i've been listening to the same sad songs on repeat
& they're plunging me deeper into the abyss.
yes, i know only i can save me
but maybe i don't wanna be saved...
anymore.
maybe i just want to burn,
to burn in this abyss i now call home.
Dec 16, 2015
Dec 16, 2015 at 1:16 PM UTC
they'll ignore your pain while you're alive.
but come to your grave with bouquets of flowers when you're dead.
Nov 27, 2015
Nov 27, 2015 at 2:38 PM UTC
don't fall for me,
i'm a mess.
i'm going to drag you into my mess.
i told him...
but he didn't listen.
& now he's broken & wondering how it happened.
but didn't your mother warn you,
not to fall for girls with fiery hearts?
because everything we touch burns.
now you're burning,
& all i can do is watch.
Nov 15, 2015
Nov 15, 2015 at 7:45 AM UTC
"they always leave.
they always leave.
they always leave.
they always leave.
they always leave."
i said to myself over & over again...
so that when you eventually leave, i'm not as hurt.
Oct 30, 2015
Oct 30, 2015 at 11:49 AM UTC
i'm so tired
of people using me to
v a l i d a t e
their existence.
Oct 30, 2015
Oct 30, 2015 at 11:48 AM UTC
i feel like i'm searching for him in every guy i speak to.
but they never measure up.
conversations with other people just seem so dull & boring...
i wonder if he feels the same?
i doubt he feels the same.
Oct 25, 2015
Oct 25, 2015 at 8:49 PM UTC
it's your fault things ended up the way they did.
you could've kept it real from the jump...
neither of us would've invested emotions where we shouldn't have.
& now you have me running around in circles, confused.
wanting me to still pine over you
when you know **** well it's been a while since i was through.
you want me, then you don't.
you wanna be my friend, then you want more than friendship.
when you're the one that sold me dreams of a relationship.
i said it's your fault things ended up the way they did.
steady searching for a man but instead i fell for a kid.
Oct 25, 2015
Oct 25, 2015 at 8:43 PM UTC
looking at your pictures..
all i feel is a deep sense of disappointment.
it could've been you.
**** it, it should've been you.
but you didn't want it to be you.
& so i'll let go of the expectations
& all the hopes i had of us being together
as i press "DELETE"
& get rid of all the pictures i have of you.
Oct 15, 2015
Oct 15, 2015 at 2:10 PM UTC
dear young girl:
REMEMBER — you have lived perfectly before him & you will continue to do so when he's no longer around.
Oct 9, 2015
Oct 9, 2015 at 1:38 PM UTC
"you give too much. you're a good person, really. but you give too much. you never want others to feel as alone or as unimportant as you do, so you give & give & give so they can feel good. but in the process, you're only teaching them that you aren't worthy to receive. you're giving & giving & giving & hardly ever giving yourself a chance to receive. so people get used to that. people get used to you giving so much that they feel like they don't even have to try anymore. i know all you know how to do is give... you give without expecting anything in return except genuine appreciation. but then you get sad when you realise giving so much has left you feeling empty because you've given so much to others that you have nothing left to give to yourself. you give too much... there is such a thing as giving too much. continue giving, but realise that there's limits to how much you can give others. stop giving to the point where you feel used, unappreciated & empty. give freely... but there are limits in that giving. you give too much... i think that it's time you gave to yourself."
— dear self, stop giving so much.
Oct 7, 2015
Oct 7, 2015 at 1:31 PM UTC