boat-floater - Hello Poetry

Doing my best to live just for today may the bridges we burned light the way we don't like so we fight the way things are going,after that with one hand behind my back I'll change the way winds blowing growing up knowing ,,it's better to keep from showing , true colors leaving lovers n mothers in the dark, every remark leaving loose ends all the money spends, too much time alone no friends pretends that he's got so much goin on but truth is he's lost,long gone hope is non existent it all crashes down in an instant..I know cuz I'm the one to go, n bring your destruction leave u with trouble trustin ..I'm known for bubble bustin givin into lust n, I'll show u the finer things in life, u shouldn't do n there's nothing that I'd love more then to..be the one neglecting u

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Feb 24, 2015

Feb 24, 2015 at 11:12 PM UTC

Burning bridges light the way

Doing my best to live just for today may the bridges we burned light the way we don't like so we fight the way things are going,after that with one hand behind my back I'll change the way winds blowing growing up knowing ,,it's better to keep from showing , true colors leaving lovers n mothers in the dark, every remark leaving loose ends all the money spends, too much time alone no friends pretends that he's got so much goin on but truth is he's lost,long gone hope is non existent it all crashes down in an instant..I know cuz I'm the one to go, n bring your destruction leave u with trouble trustin ..I'm known for bubble bustin givin into lust n, I'll show u the finer things in life, u shouldn't do n there's nothing that I'd love more then to..be the one neglecting u

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Right here write now all open ended honesty dies Cuz I realize her eyes r always on me God forbid I have my own space Only place where I find a release Has been forced to seize to exist U can find my thoughts n prayers amongst the mist an imprint of fist against the wall Evidently a stroll thru the mall was too much to ask for I won't waste my time fighting a past war With another dumb broad who swore to god she wasn't flawed My iPod will b smashed by morning , by morning A warning Was givin, Proceed living Ashes to ashes But my need smashes ,my existence Pure resistance Reinforcers my stance Yet if I can b granted one wish it would be to be able to dance rathervthen judged in a glance Was there ever Really a chance for our so called romance? U had a husband I had a drug problem So yeah.....issues we got em Teachers have taught em everything They didn't need to know Let's see u show me how to conquer or deal with jealousy or the way I feel. Now that would be a real Life lesson Instead they got me second guessin Waste more time on impression then passion the ability.to be .just .me is what I'm askin **** just realized I'm sittin at the bar alone lost in the zone I wanna fit in b a clone to each is own don't exist **** THAT PUT A FIST IN THE AIR HONESTKY I REALLY DONT CARE go ahead n stare I You'll see the real me N u don't wanna go there I'll flow there here In front of a mirror Face to face with my most fear In a box with a fox Or where ever the **** I fall in the category as stuck on stupid But I've got so many lessons to teach you kid

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Feb 21, 2015

Feb 21, 2015 at 3:57 AM UTC

At the bjs bar, I let u know who I are

Right here write now all open ended honesty dies Cuz I realize her eyes r always on me God forbid I have my own space Only place where I find a release Has been forced to seize to exist U can find my thoughts n prayers amongst the mist an imprint of fist against the wall Evidently a stroll thru the mall was too much to ask for I won't waste my time fighting a past war With another dumb broad who swore to god she wasn't flawed My iPod will b smashed by morning , by morning A warning Was givin, Proceed living Ashes to ashes But my need smashes ,my existence Pure resistance Reinforcers my stance Yet if I can b granted one wish it would be to be able to dance rathervthen judged in a glance Was there ever Really a chance for our so called romance? U had a husband I had a drug problem So yeah.....issues we got em Teachers have taught em everything They didn't need to know Let's see u show me how to conquer or deal with jealousy or the way I feel. Now that would be a real Life lesson Instead they got me second guessin Waste more time on impression then passion the ability.to be .just .me is what I'm askin **** just realized I'm sittin at the bar alone lost in the zone I wanna fit in b a clone to each is own don't exist **** THAT PUT A FIST IN THE AIR HONESTKY I REALLY DONT CARE go ahead n stare I You'll see the real me N u don't wanna go there I'll flow there here In front of a mirror Face to face with my most fear In a box with a fox Or where ever the **** I fall in the category as stuck on stupid But I've got so many lessons to teach you kid

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I'm tired of going at it I think ive just about had it Glad it. Had to come to this Make it harder to miss The commonly cold hearted Who Quickly departed as soon as in sight u started to see What u might call the real me How could I b such a sucker? Overly sensitive n sorry mother ****** Told her I loved her I didn't think that she would say "I do too, just not the same way" Too many dues left to pay I'm ok with the sky's grey, the ties may. Bind one with some times glum Grew to gloomy No reason u had to do me like u did From your raised voice I hid, Cuz your words hurt. Like I didn't already feel like dirt

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Feb 20, 2015

Feb 20, 2015 at 5:29 PM UTC

Just not the way u wanted

I'm tired of going at it I think ive just about had it Glad it. Had to come to this Make it harder to miss The commonly cold hearted Who Quickly departed as soon as in sight u started to see What u might call the real me How could I b such a sucker? Overly sensitive n sorry mother ****** Told her I loved her I didn't think that she would say "I do too, just not the same way" Too many dues left to pay I'm ok with the sky's grey, the ties may. Bind one with some times glum Grew to gloomy No reason u had to do me like u did From your raised voice I hid, Cuz your words hurt. Like I didn't already feel like dirt

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Getting back in touch with the comfort of the clutch. a miserly that I miss so much of a life lost in the exhaust of a burnout and u know there's only so many ways things can turn out so no surprises reminded every day how pointless his life is Not the man that I wanted to b n definitely not the man that I wanted u to see you'll agree the real me, is one of those things ud wanna hide and hold secretly inside I only lied cuz some things r better untold,bring it up and watch me unfold a cycle that gets old real fast leaving u on the shore to watch as I cast myself into a sea of self destruction I find comfort in the familiar dysfunction where I finally feel like I fit! so I sit n ride out the storm. my insecurities keep me warm as the world is torn apart I grab a horn n start playing...I dunno something like the blues I guess. My mom n dad made a mess who's willing to confess he's never been the best son or sibling, the one who did bring shame to the family name A flame. Lost in he clouds of smoke. No joke We soak up the suffering n the sadness To the point of madness Dad this....isn't the way it's suppose to b,is it? I avoid your calls n refuse to visit Sometimes I think I hear u call my name The way u did when I was a boy n we were playing a game Gabblie **** monkey, or worm I'm 30 years old but u still use the term After how many times this bridge has been burned U helped me rebuild, warm welcomed return Ud think I would learn n I did as a kid, You'll always love me, despite the **** that I did I use to cry when I'd see u calling when I went off the grid I felt such failure, how many times r u gonna have to bail yer kid outta jail, so he can just home n snort another rail Then lie to your face, accepted my position as a disgrace A grown man behind bars who just wants to feel daddy's embrace To u I'm not fair we spent so much more time together while I was there Just know that I care, but I can't bare to b swallowed by your stare When u look in my eyes n your son is not there, Both torn apart within that moment we share Realize as I try my best not to look high That Everything that I say, is still a lie to this day. Every night I still pray that I'll wake up n not b this way But for now all I can say is I'm sorry....silently too myself The words "Im still a tweeker "stuck within my mouth

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Feb 20, 2015

Feb 20, 2015 at 5:28 PM UTC

Comfort of the clutch

Getting back in touch with the comfort of the clutch. a miserly that I miss so much of a life lost in the exhaust of a burnout and u know there's only so many ways things can turn out so no surprises reminded every day how pointless his life is Not the man that I wanted to b n definitely not the man that I wanted u to see you'll agree the real me, is one of those things ud wanna hide and hold secretly inside I only lied cuz some things r better untold,bring it up and watch me unfold a cycle that gets old real fast leaving u on the shore to watch as I cast myself into a sea of self destruction I find comfort in the familiar dysfunction where I finally feel like I fit! so I sit n ride out the storm. my insecurities keep me warm as the world is torn apart I grab a horn n start playing...I dunno something like the blues I guess. My mom n dad made a mess who's willing to confess he's never been the best son or sibling, the one who did bring shame to the family name A flame. Lost in he clouds of smoke. No joke We soak up the suffering n the sadness To the point of madness Dad this....isn't the way it's suppose to b,is it? I avoid your calls n refuse to visit Sometimes I think I hear u call my name The way u did when I was a boy n we were playing a game Gabblie **** monkey, or worm I'm 30 years old but u still use the term After how many times this bridge has been burned U helped me rebuild, warm welcomed return Ud think I would learn n I did as a kid, You'll always love me, despite the **** that I did I use to cry when I'd see u calling when I went off the grid I felt such failure, how many times r u gonna have to bail yer kid outta jail, so he can just home n snort another rail Then lie to your face, accepted my position as a disgrace A grown man behind bars who just wants to feel daddy's embrace To u I'm not fair we spent so much more time together while I was there Just know that I care, but I can't bare to b swallowed by your stare When u look in my eyes n your son is not there, Both torn apart within that moment we share Realize as I try my best not to look high That Everything that I say, is still a lie to this day. Every night I still pray that I'll wake up n not b this way But for now all I can say is I'm sorry....silently too myself The words "Im still a tweeker "stuck within my mouth

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don't look at me with the sad eye, you knew **** well I wore the badge of the bad guy. I understand that I ,have made more than a couple mistakes. basically nothin more then a man who devastates n breaks anyone he gets to close to. believe me I never chose to, live like this but life is hit or miss guess not everybody's dealing with **** like this. I bet about now you regret that kiss. Grew up in a home where chaos is all I've ever known. came to the conclusion were better off alone but its too late I've already grown into a man made monster.who wants her to do nothing more then save the day take it all away ,make it ok but that's not the way ***** gonna play out. I should just get a tattoo on my head that says stay out. don't try n find whats on my mind like I'm some kind of puzzle that needs to b solved. I've evolved into what I need to be not so Easily, understood why i never did the things that i knew i should God forbid anyone finds out about the things I did. Stayin off the grid cuz I know I got it comin. Gotta keep hummin the tunes, that still holds a bit happiness, of a boy. yet to destroy. desperately holding on to that joy the sound carries on. For that moment the troubles r non..existent.. resistant to believe anyone knows what I need so that wrong number I'm gonna keep callin cuz it's the only way to keep the rats from gnawin

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Feb 20, 2015

Feb 20, 2015 at 4:30 PM UTC

The (me)ss U got into

don't look at me with the sad eye, you knew **** well I wore the badge of the bad guy. I understand that I ,have made more than a couple mistakes. basically nothin more then a man who devastates n breaks anyone he gets to close to. believe me I never chose to, live like this but life is hit or miss guess not everybody's dealing with **** like this. I bet about now you regret that kiss. Grew up in a home where chaos is all I've ever known. came to the conclusion were better off alone but its too late I've already grown into a man made monster.who wants her to do nothing more then save the day take it all away ,make it ok but that's not the way ***** gonna play out. I should just get a tattoo on my head that says stay out. don't try n find whats on my mind like I'm some kind of puzzle that needs to b solved. I've evolved into what I need to be not so Easily, understood why i never did the things that i knew i should God forbid anyone finds out about the things I did. Stayin off the grid cuz I know I got it comin. Gotta keep hummin the tunes, that still holds a bit happiness, of a boy. yet to destroy. desperately holding on to that joy the sound carries on. For that moment the troubles r non..existent.. resistant to believe anyone knows what I need so that wrong number I'm gonna keep callin cuz it's the only way to keep the rats from gnawin

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I don't even know why I do the things I do maybe it's true that it's all because of u then again maybe it's not, maybe this is all I got since u been gone seems to b the only thing I can depend on to make me feel better n I got no money for anything but n I got this feeling in my gut that it's not the way to go n I know that I'm making a mistake, but it's so hard to break free from what is just me being me trying to escape the memories of what was once we now just little ol me, lookin for some green grass n a shade tree . but u can't escape the changing season every single night I stack reason upon reason of why I don't wanna have to wake up all I've ever done is take up space I don't wanna have to face this bad place, I've put myself in I wanna b the one who's helpin,not the one who needs help I wanna b the one givin the advice. not the one payin the price of being the nice guy why try if u know u can't win? this has been, a good look into my heartbreak n hopelessness lets hope it's just a phase n there's better days to come, for the one who will never understand why u left in the first place leaving me to live out the worst case scenario... I survived barely thou so many sleepless nice wondering where'd u go how can u show such little consideration? disappeared over night. no fight, I know I didn't do everything right,but I tried u lied I remember u tellin me that ud always b mine, everything will b fine, n it'll all pass in time on the line..callin collect from the county cryin cuz they tell me,I cant go home for another 2years had to hide the tears,n the fact that I was overcome with fears, n frustration not to mention the devastation after get beat down for changing the station on the radio. little Wayne playin, over n over. sound of his voice I couldn't stand the **** POWER 106, THE SOUTH SIDE, N SAMANTHA!

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Feb 20, 2015

Feb 20, 2015 at 4:28 PM UTC

When the cold hearted departed

I don't even know why I do the things I do maybe it's true that it's all because of u then again maybe it's not, maybe this is all I got since u been gone seems to b the only thing I can depend on to make me feel better n I got no money for anything but n I got this feeling in my gut that it's not the way to go n I know that I'm making a mistake, but it's so hard to break free from what is just me being me trying to escape the memories of what was once we now just little ol me, lookin for some green grass n a shade tree . but u can't escape the changing season every single night I stack reason upon reason of why I don't wanna have to wake up all I've ever done is take up space I don't wanna have to face this bad place, I've put myself in I wanna b the one who's helpin,not the one who needs help I wanna b the one givin the advice. not the one payin the price of being the nice guy why try if u know u can't win? this has been, a good look into my heartbreak n hopelessness lets hope it's just a phase n there's better days to come, for the one who will never understand why u left in the first place leaving me to live out the worst case scenario... I survived barely thou so many sleepless nice wondering where'd u go how can u show such little consideration? disappeared over night. no fight, I know I didn't do everything right,but I tried u lied I remember u tellin me that ud always b mine, everything will b fine, n it'll all pass in time on the line..callin collect from the county cryin cuz they tell me,I cant go home for another 2years had to hide the tears,n the fact that I was overcome with fears, n frustration not to mention the devastation after get beat down for changing the station on the radio. little Wayne playin, over n over. sound of his voice I couldn't stand the **** POWER 106, THE SOUTH SIDE, N SAMANTHA!

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