I'll be your loudest cheerleader
Even when the stands are empty
Be it with or without merit
I love you unconditionally
My life, I would gladly lay to rest
If doing so would preserve your own
To pull you from the depths of Hell
Without regret, I would sell my soul
Yet as my armour begins to rust
Exposing my open wounds
I realize I'm no longer strong enough
To carry us both through
Have courage to climb higher each day
Than you did the day before
Remember how to use your wings
When you're finally ready to soar
Your feet will never leave the ground
If you haven't the faith to leap
But you can bounce from star to star
If you're not afraid to dream
Be not defeated by trials you'll face
Silence the rhetoric of loathing and grief
Realize that through the ugliest of pain
We become our greatest masterpiece
I pray you find your way back home
With the map I made for you
My only wish for you, sweet child
Is that you find joy in all you do
Mar 14, 2025
Mar 14, 2025 at 5:54 PM UTC
I dance
Alone and in silence
To the music within me
No one hears
I dance
With grace unbalanced
Like a swan on water
With no fear
I dance
Like no one is watching
Even though I know
No one hears
The sweet sound within me
But I dance
With great pride I dance
With love I sway
To the sweet sound
No one hears
But I dance anyway
Mar 14, 2025
Mar 14, 2025 at 5:53 PM UTC
Today I thought about suicide
And what my life means
Am I depressed?
Or is this just me?
I fantasized
About how much better
Everyone's lives
Would be
Without me here
To disrupt the flow
Without my unpredictable mood swings
And negative energy.
If I'm not here
They won't witness my decline
Or subconsciously follow suit.
But they wouldn't miss much
I'm always tired
Or in a bad mood.
Their good memories
Will outweigh the bad
If I just leave quietly.
Right?
Would the pain of losing me
Pale in comparison
To the pain of watching me
Fail so miserably?
Would death relieve my pain?
Or would I have to relive it
Again?
Maybe I am depressed.
Or maybe I just need a friend.
Feb 2, 2020
Feb 2, 2020 at 3:36 AM UTC
I'll be your loudest cheerleader
Even when the stands are empty
Be it with or without merit
I love you unconditionally
My life, I would gladly lay to rest
If doing so would preserve your own
To pull you from the depths of Hell
Without regret, I would sell my soul
Yet as my armour begins to rust
Exposing my open wounds
I realize I'm no longer strong enough
To carry us both through
Have courage to climb higher each day
Than you did the day before
Remember how to use your wings
When you're finally ready to soar
Your feet will never leave the ground
If you haven't the faith to leap
But you can bounce from star to star
If you're not afraid to dream
Be not defeated by trials you'll face
Silence the rhetoric of loathing and grief
Realize that through the ugliest of pain
We become our greatest masterpiece
I pray you find your way back home
With the map I made for you
My only wish for you, sweet child
Is that you find joy in all you do
Jul 16, 2019
Jul 16, 2019 at 7:19 PM UTC
I rest in the belly of rage
Overwhelmed and a bit dismayed
Unable to speak
Without spewing venom
I seek shelter
From my mental asylum
This torture is but my own
Come one
Come all
Then be gone
Let me rest
Until I return again
This beast is not my friend.
Aug 1, 2018
Aug 1, 2018 at 4:25 AM UTC
Happy belated birthday
My dearly missed friend.
I'm sure you had a heavenly party
That I regretfully didn't attend.
I couldn't think of you yesterday
It still hurts to say your name.
They say time will heal the ache
But it lingers yet the same.
I say a silent prayer for your soul
And push the thought away.
Time is only a theif.
It isn't any easier today.
May 7, 2018
May 7, 2018 at 9:16 PM UTC
I lie awake each night
Long after you're asleep
I envy your restful slumber
Through salty eyes I weep
As the air thickens
I struggle just to breathe
Bowing my head in sorrow
I pray so desperately...
Grant my mind solace
If my thoughts go astray
Give me strength to carry through;
To fight grief courageously
Protect me from the pain
That haunts my every thought
Awaken my restless spirit
If my dreams become too dark
Make my heart resilient
When it shatters painfully
Teach me about patience
While I gather it, piece by piece
Allow me the courage
To assemble it once again
As I try not to crush
The fragile pieces in my hand
If my strength grows weary
Or I tremble at the knees,
Steady my soul & hold my hand
So I may stumble gracefully
Jan 7, 2018
Jan 7, 2018 at 2:50 AM UTC
Echoes and whispers
Begin to change
Sound and silence
Become the same
I look back
From where I came
To find solice
In everything
Aug 29, 2017
Aug 29, 2017 at 2:00 AM UTC
If you were the moon
I'd lie awake with you each night
And help you battle the sun
For your place in the sky.
If you were a soft breeze
I would chase the wind
Just to feel your breath
As the air caressed my skin.
If you were a dream
I would never want to awaken again.
Sep 13, 2016
Sep 13, 2016 at 4:02 PM UTC
Dear me,
Why can't you sleep?
Does the darkness trouble thee?
As your mind chases grief
Do you struggle just to breathe?
Dear me,
You must go to sleep
Life won't stop for you to weep
Dry your tears gracefully
And smile for the whole world to see
Dear Me,
Are you asleep?
Did you fall to your knees in agony?
Hide the nightmares that you keep
Tomorrow will come peacefully
Dear Me,
You must stay asleep
Quiet the chaos and stifle the screams
Silence the demons
That invade your dreams
Dear me,
You must not sleep
Or life may pass too quickly.
Rouse from your clouded lucidity
And awaken now...
It was only a dream
Dear Me,
Don't fall asleep
Apr 15, 2016
Apr 15, 2016 at 3:12 PM UTC