are not we all clouds
particles
pieces
droplets
atoms
together
but when we feel heavy
we
fall
-beckb 050116
May 3, 2016
May 3, 2016 at 1:26 AM UTC
i said
i wouldnt
but now
im afraid
its not
the aftermath
of the storm
its the fear
of straightening
the mindless mess
and finding
the last page
-beckb 042416
May 3, 2016
May 3, 2016 at 1:25 AM UTC
words
never easy
to say
always easy
to write
until now
words
never limited
to feelings
always spreading
to thoughts
until now
words
never ending
flowing seemlessly
always leading
to mindlessness
until now
now words
now they never
now to you
now they always
now I can't
now
words
never seeming
to fit together
always missing
what I want to say
now
-beckb 041816
Apr 19, 2016
Apr 19, 2016 at 12:35 AM UTC
crawling pain
seeping pain
numbing pain
consuming pain
stabbing pain
constant pain
throbbing pain
flickering pain
scalding pain
terrifying pain
piercing pain
stinging pain
exhausting pain
tearing pain
nauseating pain
quivering pain
shaking pain
tingling pain
sickening pain
agonizing pain
cramping pain
pinching pain
gnawing pain
pulsing pain
drilling pain
gut-wrenching pain
splitting pain
crushing pain
searing pain
excruciating pain
suffocating pain
ive felt
all of it
but
none of it
prepared me
for the pain
of losing
you
-beckb 012616
Jan 26, 2016
Jan 26, 2016 at 1:30 AM UTC
sometimes i wonder
why we spent
hours
too many it seems
talking,
wishing
but never
once realizing
that it
was not reality
sometimes i wonder
why i spend
hours
too many it seems
dreaming,
thinking
but never
once accepting
that we
werent meant to be
sometimes i wonder
why you spend
hours
too many it seems
saving
others
but never
once thought
that we
needed saving too
sometimes i wonder
why i still spend
hours
too many it seems
wishing
for you
but never
once praying
that we
would end up
together
-beckb 012616
Jan 26, 2016
Jan 26, 2016 at 1:14 AM UTC
this feeling
its like
all the tragedies
in my life
were stopped
with one moment
but it was more
than just
a moment
it was simply
healing
but at the same time
my mind is racing
with thoughts of
what now..?
this feeling
its like
all the pieces
in my mind
were mended
with one hug
but it was more
than just
a hug
it was simply
healing
but at the same time
my mind is racing
with thoughts of
what now..?
this feeling
its like
all the cracks
in my heart
were sealed
with one kiss
but it was more
than just
a kiss
it was simply
healing
but at the same time
my mind is racing
with thoughts of
what now..?
this feeling
its like
all the holes
in my life
were filled
with one love
but it was more
than just
one love
it was simply
healing
but at the same time
my mind is racing
with thoughts of
what now..?
-beckb 122915
Jan 3, 2016
Jan 3, 2016 at 3:09 AM UTC
humans
just pieces
put together
some say
masterpieces
some say
mistakes
to others
i say
youre
masterpieces
to me
myself
and i
youre just
a mistake
its like
jacks sally
a spool
of thread
carried
pocketed
it stitches
the pieces
back
together
but sometimes
i wonder
did she
always
bring her
thread
or did
she sometimes
"forget"
and leave
without what
mends
the broken
maybe
she realizes
im meant
to be
broken
today i
wont
let them
sew me
back
together
maybe
today
i want
to feel
myself
the way
i was
made
to feel
broken
made from
pieces
from different
puzzles
cut
in different
shapes
but somehow
pieced together
nowhere
near
perfect
i am human afterall
humans
just pieces
put together
some say
masterpieces
some say
mistakes
-beckb 110715
Nov 7, 2015
Nov 7, 2015 at 11:04 PM UTC
will the day happen
or will it quietly pass by
a spider
to most
disguised below darkness
to the corner it hides
yet when it gets seen
catastrophes
monstrosities
caught in the light
and no longer hid
from all of their minds
who so long ago
decided
spiders
were creatures to fear
like the day
that now crawls
not in darkness
but in fearful trembling
light
-beckb 081815
Aug 18, 2015
Aug 18, 2015 at 10:25 PM UTC
its like watching a star
never falling
but stuck in one place
eventually the watcher
moves on
to the next star
a star that
actually falls
-beckb 081615
Aug 17, 2015
Aug 17, 2015 at 12:16 PM UTC
fear.
i guess its just the realization.
its not truly a fear.
but more of a sadness.
a melancholy feeling.
knowing.
that they wont be there.
as you walk down the aisle.
across the stage.
the day youve been working for your entire life.
and now.
the examples of working hard.
they wont be there.
to see the work.
the dedication.
the blood.
the sweat.
the tears.
that went into getting there.
the dream.
it wont happen.
youll graduate.
without them seeing.
youll graduate.
and theyll know.
but theyll be missing in pictures.
-beckb 081615
Aug 17, 2015
Aug 17, 2015 at 12:15 PM UTC