becca-addams - Hello Poetry

How often do you pull yourself up by the bootstraps? He kisses you lovingly, promising another day Endless false hope with only a bitter end I wish I could say we're the lucky one's But those at the bottom of the barrel at least don't have anything to lose The void continues its demand for sacrifice The unfortunate writhing in the pleasure of government fortune The rest of us a slave to society Endless hopelessness Meaninglessness Prayers and effort is what they tell us wins the game All done in blindness No relief No pity No reward Never heard The loneliness has never been so loud As he yanks the chain pulling me farther and farther under I knock and no one is there to answer

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Jun 12, 2024

Jun 12, 2024 at 1:17 AM UTC

Bootstraps

How often do you pull yourself up by the bootstraps? He kisses you lovingly, promising another day Endless false hope with only a bitter end I wish I could say we're the lucky one's But those at the bottom of the barrel at least don't have anything to lose The void continues its demand for sacrifice The unfortunate writhing in the pleasure of government fortune The rest of us a slave to society Endless hopelessness Meaninglessness Prayers and effort is what they tell us wins the game All done in blindness No relief No pity No reward Never heard The loneliness has never been so loud As he yanks the chain pulling me farther and farther under I knock and no one is there to answer

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Dreary and fragrant Freshness of the morning dew Periwinkle blossoms And everything anew Mystical fairies Lacing petals A delicate morning frost Hushing as it settles Quiet and soft Like a midnight mouse Dancing the Nutcracker All nestled in a warm house Ever so slightly The sun makes its way Gentle warmth A dazzling sparkly display Children waken As bright as they say Coffee brewing What another fine day

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Jan 5, 2023

Jan 5, 2023 at 12:24 AM UTC

Frost Fairies

Dreary and fragrant Freshness of the morning dew Periwinkle blossoms And everything anew Mystical fairies Lacing petals A delicate morning frost Hushing as it settles Quiet and soft Like a midnight mouse Dancing the Nutcracker All nestled in a warm house Ever so slightly The sun makes its way Gentle warmth A dazzling sparkly display Children waken As bright as they say Coffee brewing What another fine day

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I sit here alone My thoughts provoked Sinister guiles Plotting my end Tempt me no more please End this cycle Thoughts renounced Disappointment announced Calling for anguish and despair No more I beg But chains I cannot shed Tears fall Blood boils Incompatible but none to blame Worthy is question Doubt is present Resolution implausible

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Jun 28, 2021

Jun 28, 2021 at 10:04 PM UTC

Resolution Implausible

I sit here alone My thoughts provoked Sinister guiles Plotting my end Tempt me no more please End this cycle Thoughts renounced Disappointment announced Calling for anguish and despair No more I beg But chains I cannot shed Tears fall Blood boils Incompatible but none to blame Worthy is question Doubt is present Resolution implausible

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A universe shattered Long ago But bits and pieces still remain Leaving scars Memories unforgotten Twisted nightmares Unbearable weight on my shoulders The logic states otherwise But my mind... a black hole It's been years Why does it still hurt? Why does it still matter? Why do I care? It's done, unfixable The ground beneath my feat Unsteady Alone in the darkness The memories linger Preying on the insomniac Who cares too much Wishing to go back Hoping to amend Knowing I've been wronged But still believe I am to blame

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Feb 4, 2021

Feb 4, 2021 at 3:27 AM UTC

Broken and Unfixable

A universe shattered Long ago But bits and pieces still remain Leaving scars Memories unforgotten Twisted nightmares Unbearable weight on my shoulders The logic states otherwise But my mind... a black hole It's been years Why does it still hurt? Why does it still matter? Why do I care? It's done, unfixable The ground beneath my feat Unsteady Alone in the darkness The memories linger Preying on the insomniac Who cares too much Wishing to go back Hoping to amend Knowing I've been wronged But still believe I am to blame

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Sleepless nights Anxious ghosts Whispering their painful thoughts No one here I'm all alone Bait to the inner monster

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Dec 22, 2020

Dec 22, 2020 at 3:50 AM UTC

Insomnia

Sleepless nights Anxious ghosts Whispering their painful thoughts No one here I'm all alone Bait to the inner monster

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You are what you are. You will never have More than what you already have. Things taken will never return. What's left will not remain. When all is lost You are stuck... [...love... ...affection... ...trusting people... ...trusting yourself... ...loving yourself... ...loving others... ...warmth... ...happiness... ...good health... Jump and you may reach! "You deserve it!"] in the endless pit with yourself.

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Dec 21, 2020

Dec 21, 2020 at 7:38 PM UTC

Reach for the stars

You are what you are. You will never have More than what you already have. Things taken will never return. What's left will not remain. When all is lost You are stuck... [...love... ...affection... ...trusting people... ...trusting yourself... ...loving yourself... ...loving others... ...warmth... ...happiness... ...good health... Jump and you may reach! "You deserve it!"] in the endless pit with yourself.

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I want you to hold me tight and show me how much you care But I don't want you to see me My wretched disabled soul does not seek your pity What am I even here for? To be a slave? To be used for your happiness and pleasure? I am consumed with grief knowing I'll never have the love I need And the only one who is willing, never quite gives enough I'm a void and no matter how much you give me, It will never be enough to heal my eternal wounds that you gave me I know why you neglect me, I know why you hate me I understand now, but I am not sorry I am who I am and I cannot change that I won't ever be the person you hoped me to be I won't ever be good enough I won't ever be anything... So just leave me be... Depleted and alone... I just don't care anymore.

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Apr 29, 2017

Apr 29, 2017 at 11:34 PM UTC

Empty Hearted Once Again

I want you to hold me tight and show me how much you care But I don't want you to see me My wretched disabled soul does not seek your pity What am I even here for? To be a slave? To be used for your happiness and pleasure? I am consumed with grief knowing I'll never have the love I need And the only one who is willing, never quite gives enough I'm a void and no matter how much you give me, It will never be enough to heal my eternal wounds that you gave me I know why you neglect me, I know why you hate me I understand now, but I am not sorry I am who I am and I cannot change that I won't ever be the person you hoped me to be I won't ever be good enough I won't ever be anything... So just leave me be... Depleted and alone... I just don't care anymore.

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You're a joke A remnant of a marriage Bound for devastation You are just a ******* A waste of rotting flesh Never meant to see the light of day You will never live You will never be a part of my family You're dead to me Long lost in this horrid monstrosity You'll never see my children They'll never know your love For you are nothing to me Just a joke An overly emotional brat Manipulating people into believing your "pain" You'll never know what I had to go through To get away from you Don't blame me for your misery Of missing me You've known all along I've hated you and still do

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Feb 4, 2017

Feb 4, 2017 at 3:24 PM UTC

My Sister's "Kind" Words to Me

You're a joke A remnant of a marriage Bound for devastation You are just a ******* A waste of rotting flesh Never meant to see the light of day You will never live You will never be a part of my family You're dead to me Long lost in this horrid monstrosity You'll never see my children They'll never know your love For you are nothing to me Just a joke An overly emotional brat Manipulating people into believing your "pain" You'll never know what I had to go through To get away from you Don't blame me for your misery Of missing me You've known all along I've hated you and still do

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Change your way of thinking Just be happy Choose to think happy thoughts Take care of yourself It's not so easy I can't will myself into a better life I don't choose to relive these nightmares The darkness is a vortex of never ending pain Don't be so negative Do things that make you happy Don't re-traumatize yourself Find comfort in friends I can't find happiness I see things through a permanent lens My inability to trust And my self-hatred; I despise all the lies Trust in people Let yourself heal Take things one step at a time Things will get better I've been hurt too many times There is no healing; there is no way out How many more years of suffering Until I can prove to you it will never get better? You don't listen I'm tired of trying to help You will forever be alone with your pain Goodbye.

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Feb 4, 2017

Feb 4, 2017 at 3:07 PM UTC

Numb the Pain with Your Happy Pills

Change your way of thinking Just be happy Choose to think happy thoughts Take care of yourself It's not so easy I can't will myself into a better life I don't choose to relive these nightmares The darkness is a vortex of never ending pain Don't be so negative Do things that make you happy Don't re-traumatize yourself Find comfort in friends I can't find happiness I see things through a permanent lens My inability to trust And my self-hatred; I despise all the lies Trust in people Let yourself heal Take things one step at a time Things will get better I've been hurt too many times There is no healing; there is no way out How many more years of suffering Until I can prove to you it will never get better? You don't listen I'm tired of trying to help You will forever be alone with your pain Goodbye.

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When you try so hard To get it right To appease what they want And not start a fight But you can't go on Or let things go Because you care too much And you feel so low What can you do? Listen and take it all in? Or cry it all out And commit your sin?

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Dec 1, 2016

Dec 1, 2016 at 8:52 PM UTC

Stuck in the outside realm

When you try so hard To get it right To appease what they want And not start a fight But you can't go on Or let things go Because you care too much And you feel so low What can you do? Listen and take it all in? Or cry it all out And commit your sin?

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