Over protective like this
My mind is reckless and quick
Just racing, never slow pacing, I'm facing anxious illness
Or whatever the term is
Anxiety's my *****
And she's running my dome home, she's taking over and ****
If I could stop it I would, but she's been taking over long
I know that I should, but she's forever to strong
Stronger with every attempt
To get her presence exempt
And the more I try to rid
Of her, the more she exists
So yeah I'll stop trying cuz i know she's here to stay
Maybe the brain she has now will return to me some day
But til then, this anxious illness remains to be in my way
Of ever having a life where care-free is in play.
Jan 3, 2014
Jan 3, 2014 at 6:28 AM UTC
I love life, I love life, I love her
She stays omnipresent even when the love hurts
And sure I could end her but that would hurt me most
Cause I'll end her for me and myself alone
So even if I wanted I couldn't cause her pain
Even though she ***** me over to the point I feel insane
Turns out she's bipolar and she's always bound to change
And I never understood, that's why it always had me saying
I hate life, I hate life, I hate you
I hate the world where we reside, and the things it tends to do
Seems like life and planet earth was a duo we all knew
And they worked to assure that joy and smiles were all through
By 13
All I knew was hurting
But I kept a smile worn so the people kept from learning
Of my depression, but the demons kept on lurking
But the days stayed the same, it seemed liked I was surfing
On a sea of my emotions
**** the sea, I made an ocean
Of tears and everything beneath my surface moistured by lotion
And potions didn't work
You know those things I was too young for
Like alcohol and pills that I stole from out the drug drawer
So i just roamed the city where the drugs dealt and guns drawn
Milwaukee was hella crazy but I said **** it, I was so torn
Plus i got friends that got me incase some **** blew
But when them shots started racing, hell my friends did too
And I was in a situation that really seemed hella new
Cuz I was from the burbs and violence is what I always knew
But I never saw it alone, I was always chillin with the crew
So **** I was running for the life I thought I hated
And I was crying, cuz I thought that we wasn't gone make it
But I looked back, and stopped cuz to my amazement
We wasn't the targets, and I sat on the block steady saying
I love life, I love life, I love her
Cuz she teach me all the things that need to be learned
When your city is the farthest thing from balanced
Plus she has much in store when you have dreams and a talent
Jan 1, 2014
Jan 1, 2014 at 3:36 AM UTC
The ignorance and arrogance that goes around daily
Tends to get under my skin more than a pregnant lady's baby
And maybe it's just me but I can't stand it
How can we as a people be this stupid with all the knowledge that we're handed ?
I may digress but maybe not
Tryna impress is a ***** plot
Tryna please the one you're not equal to even in the eyes of god
Putting on facades and making lies
Going low to see the highs
That you will never reach because the leader in you died
So if your leader jumped off the bridge, I'm pretty sure you would too
Just so you can gain the social status of really being cool
But you won't reach that status
The cool kids at home laughing
At yo dumb *** racing real fast to the wrong goal with a passion
Be you and never change
Stay yourself and in exchange
You will one day earn your status with out heartache, lies, or strain.
So lower your masks down
Stomp your lies on the ground
And open your eyes wide, the time to awake is now !
Dec 30, 2013
Dec 30, 2013 at 11:48 PM UTC
A change of the hair is a change of the mind
Every single style brings you closer to find
The you that you like most or like most of the time
Plus it's fun to switch it up and imagination shines
But I hate that were judged on the style that we choose
And what's created is a hate over what they think is you
But they really don't know man I swear they'll never know
What goes on under the fro they think they know but they don't know the truth
They see you happy and they label you bad and uncouth
All because of the styling that you put on your roof
They say that he's a murderer, a hoodlum, he takes women's fruit
And I reply "do you have proof?"
John Wilkins booth had great hair
He still killed our leader
But you judge me with a blank stare
I swear this life is unfair
Society is so jacked
Accusations so whack
I wonder if as people have we gotten our freedom back
Cuz it's looking real dark for that bit of grace
Please don't make me start on what I think about this place
But I digress, just know that I'm aware
Of the problems and abuse that happens over hair
Dec 23, 2013
Dec 23, 2013 at 11:50 AM UTC
I try and try again
But **** still stay the same tho
I'm closing off my brain doors
No thoughts about insane hoes
No more
**** the hugs and the *** you give
To me you're so irrelevant
You think it's so cute to be negligent
Well yo cute *** can hit the door and and never turn back
A guy like me ? You earn that
Yo attitude be too whack
You lack what it takes
And I just don't have the time
This is a message to yo dumb ***
It just so happens to rhyme.
Dec 22, 2013
Dec 22, 2013 at 11:11 AM UTC
Seeking peace while in pieces
More than them pizzas
From pizzeria down the street
Cut in squares, some you can't see cuz
There all in my heart
But my heart's in a black hole
And I'm tryna bring it out
But it's taken one too many blows
From the stuff that happens daily
Life's downscaling
And just maybe
The fact that I get paid gs
Don't really phase me
Well that's a lie
But still I can't deny
The stressing and great depressions going on in my life in this life time
Is a pure sign that I'm still not happy
And money don't change that
So I write out my problems
Who knew that I would change rap
Hell I don't know it I just think I do
I'm still 16 in the mil working hard in school
But give me sometime and garuntee that I'll be living proof
Of a dedicated artist with a talent and a dream that's couth
And everytime I hit the booth
The lyrics that go past my tooth
Comes from my insane membrane I have inside my roof
But don't get confused, no ceilings will be set upon me
I have water from the clouds all over my feet
Can't you see
That I'm an upcoming mc
Tryna take the top spot cuz that's the spot meant for me
Lyrically I'm the best
I can feel it in my chest
Remember these three letters, L.E.X
That spells Lex
And whoever gets upset
I'm sorry that you're not impressed
I guess you tried to sleep on me but I flipped you out your bed
And what's next ?
I don't know
It's all in the lords hands
But until we get there, I'm not taking any chance
Anybody that wanna rap can do it
But I'm tryna help the game, do my best to improve it
So let's do it
Dec 22, 2013
Dec 22, 2013 at 11:07 AM UTC
I'm too through
**** it
**** all of the ********
That piles on my back and y'all just seem to be so cool with
The world taking shots
Just because I'm not
An aggressive *** ***** id still grab the chrome and pop
***** I'm all about them bodies ***** I **** with no limits
And yeah I'm from the burbs but know y'all can still get it
I don't care bout how you living ***** you deserve to die
So it's time I get that Mac and get to ending lives
Cuz this ********
I swear tho
But I don't even care yo
I'm on that **** the world. It's twisted underneath this hair bro
Plus I don't have a heart, I guess im friends with that scarecrow
From oz, no wiz needed cuz he can't bring back the dead so
I roam a ******* zombie
Who gone stop me who gone stop me ?
And I ain't ducking ****
Who gone pop me who gone pop me ?
I ain't got **** to do but rap and do hobbies
So I'll take over the world by next year probably.
*****
Dec 22, 2013
Dec 22, 2013 at 10:45 AM UTC
This is life in the jungle
Where bullets are the muscle
And the one behind the gun is a coward undercover
That cowers under covers
Everytime he sees another
Coward with a glock 40 looking for reasons to tussle
But rumbles never take place
You just see bullets fly
And it's encouraged until yo best friend is the one who dies
Then you the one thats crying and sighing wondering why
They had to take your guys soul and put in the sky
But trust you're not the only one
I also lost a friend
From people wilding with violence tryna get caged in
I miss that friend to this very minute
That's why I pray for hoods when that's not what I lived in
No I didn't
I really didn't know how I would make it
Losing all the ones I loved most
But I had to keep my head up high
That's when I saw my visions in the sky
Of a better day
Doing things the better way
Living in a better day
Nov 12, 2013
Nov 12, 2013 at 8:45 PM UTC
***** ****** with gold triggers
Gold chains and no figures
Broke as a joke what the hell am I gone do with ya ?
Idk. These new ******
Not black people them ew ******
Have priorities so messed up they put rent behind new shoes *****
Ch ch boom, that mac go
Bodies on the floor getting stacked tho
Rappers getting snacked on
Came in the game through the back door
But now I'm at the gate guarding it
Y'all really just here to be gardening
I'll finish it cuz I started it
I'm new but I'm a huge part in this
So pardon the interruption like ESPN on late nights
I used to travel on ground but now all I do is make flights
And please don't get me wrong cuz I swear that I lived a good life
Real good right ?
Then how I get so violent like its hood life ?
I'll never know I'll never know
Them big parties I gotta go
Yo girl ******* they gotta show
Yo girl with me she gotta blow
Don't pass the blunt cuz I never smoke
Just pass the bottle I'll drain it slow
You make it rain, I make it snow
Wait no I don't
Cuz my cash flow
Is for me myself and I and I just had to talk with me see
Cuz myself kinda crazy like the lohans' father's seeds be
So me be running up to I like the letter after g be
Cuz Me see the evil man that myself will be in three weeks
But plant a bomb and blow myself up like my career by the month of June
You swear you on my level, I'm singing you using auto tune
I snapped up on this rap, is there anything else I need to do
This is open vent 6 and I promise you that I'm still not through
I know I'm bouta ball like I'm kobe, d wade, or uncle drew
It's me, it's drake, it's Kendrick, all these rappers but really who are you ?
I know I'll be the best just give me time and some orange juice
And swear to you I'll be the first trillionaire to hit the booth
I'm super cool I'm laid back
I never leave where I was raised at
That 414 that mil town
The best city never made whack
This open vent is through with
That new kid with the swag with em
What the hell is they gone do with em
He changing music a new system
His stupid bars and imagination
He's rapping hard, no hesitation
Next vent I'll sing amazing
Then see how much I'm really making
Cuz right I don't know
But on the real I gotta go
Next vent'll go down for sho
So stay tuned for the next show
Nov 12, 2013
Nov 12, 2013 at 8:44 PM UTC
Emotionless as ****
Every motion out of love
Has been terminated. Drowned by all these shots I’m pouring up.
I’m so vibrant in my zone,
But in reality I’m stuck.
And I’m getting throwed alone;
In my totality I ****
But I can’t stand to live straight,
So this bottle is my crutch.
So I just keep tossing shots until I feel I’ve had enough.
But enough never comes so the turn up is so infinite
That even when I black out the liquor moves to my ligaments.
And even when I’m numb, my body is still feeling it.
And even when I’m done, my will just gets to giving in,
And drains another bottle.
And through this hollow bottle
I see the me I once was and the me that’s now a problem.
And there’s no solution to this problem and this problem is now solemn.
I thought I could control him but now I just don’t got him.
And I asked the Lord for answers but no matter how I holler
His response never made shore.
And this relationship I paid for
With faith and good religion is now distant from my brain core.
So now my faith’s endangered,
And the one I called my savior
Hasn’t saved me in a while, so me and God become strangers.
Nov 5, 2013
Nov 5, 2013 at 11:10 AM UTC