bas-aeon
I am the master of my own / No one is my friend / Someone is my lover / Everyone is my inspiration / Somebody is my reasons / Somewhere is where i live / God is my Saviour / Remember me / My heart is free of charge / My mind will cost you / Care to know me / You are welcome
My brightest light Louie,
I may not be the best version of me
However
i am on my way to becoming a better person
you taught me a lot of things
you may never know
your soul imprinted
you are my shadow
My sun, my hope and my light.
you let me be reborn again
finding the right path
you made me learn to feel the word jealous
jealous of everything
nature that sorrounds you
people that made you who you are now
things that made and makes you giggles
The warmth and glow you spread to your sorroundings.
The echoes of your voice that send thousandfold of melody to everyone’s heart.
we drifted so much
i lost the battle
but my connection to your memories
still intact
it seeps to my core
i am winning the rage of seas and darkness
i finally found the contenment of light
it shown me the real figure of hardship
the true meaning of faith and serendipity
The symbol of love that envelopes the human capacity
i have gained true friendship and learnt new hobbies
im continously improving my personality and character
im pursuing the passion of my heart what God has offered me
i learnt to be more mindful and responsible human being
Waiting made me more resilient
Patience brought me a lot of good vibes
God embraced me for who i am
And recieved comfort and plenty of positive vibrants
until the day im brave enough to stand infront of you
i will be better
i will be full of life
So you will be proud of me
even though i’m nothing to you.
i thought love was undesirable weakness
a cancer that grows inside me.
Made me vulnerable and brought abomination
as darkness and loneliness reeks to my soul
A depriviation of human development
as gravity of negativity pulls me down
But then
I finally understood the meaning of true love
Love filled my life with joy and peace.
Happiness, hope, contentment and serenity
Even though it fail me
Love became my strenght
Because love is what binds people
It builds a character to pursue and become better
To accept what was and what is and what ifs
To fight and battle within yourself
To know and to seek
To gain more clarity when whirlwind strikes
Above all
To recieve abundant, plentiful grace and forgiveness
From the one and only powerful, merciful, kind and loving Almighty God
He is the reason why i am living
He is the core of my existence
He blessed me with all things that sorrounds me
He gives me hope
He provides me food and shelter
He lead me to where i should be
He let me feel all the emotions that i must need
He is generous for allowing me to learn what was/is right and wrong
He forgave me and will always forgive.
He healed me and will continue to heal my soul.
My human being
He taught me a lot of things in this world
And for that i am lucky
That he let me experienced all the troubles and beauty from the past.
I may not know what the future and his plan for me
i am happy that he led me to you
To know you
To need you
To love you
To experience your warmth
Thats why thank you Louie for the love, hope, my light, my sun, guidance, patience and care you had brought to me
Coz if not
And it never happened
until now for sure
I will still be looking for your version
My dearest louie that brought so much ripples in my life.
I am forever grateful to you and to God.
These are all perfectly reasons why i love you to the fullest.
Thank you for being a blessing to me.
I pray to God to protect your world and guide you through tough times.
To bless and empowered you.
To let you know that you are enough to him because you are more than special to him.
To contionously shower you with grace, protection and so much love.
Grateful with so much love,
Tres20
Sep 14, 2018
Sep 14, 2018 at 7:55 AM UTC
Leaving you behind unwillingly.
I wanted to run back, but i chose not to.
Our relationship was very complicated.
I have to let go of you but i’m still missing you.
The seasons kept changing but we were still together.
I didn’t realize your existence.
But you saw me.
But you never confessed to me.
This was why we were just friends.
But, our hearts were close to each other.
The time was passing too fast,
And i missed my chance to confess to you.
My love for you has made me forget what my dream is about.
Although my dream has set up us apart
You will always be in my heart.
This is a secret deep in my heart.
Jul 19, 2018
Jul 19, 2018 at 6:43 AM UTC
you left a mark
and
i wear it proudly on my chest.
to remind me
that i feel best
when
i’m with you
-Tres20-
Apr 19, 2018
Apr 19, 2018 at 12:16 PM UTC
i loved her everyday
and
yet
she ignored me
and
stop talking to me.
seconds turned minutes
minutes turned to hours
hours turned to days
and
days turned to months
i havent heard her for years.
not even a
GOODBYE!
- Tres20 -
Apr 19, 2018
Apr 19, 2018 at 11:52 AM UTC
struggle to reach the destination
talking to the shadow
from the reflection of the rays of sun
energy is dropping
gasping for air
craving for echoes
crumbling piece by piece
until
ash is all remain
- Tres20 -
Apr 19, 2018
Apr 19, 2018 at 11:40 AM UTC
I'm not walking away. I know there are lots of things we needed to fix, to consider our priorities. I am what i am and i thank you for choosing and loving me the best of you can. Thank you for not giving up on me yet.
I can still hold on to your promises. Years from now, you will always be the person i want to spend my life with. Just hold on. Hold on tight.
The storm will come our way, the temptation will break us apart but i will not falter. I will stay and love you. I will be there when you need me.
Babe, give me reasons not to look away towards your direction.
Understand my flaws and insecurities.
Scatter your rays of sun to my lonely heart that soon will consume with shadows of doubts and jealousy.
Reach for my shivering hand.
The warmth of your soft touch will lead me back to you again.
I can forgive you if you let me show you my trust again.
I can accept all your worries and hatred.
I can accept your overflowing love you once had to me.
I can love you endlessly babe.
Why?
Why did we end up strangers?
Why did you give up on us?
Why did you turn your pages so fast and erase me on every chapter of your story.
Why?
Babe, when you feel like trying again.
Reach for my hand
I will take you back with me wholeheartedly.
Full of love and sincerity.
Just don't leave me hanging.
Don't leave me with a big question mark on my heart.
Don't let me hate myself for not being good enough to you.
Please do not send me to the darkness.
Let your light shine on me.
Mar 29, 2017
Mar 29, 2017 at 11:17 AM UTC
The cord represent the flow of time itself.
I wear it sometimes as kind of lucky charm.
Who was it who gave me?
The thread twist, tangle, unravel
And connect again.
If time can really turned back.
Give me one last chance.
Lets be together again.
Nov 17, 2016
Nov 17, 2016 at 12:45 PM UTC
How i wish our words travel.
Till the edge of the world.
Without vanishing.
Then what will those words be?
To make promises that won't fade.
Let's say it on the count of three.
Your wish may come true to some degrees.
I no longer cannot see the eyes of this.
Since when and why?
I don't know.
Where the point rain starts and ends.
Where the rainbow begins and ends.
Place where my life fades.
I've always believe that
There's something i've been chasing.
One day we'll go.
Where all living creatures have never been.
Unprecedented, unexplored sentiments.
Double
Triple
Fourth
Fifth dimension stops me but i still see you.
I want to meet you.
Chase your name.
Imprint your image to my head
The thin red line that connects us
Will find its way to cross our path.
Nov 17, 2016
Nov 17, 2016 at 12:22 PM UTC
Will it be possible if heart is Circle?!.
Does it change when love found.
Will it grow bigger when hearbeats fast.
Or shrink when love lost.
My past leaves remnant of your beauty.
Beauty that reflects my soul.
The stains remain, pure black and white.
Reminds me of you.
Nov 16, 2016
Nov 16, 2016 at 3:32 PM UTC
I can no longer write a story.
I can't write it anymore.
Then you write.
That's the only way you can keep the story perfect.
Nov 16, 2016
Nov 16, 2016 at 3:15 PM UTC