Just go, you clearly don't know what you want from me
Just leave, no words or thoughts like it's so ******* easy
Just now I thought something could finally happen
Just stupid old me for giving in after a bottle of Kracken..
Now I can't, I don't know who you are
Now I want and miss how you could take me so far
Now I just feel empty and so ******* alone
Now I sit and wonder why you couldn't just pick up your phone..
Jun 16, 2015
Jun 16, 2015 at 1:19 AM UTC
You can smell the alcohol off my breath
The burn is soothing,
This life leading to an unforgettable death
The beat of the drum gets me moving,
Going around the clock on **** and cigarettes
Waiting for a surprise,
"What did I do with my phone?" She forgets,
What will tonight bring? Will she have to tell more lies?
Stale smoke never lingers
Because she clears the bowl,
Hoping for the rush to flow to her fingers
Way up in the sky on could9, ten bucks is the gateway tole
May 30, 2015
May 30, 2015 at 12:57 PM UTC
The dust collecting on the window sill,
Makes me think of time
The days and hours accumulating,
It was the most dangerous crime
I had you warned but you didn't stray,
So I can't be put at fault
Starting to become someone else,
Routine every day like some type of cult
Like a sunset everything must end,
Even though we adore the mystical beauty
Sitting here lost in my words and actions,
While you were lost paying Call Of Duty
More days passed with nothing but anger,
Your fists showed exactly how you felt
Even if they weren't directed at me,
I had to pick up the cards after they were dealt
So many tears, shouting, and lies
But you always got your fill
Anything you needed I was right there
Well...not anymore, because I dusted my window sill.
May 26, 2015
May 26, 2015 at 9:56 PM UTC
"'Mom, I'm tired.."
I said, as I walked slowly towards her
My arms weighing me down
Hanging by my sides, T-shirt no sweater
"Go take a nap sweetheart"
She replied in a sweet, soothing tone
Wish I had said something more
Cause where I'm going, there isn't a phone..
I've withered and got down to my goal
It's a shame more people didn't realize,
No one took it serious enough
I never felt like I was the right size
I couldn't feel anymore neither happiness nor pain
If this is what it took then I'm glad the job is done
I loved you all so much so please forgive me
But I think this nap will be my last one
May 25, 2015
May 25, 2015 at 4:19 PM UTC
Put me to sleep
Let my
inner
thoughts rest.
I'm getting to the
point
of no return
My demons are
being
put to the test.
I need to get
out
of the world
Even for a
moment
before sunrise,
A breath of
freedom
in the air
But it's just a dream.. Wow
What a surprise.
May 22, 2015
May 22, 2015 at 4:09 AM UTC
And she said to him
Fate, is not what we were
Or what we have become
It is where we are going
He looked down at his shoes
Shifted his weight
Looked up at her longingly
And his eyes were saddened
He asked where she was going
She couldn't say
Because of the answer
And what he wanted to hear
Both were completely different
May 21, 2015
May 21, 2015 at 8:19 PM UTC
It drives me ******* crazy
When I don't know what to say
More so even
When you look at me that way
How my mind aches
When I don't know what you're thinking
All I ask for is a word of release
To keep me from all this sinking
Black hole, quicksand, however you put it
There's no limit to the tracks that my mind can run
Every second of every minute
Say something! Do something!
I'm just idly standing
Then there it is again, that look
And I'm not reprimanding
May 19, 2015
May 19, 2015 at 2:32 PM UTC
Slide your hand up my thigh
You're making me blush.
Just the tips of your fingers
Why do they call it a "crush"?
Every inch you move over
I cant take much more
Lying under warm covers
And your scent, i adore
I'm losing myself
And i know you enjoy this
If I call you Master,
The night ends in bliss
May 18, 2015
May 18, 2015 at 11:49 PM UTC
After all this time you confessed
Your true feelings you kept locked away as if they made you possessed
Tell me how I am supposed to feel?
I had this shattered perception of myself
But honestly speaking you're making it heal.
You can tell me anything you want
Who the **** am I to judge?
Nothing will make the feelings I've developed move an inch
Nope, they won't budge.
I just hope your opinion of me didn't fly off the tower
Everyone loses their mind in love, it makes them extremely bitter or sour
When I said everything will be sweet and safe
You had a doubt in play
But with you I feel trust and safety
I have no fear, and just live for that day
May 18, 2015
May 18, 2015 at 4:31 PM UTC
A woman is most vulnerable when her nail polish is drying
Even then..
She can still pull a trigger.
May 18, 2015
May 18, 2015 at 4:13 PM UTC