She met me at the bar,
My bar, on Broadway
Her hair was up, her makeup done
She smiled sweetly like she always does
I didn't tell her what I had done
She was too busy telling me
That she's moving to new York
Part of me felt like
She was giving me a chance
To ask her to stay
Part of me felt like
I needed to take a chance
And ask her to stay
She sounded so pleased
As if this was a piece of her puzzle
So I faked my excitement
Wished her and her girl well
Pushed away the feeling
That when she left, it was over
So maybe I'll do what I do best
Right before she goes
Lay this to rest, confess
That I can't stay in touch
I love her too much
Right before she goes
I'll be gone
Aug 21, 2021
Aug 21, 2021 at 9:55 PM UTC
When you're sitting next to me
With those glossy brown eyes
Speaking absolute gibberish into my ear
I just want to grab you by your soft little hands
And kiss your incomprehensible mouth
So I can tell you to shut the **** up
Jul 15, 2021
Jul 15, 2021 at 3:54 AM UTC
I was walking out of the Quaff, roommate by my side
Heading up Broadway to my poorly parked car
And you came running out after me, yelling "John, John wait!"
And I told you earlier, you shouldn't call me that
Just because you can't remember my name
But you couldn't help yourself, I think
A group of drunk kids on scooters are racing past us
I'm looking at you while you look through me
And John, actual John is glancing from you to me to you to the street
You look like you might kiss me
And John looks like he doesn't want to see it
So I remind you that you meant to head home hours ago
And you laugh and say you just might
And a drunk woman is calling your name
And your eyes are glossy and far away
And part of me wants you to
And the rest of me just says "I'll see you tomorrow night"
And we go our separate ways
And I worry about you all night
Jul 9, 2021
Jul 9, 2021 at 3:03 AM UTC
I shouted to the world that I loved you like a fool
But I could never confess I was speaking to you
Tried for so long to hate you
Like if I focused on your flaws, I could pick you apart
Into something I would have no choice
But to love a little less
The truth is that sitting out here next to you
On the curb outside my work
My hands ache to touch you, my lips to kiss you
It's selfish and it's miserable and I wish
I didn't yearn to confess to you
That I've been tormented by the ways
I've fallen in love with you
You're telling me how when you graduate college
You plan to marry her, you plan to adopt with her
And you're asking if I'll be slutty at the wedding
And I can almost hear you ask me to be your maid of honor
My honor to stand next to the woman I love
As she says her vows to the woman she loves
Before you go you're handing me
Your little blue cassette player, and my tape is still in it
And my voice breaks when I remind you to keep your ear phones
Because I've got a set of my own
And my voice breaks when I say I love you, too, I'll see you later
And my heart is shattered at our feet
But I found the route to smile back at you
As Im walking away, still thinking of our place
Where you used to sleep in my bed, used to make my coffee exactly right
And I was the coward who never made a move
When I know you wanted me to
Jul 7, 2021
Jul 7, 2021 at 1:22 AM UTC
I.
she is quenchable
aching but yearns
to be held
to be fed
to be told
just come to bed
II.
peach crumb cake on the counter
she takes her time
consumes with limits
she feasts
tenderly
modestly
III.
i missed your voice
and i shouldn't say that
not to you
stupid
incomprehensible
intolerable
i think of your lips on mine
over and over all night
and my insides are
soft
squishy
intolerable
IV.
love is made here
in the sunlight in the kitchen
if she would not step foot here
it must not be her
V.
in the laundry room
she is his four paws and tiny nose
poking under the door
she is asking
"what u up 2?"
she is tails that wag and eyes wide
she is racing down the hallway
to the back door
back to the kitchen
VI.
he said he doesn't love her anymore
doesn't feel anything for her anymore
but his eyes glance through the neighborhood
towards her home, their home
his words always find their way back to her
VII.
she is patiently waiting at the front door
chilled wine and fruit
she already drew you a bath
there's rose petals in the water
there's candles across the floor
she doesn't ask to join
she just wishes you her best
tells you to relax and take your time
she is still just a concept
but she is warm and light and beautiful
she is always welcome here
VIII.
lukewarm coffee in the press
you silently watch me grab the ***
then tell me to turn around
you already made coffee this morning
and you tell me it's delicious
simply wonderful
and i am sipping it
on the front porch
it tastes like love used to live here
Jul 6, 2021
Jul 6, 2021 at 2:59 PM UTC
You loved me until the star dust
Spilled from my body onto the floor
And the galaxies spinning inside of me
Crashed out of control
Nov 16, 2015
Nov 16, 2015 at 12:15 AM UTC
I said your name
When he was on top of me
Inside of me
His breath on my neck
Fingers tugging at my hair
His chest heaving against my back
The creaking
Of his bed
Kept him from hearing
Nov 11, 2015
Nov 11, 2015 at 11:36 PM UTC
My hair is getting longer,
softer, thicker
Days are growing longer,
warmer, greener
Time is moving slowly
As I'm slowly
falling out of love
with you
Apr 7, 2015
Apr 7, 2015 at 12:00 PM UTC
I saw you
walking with her
and I
choked because
I think that I
am in love
with you
and you
are in love
with her
and she
could not
care less
Mar 13, 2015
Mar 13, 2015 at 10:00 AM UTC
The phone
In your hand
And your inability
To look me in the eyes
Is telling me
That your love for me
Is slipping
Jan 27, 2015
Jan 27, 2015 at 9:20 PM UTC