I left you to heal my broken heart
To ease the pain you've created
To dry the tears you’ve caused
But, longing for you; I can't undo.
When I left you
I was hoping you could see
The beauty of you and me
The color of life we used to be.
Little did I know, that day will come
Now that I’m healed and relieved
Here you are on your knees,
Begging for me, asking another chance.
And yes, I was in awe;
Willing to do anything
That will make us one,
One more time.
And I couldn’t ask for more
The nirvana, I felt beneath your arms
The euphoria from your love and care
I am whole again.
The bliss that I thought would never end
But the stage of wearing masks has ended
Once again the love I have claimed
Tearing my heart into pieces over again
Before I was broken,
Right now I am shattered
And struggling to find my pieces.
But if ever I will be able to survive
I will never let you hurt me again.
I will never let love ruin myself once more.
Never that I will allow anybody wreck my life once again.
Never, never again.
Jun 23, 2016
Jun 23, 2016 at 5:28 AM UTC
How can you feel that you are being loved?
Is it with tears on your pillow every night?
Or is it with screaming bad dreams out of light?
Maybe when you felt an ache just like a stab in the middle of your heart.
How can I feel that I was being loved?
Was it during those times that I felt betrayed?
Was it whenever I felt lonely and alone?
Or maybe when I feel being ignored and taken for granted all along.
If all of those strange feelings we're called love,
If all of those anguish feelings considered as love,
If all of those hurtful things I endured was being loved,
Then I would refused to be loved, I would resist to be loved.
May 29, 2014
May 29, 2014 at 2:28 PM UTC
The guy picked a flower in the garden
He took it carefully into his nose
Inhaled, it deeply and smiled
I wish I was the flower
The photographer kneeled before the flower bed
Take a snap and another after another
He looks at the photos admirably
Adoring its colors, glorifying its beauty
I wish I was the flower
A lover bought a dozen of flowers
He caresses the bouquet carefully
Caring like it was a delicate glass
I wish I was the flower
Flowers in the vase
Day after day after days
The flowers turned old and ugly
The next thing I knew
Flowers were in the bin along with other waste
That's when I knew... I am the flower
May 28, 2014
May 28, 2014 at 6:59 AM UTC
Death is something we should not be afraid of;
Death is something we should not be angry at;
Even if it landed twice on the day that everyone should be rejoicing
Death has its own meaning and purpose just like everything in this world
Dear Lord; I never asked you for any material things
I only embrace with wide arms open whatever you are willing to give
I always thank you for keeping my family, friends and relatives safe and guided
I never wanted to gain any enemies, and if there is; I always asked you to forgive them and forgive me if I did any wrong
What I always do is to thank you for everything and everyone that happened in my life
I needed yesterday to give me a sign and guidance on the matter that I can’t still decide
But instead this is what happened; for the first time I can’t help but ask
What just happened, why you have to take them away at the same time?
What are your plans? Why burdens seem never stops? All I want is to understand.
May 28, 2014
May 28, 2014 at 6:52 AM UTC
When I woke up in the morning
I don’t see the sun rising from the east,
But I am happy, you are beside me
When the stars shines bright
I never saw the sun falls to west
Still, I am fulfilled that I lay beside you
But then I have noticed;
Whatever day might it be;
Grass is on their brightest green,
Flowers wear vibrant and loveliest color
Trees swinging and dancing
Birds keep on happy chirping
And when I turn to see you
I always see a glowing light behind you
Just like an angel smiling just for me
I see only bright and wonderful world
Since you came to me
I wonder what it looks like if you are not around
But Heaven forbid; I don’t want to know
Made me make a vow
To do anything
For you to keep me
For you to keep on loving me
I would do anything
To make my wonderful world last forever
In keeping my love with you
May 28, 2014
May 28, 2014 at 5:14 AM UTC