something's diff'rent today.
i think i've got it pinned -
sun is gone, clouds are gray -
but i'm shining deep within.
there's some Place special
that's on my mind.
my heart's at threshold.
my fears are blind.
a Place within You -
A Shelter From The World -
can That be my place, too?
i'd skelter in Your Heart unfurled.
my daydreaming has been awakened -
wond'ring and pond'ring like a child.
the range of topics - slowly baking.
my heart - a sponge in Your Fountain Of Youth, wild.
don't You know, Darling -
just what You've done for me?
from a past life, i'm parting.
You've filled my hopes with glee.
i see You everywhere,
except the place that i want most.
the spot next to me lies bare.
this cot is where We're meant to post.
i'll see You soon with tears of joy in my eyes.
We'll spark each other's grins.
Together, We'll battle the world in stride.
i'm ready to be in love again.
Apr 27, 2024
Apr 27, 2024 at 6:10 PM UTC
can't shake this feeling,
feel like a schoolyard boy again,
unsure of the next step after simply liking you.
i've never felt a want like this.
how can i miss someone i don't even know?
felt nervous for the first time in seven years -
a heart attack away from never being able to love you.
i'll use less tonight if it means seeing you again.
waking from a nightmare into the dream of having you beside me.
i can keep the shades closed because i'll have all the sunshine i need.
i'll keep my heart open because all my love will wake.
what do i have to do to see you every daybreak?
men used to fight wars over women like you.
and i suppose i'd take to arms to hold you in mine.
a.i. generators couldn't better picture 'goddess'.
and maybe... just maybe...
they won't better picture 'love'.
Apr 10, 2024
Apr 10, 2024 at 12:56 AM UTC
we lie in each other's arms -
our only truth in the world.
you comb your hand through my hair...
you lie to me, saying, "everything will be alright,"
and i believe you every time.
i look forward to nothing more
than bear-hugging you low around your waist,
and you tracing the ridges of my back with your lips
while you death-grip my hand in yours.
we'll dine here and there and everywhere,
looking at each other like we're the only two people left in a world no longer cruel.
and you'll constantly remind me,"i am yours and you are mine."
and once again...
once again... everything will be fine.
Mar 25, 2024
Mar 25, 2024 at 12:33 PM UTC
parted, napsack full of fears.
again, where was 'begun'?
this labyrinth full of mirrors
has twisted all the fun.
i try again to find my way,
instead only i see myself:
a child - no games left to play
a bard - no tales left to tell.
if i scream, an echo's 'round.
nowhere are ears to lend,
wide'ning to my siren sound -
to me, my only friend.
so we grow old, sighed by side,
my voice strangled, wrung.
this carousel, the only ride.
there's nowhere left to run.
Mar 7, 2024
Mar 7, 2024 at 8:42 PM UTC
This coal I've held too long
Call it the siren's song
My palm grows stronger, calloused
My heart is filled with malice
'To err' is human
To forgive, divine'
To rage is too, then
Too porous, in time
All thoughts lead to violence
Stalled spots read it, silenced
Where does this energy go?
Faired, spuds of a moss that grows.
A virus that leads only in time,
Escaping only heeds of mine.
Oct 5, 2023
Oct 5, 2023 at 1:05 AM UTC
i'm lost again
trying to recover the pieces of myself
this room brings to remem'brance
i've tried to hide but i've only managed to pelt
all answers lead to nowhere
and i'm somehow worse-for-wear
the questions that got me here
perhaps, i never should have asked
these sides i show to no one
this nakedness - a sin
when there's nowhere left to run
these four walls swallow me within
Sep 29, 2023
Sep 29, 2023 at 10:40 PM UTC
i can't recall your portrait
but i'll never forget the feelings you inspired
my tornado shelter in the middle of the storm,
keeping me grounded while the sirens scream
my daily PRN for a diagnosis of loneliness,
easing the pressure of life's trials,
bubble-wrapping my heart and mind
my extra blanket in the depth of winter,
giving me warmth when the furnace died...
... died like our love did
May 31, 2023
May 31, 2023 at 1:50 AM UTC
melting, as all the parts of me
that make me human
die a slow and torturous death.
"no one is coming to save me."
and somehow,
that has to be okay.
Jan 26, 2022
Jan 26, 2022 at 4:53 PM UTC
my mental stability is whitewater rafting.
drifting along this everlasting
river of de ja vu, my sanity
crashes against the rocks,
splashing in strings and fragments
that i once called thoughts.
this ****** little beige boat of mine
wasn't built for travel like this.
Nov 27, 2021
Nov 27, 2021 at 12:40 AM UTC
i sledded down the slippery slope.
i shedded downs and tripped through my nose.
i netted frowns and flipped them, they rose.
regretted grounds and clipped them, awoke.
and then...
i'm...
blue like the pills that make me
rise from the dead.
hues gripe the deals that break the
highs from the dread.
flew, kite, the wheels had staked my
mind from my bed
and then...
i...
crash and burn like the Challenger,
thrash and turn like a gallon churned,
cash out, earn spikes my melon's slurred,
past loud, learn rites, i'm felling words
and now...
why...?
over. the fog has cleared.
the sky still grey, revered.
my mind is frayed. in tears
i lie awake. the fears
return to stay. my gears
all turn, in play. the years
won't burn, they'll pave what's near
and earn the brave. i'm clear.
i'm... sober. saved.
Oct 27, 2021
Oct 27, 2021 at 11:23 PM UTC