I've always wanted to be your girl.
I thought I knew what would come with it.
But I didn't. I wasn't prepared. I didn't know.
I didn't know about the homemade coffee. The coffee that warms me up from the inside. The coffee that says to me, "I'll never stop taking care of you."
I didn't know about the driveway. The driveway that makes my heart sink every time I roll out of it because there's not a guarantee that I'll see your eyes on mine again. The driveway that says to me, "I bet you miss him already."
I didn't know about the hands. The hands that hold my head up for me when I'm not strong enough to do it on my own. The hands that say to me, "I'll never let go of you."
But I did know your love would hit me the hardest. I knew that by pressing your lungs into mine, you would draw life into me once again. And you did.
You are my life, my love, my happiness.
And I am your girl.
Mar 10, 2020
Mar 10, 2020 at 12:14 AM UTC
If I had three wishes, they'd all be for the benefit of you.
Sep 15, 2019
Sep 15, 2019 at 2:59 PM UTC
The way you draw life into me simply by pressing your lungs deeply into mine is something I may never be able to fathom
Sep 8, 2019
Sep 8, 2019 at 9:20 PM UTC
I have so much faith in God. I love him. I know he loves me too because he has lead me to you. More than once.
God knows that every step you take I must be right beside you because otherwise, I might forget how to keep moving and stay still forever.
God knows that when you steadily make your chest rise and fall I must sync my lungs to yours so I don't forget how to breathe and stay breathless forever.
God knows that when you lift your perfect face to the sun I must lift my face alongside you so I will never forget to let the sun embrace me and keep me from spending my days in the dark forever.
I have so much faith in us. I love you. And I know you love me too because of the way you lead me into light. Every day.
Sep 3, 2019
Sep 3, 2019 at 10:18 PM UTC
I don't know why God gave me you to wrap yourself around me.
No one's embrace has ever been wide enough to cover the surface area of my pain.
No one's heart has been strong enough to carry around my guilt.
No one's eyes have been wise enough to see through my excuses.
Only you.
And for that, I thank God every day.
Mar 19, 2019
Mar 19, 2019 at 10:40 PM UTC
We are so far apart I swear to God there must be a giant crack across the entire universe
I'm on one side and you're on the other
You tried to throw me a rope but I was looking away
You thought it was because I couldn't stand the sight of you
But
I was lifting my eyes towards the heat of the sun to dry the tears in my eyes
Because darling, I accidentally kept the sun on my side
Mar 19, 2019
Mar 19, 2019 at 10:06 PM UTC
The shower is safe
Its quiet but just loud enough to muffle the scary thoughts, the ones that are loud. All the time.
Sometimes I wish I could slip down the drain.
I wish the water could melt my skin away and dissolve my bones. I wish it would leave me with a single eye and a singe ear.
The eye would enjoy the darkness that stretches all around
The ear would enjoy the thump of the water and the sound of nothing else
I wouldn't have to feel anything anymore. Because eyes and ears don't have souls.
Mar 19, 2019
Mar 19, 2019 at 9:20 PM UTC
Everybody deserves to fall in love.
No one deserves the aftermath.
Mar 14, 2019
Mar 14, 2019 at 11:47 PM UTC
Every time you kiss me...
A little air comes back into my lungs
A little bit of broken leaves my heart
A little bit of blood comes back to me
A little song returns to my head
The one about being just fine
Mar 14, 2019
Mar 14, 2019 at 11:46 PM UTC