bernhard-tischler
Lived my childhood and youth in a town in the southern of austria before I went to our capital where I am living now since four years. I studied computer science and law science and worked as software developer, jurist and journalist, whereas the latter one I prefer most of all. People say I am giftet at writing emotional stuff which is also the reason why I registered here.
I know.
I should be happy for them.
After all they are my best friends and
they found each other.
They deserve each other, deserve someone good.
It's just that I want her.
So much.
I will miss the nightly chats with her,
because she won't have time anymore.
She didn't know it,
but talking with her saved me.
She filled the gaping hole
my former girlfriend left.
She fixed the broken mirror
which was my soul.
She is the reason
I got sane
again.
It hurts.
Why?
She never told she loved me anyway,
so why does it hurt?
How many days will it hurt, how many months?
My stomach crumbles, sun goes down.
I just want to sleep, sleep sweet
and dream that she chose me.
Apr 14, 2015
Apr 14, 2015 at 2:01 PM UTC
Leaving the harsh days behind,
their memories already being faded,
birds twittering all over the place,
regained peace at last.
My brain once full of things,
staying sharp now,
sleeping, working, playing,
my mind doesn't race anymore.
The sun warmth my mood,
my footsteps deep and strong,
no clouds darken the sky,
my dreams dance happily
in plain sight.
Apr 6, 2015
Apr 6, 2015 at 7:07 AM UTC
I once saw a little bird.
It was shy at first, when I approached.
Stepping back with every step I took,
I could see my wishes fade.
I tried the next day and the day after
but the result didn't change.
Neither I nor the bird seemed to understand
each other.
After awhile I stopped.
I sat down and just smiled at it.
And as the days went on and on
I stopped thinking.
*"You should have tried harder,
coming closer day by day"*, a friend said,
telling me I had given up in the middle,
leaving an opportunity, wasted.
Grateful for his advice I replied, that he was right.
I could have tried longer and could have pushed harder
and maybe one day I would have come closer
even close enough to catch this little guy.
"You se...", he wanted to say, when I interrupted him:
"... but you know", I calmly said, *"I just forgot about this bird,
because I had already found a friend to sit around and share
some beautiful moments together."*
Mar 26, 2015
Mar 26, 2015 at 3:58 AM UTC
Sometimes you have to say farewell
to find a new way
to continue
your
life
Dec 28, 2014
Dec 28, 2014 at 1:41 PM UTC
Again I'm sitting at my parent's home
nothing changed so far
putting the desk in front of me
and the furniture behind
like it was back in the old days.
I listen to the ticking of our pendulum clock,
bought by my grandfather and given to my dad
when he was around the age I am now,
while the rain keeps falling
like it was back in the old days.
Back in the old days
I dreamed of so many things
still full of wishes, heart at ease
like it only could have been by a child
watching the november rain.
Nov 5, 2014
Nov 5, 2014 at 7:06 AM UTC
I'm dreaming of a girl so far
she'll never touch my hand,
but still she manages to reside
and assure my heart is bent.
Cosmic fate, what is your grand plan,
what is the meaning of this test?
Leaving my heart dazzled and my mind dazed,
the result will still break my chest.
Let me give you this flower, my vicious vision
to smoothen your unsteady sight
given that I've fallen long ago
at least listen to my bittersweet plight.
Oct 9, 2014
Oct 9, 2014 at 3:40 AM UTC
Just felt my heart beating like crazy
as I got kissed by ecstasy
living right here right now
in the center of life.
every step an adventure
every path a story
every person a rainbow
every experience a chance
If you are invited to dance
then dance all night all day
never stop turning, never stop jumping
as life´s music never stops.
Oct 3, 2014
Oct 3, 2014 at 2:59 AM UTC
Former goals long before gone,
broken dreams,
hidden in secret behind friends views,
a life in vain.
Doubtless efforts fruitless taken,
countless beatings endured,
still seeking path to milk and honey,
wondering if it hasn´t already resigned.
Value meaningless,
reduced to sheer nothingness,
clouded vision,
not able to recognize it´s worth.
Neither happiness nor sadness,
behind it´s emotionless face,
killing time with dusty distractions
and waiting for something to happen,
that relightens a fire
well known in former days.
Oct 3, 2014
Oct 3, 2014 at 2:34 AM UTC
I am no doctor, no laywer, no architect
no teacher, no painter, no designer
no psychologist, no musician, no writer
I'm just a simple guy
trying to be famous
in an infamous world
where everytime everything is open for everyone
except me.
And I fear
I will be left back
while all others drive along their ways
they've found in their lives
and I wonder
if I couldn't be one of them
driving along a simple route
enjoying to view outside
glad that I am.
Sep 4, 2014
Sep 4, 2014 at 7:29 PM UTC
Step down a bit, my friend
*Leafs fall down the trees
colourful, shiny
withstanding drops
from rainy days.*
and join me in a moment
*I take a nip of my cup
wonderful shiny cup
brown and creamy companion, attached to a sugar island
joining me in my relaxing quest.*
of pureness, passion and
*A timeless moment
a striking time
hot and tasty heaven
shining through the cold*
perfection
Sep 3, 2014
Sep 3, 2014 at 11:52 AM UTC