand
And blow the candlelight out
<Act II>
Sledgehammers can take the walls down
Unlocked doors, unopened windows
Don' erase the pictures - just black the eyes, and hide
Cause once in a while
When I see you smile
Through all the pain
Darlin' you steal the whole frame
If this is real
Why are there no shadows
Turn off the lights
Hold my hand
Don' leave me alone
<Bridge>
Recognize
I'm stuck in my selfish "I"
Reconcile
It's not about me tonight
<Act III>
I resigned
Satisfied
In my closed casket
This bad habit
I've consigned
To leave behind
And let that me go
Plan my escape
Love me back to life
Hold my hands
Darlings don't let go
In the dark
We'll keep each too close
My lifelines,
I'll be your candlelight
Jan 3, 2025
Jan 3, 2025 at 4:51 AM UTC
I'm not here to judge
Or to cast my aspersions
I've written my Ameri-cant
And Amerikunt versions
I'm unconvinced
That I'm still alive
But that ****** Orwell
Never wrote 1985
La la la la la
La la la la la
La la la lalla
La la la la la
It's easy to think
We deserve more than this
Epitaphs, gravestones
And **** in the sink
Obits will read
By who we're survived
Ungrateful kids
Born after 1985
La la la la la
La la la la la
La la la lalla
La la la la la
Nov 27, 2024
Nov 27, 2024 at 1:06 PM UTC
There were sunlit days
Of picnics and balconies
Christmas mornings
And final warnings
And I still remember
The last look you gave to me
And I hope
You're not watching
I cant stomach what you'd think of me
And I know
There's no "do over"
But I'm certain I'm not who I'm supposed to be
All that's left of me
I hope I made you proud
But I'm run over
A burnt picture of a kid in effigy
I took the weight
You taught me to shoulder
I got old and its got harder on my knees
I made mistakes
I'd never dreamed of
Every disappointing decision
I could make
I made my grave
And I hope I have love
To make every ******* choice
Worth its sake
And I hope
You're not watching
I cant stomach what you'd think of me
And I know
There's no "do over"
But I'm certain I'm not who I'm supposed to be
Nov 16, 2024
Nov 16, 2024 at 12:44 AM UTC
The words I seek
Just escape me
But the meaning is so clear
I try to find the right words
But those words
They disappear
So I speak to you in riddles
Because my words get in my way
I can grasp them for a moment
But they
Always fade away
I scream because
I cant trust myself
And I don't know how to speak
My breath is gone
My voice ripped out
And left bleeding at my feet
And the thoughts
They rise like water
They crest and come crashing down
So lets just sit here
Silently so
I dont have to drown
Hell no
I am nothing more than
Imprisoned in my mind
A voice I once thought reliable
Now determined to stay inside
So sit there frozen
Carved in stone
While we drift farther away
This shattered home
Is just a shallow hole
Words left ruin in their wake
Ruin in
Ruin in
Ruin in their wake
Nov 15, 2024
Nov 15, 2024 at 6:59 PM UTC
So this is what it feels like winning?
Trumpets sound our victory
I cast out your Light-bringer
So what now
Becomes of me?
You said my name is as Justice
Dared me be worthy of such a charge
I believed a divine purpose
And yet I'm blunting my sword
Is mercy blasphemy?
I've given all I have to give
For Heaven's sake
I'm not seeking your forgiveness
I won't forgive this
I dont want to see you when I wake
You pitted us brother to brother
Tested each our loyalty
Again you do to your subjects
Claiming proof of faith and fealty
- "prove your worth to me"
How can you hold any guilty
When you are pulling all the strings
Strive, struggle, and suffer
Desperation begets rotten things
If this is what's to be heaven
I wont stomach it
I exile myself in shame
For the part I played in shaping this
And Father, you stopped list'ning
But the mortals beg for you to list
If you wont hear them beg salvation
Than Father,
You can take my wings
Oct 19, 2024
Oct 19, 2024 at 2:21 AM UTC