with a mere stretch of my fingers ive come to feel the loose threads dangling against our badly-tattered relationship. i was tempted to pull them out completely but i remembered, gosh. it was the only thing that tethered you safely enough to not fall from the bridges youve burnt.
so i'd let it be,; let it break away on its own.
Oct 20, 2018
Oct 20, 2018 at 3:03 PM UTC
i grew to love the sound of your footsteps coming towards me
but now
i'd rather hear them fade away.
Oct 20, 2018
Oct 20, 2018 at 2:49 PM UTC
i laid my eyes in the light
my irises burned as bright
shadows dance and swayed
the air still as it played
then slowly it turned to red
as tears in my eyes bled
down, it all started to blur
but the fire never seemed fainter
i'm a rose burning in the candle light
petals glowing so bright
scarlet as the flame devouring me
turning into browned ashes slowly...
May 30, 2016
May 30, 2016 at 10:15 AM UTC
I'm tossing and turning
In this ocean of hormones
Washing away the remnants of my childhood
Washing off my innocence;
Hitting me in the treacherous waves
And in the rocks and pebbles there
Drowning me in the depths of humanity
And soaking me in fresh knowledge everytime.
Sometimes I enjoy the ride ,
Other times I feel afraid
Oftentimes, I wonder
If this would ever end.
I don't even know why I'm going through this
I don't know if it'll help me with something
Perhaps later in life
I'd understand why this is all happening.
May 22, 2015
May 22, 2015 at 11:21 AM UTC
I think I'm strong enough
For getting on one more day
Without you.
No morning text messages
No silly conversations in the afternoon
No senseless quarrels in the evening
No sweet 'i love you's' in the midnight.
I think I'm hard enough
For surviving in three months
Without you.
No picture perfect memories in my mind
No feelings to feel
Just no life to live...
I think I'm strong enough
For living another life
Without you or your promises or your shadows
Just the heartache inside...
May 22, 2015
May 22, 2015 at 11:01 AM UTC
Head over heels
I'm dazed
To see your face
Once again.
An orchestra
Of loud heartbeats
Played the tune
Once again.
I felt uneasy
And terrified
I felt as if I want to
Come closer to you
Once again.
But I know I can't.
What we had has
Come and gone.
We're no longer
The couple we once were
Very much in love
Passionate and yearning.
But what can I do?
I still love you.
Or is this just the remains
Of what once was solid
And pure feelings?
I don't know.
Please teach me how to let go.
Please make me unlove you.
May 21, 2015
May 21, 2015 at 10:35 AM UTC
Pain.
Is like an arrow
Darting through your soul.
It brings all kinds of sorrow
And makes your heart feel hollow.
Pain.
It weakens your heart
And hardens it
It hinders you from loving again
But it would disappear just then.
Pain.
It's a lesson we learn
A price we truly deserve
True, it's horrible to feel
But it's ephemeral, and it reminds us
Hearts can truly heal.
May 18, 2015
May 18, 2015 at 11:19 AM UTC
As I lay in my bed tonight
I know you will appear in my sight
Standing still, I'll hold you close
From your head up to the tip of your toes.
Oh darling please tell me
That I'm your one and only
I'm all yours and I wanna make you mine
So please, please, just stay by my side.
Let me take you to the edge of my galaxy
Let me sway you around the clouds of my reverie
Let me sing to you my sweetest lullaby
And never let me kiss you goodbye.
Promise me you'll never let go
Never let our painful destiny show
Enchant me with the memories so sweet
Make my heart skip a beat.
Make me a part of your life
Even just for tonight
Just hold me close in this dream
And make life as beautiful as it seem.
I've got a tight grip on reality
But for you i'd rather stay in this fantasy
Coz know when I wake up tomorrow
I will go again through the day with this sorrow.
**So tonight, when I close my eyes
Please be there in the dazzling lights
Let me touch you again
And I'll just keep on dreaming
'Til this heartache ends**
May 18, 2015
May 18, 2015 at 11:04 AM UTC
These were things you would never remember
As these were the memories I would never forget.
May 15, 2015
May 15, 2015 at 6:14 AM UTC
We were alone
Just you and me
There in your room
We fell silent
As we felt the freedom
In ourselves.
Your stare was cold
And I felt puzzled
I tried to put together
The reasons why
I was there in the first place.
Just two weeks ago
In the night of our lives
We professed our feelings
For each other
The first time
I had cried for you
And the very first time
You shed tears for me too.
It was magical
So golden, almost unreal
In the middle of the crowd
We danced like we knew
Our lives would never
Ever be the same.
That was the first time
I had stepped out of my border
Where I ignored the cautions
And I fell for you.
The receding nights were
Bitter sweet,
The strings had worn out
And we exposed ourselves
To each other
You told me your secrets
And I told mine
Everyday we argued
About where we stand
And if this was really love
It was crazy because everytime
We'd apologize,
And then again
We would tell our love
So ardent and passionate
To each other.
It came too fast
And I felt dizzy in the
Roller coaster kind of rush
You made me feel
I was so overwhelmed
And so head over heels
That I felt unusually happy
With our secret relationship.
Our secret affair
That lead us here
In your own space
With our minds still confused
With our love burning bright;
Even we know for a fact that
What we had
would soon end.
'We would never make it'.
You said.
We're star-crossed
And everything in us
Would be tragic.
But we're young
And madly in love
We don't give a ****
The world is too insignificant
To come between us.
Fearless, I heaved closer
And you whispered
To my ear
'I love you
And I would marry you
Someday dear.'
Smiling, we stepped out
Of your door
And I had once again felt
That this would never
Happen once again
That was the last time
We had spent together
As lovers
And we would never
Ever be the same.
May 14, 2015
May 14, 2015 at 2:15 AM UTC