Have I gone and died
or lost my heart
in the sea of pities?
Have I a reason to go
further than I find
to be lively and typical?
Have the birds ever flown
in such a way as if to crash
so damaged wings may rest?
Have we any healthy lungs
that still breathe voluntarily
despite their fixed routine?
3d ago
Jun 1, 2026 at 1:05 PM UTC
my head aches; perhaps I should sleep
or eat, beyond that of the smaller scraps
which I allow myself, I contemplate-
who is telling me I have to wait?
apprehension, for an unknown purpose
there is so much out in the big world
everything I have yet to be told, still,
we could do it, and are not confined
by the circumstances of your upbringing
life is grand, and large to looming
I may be frustrated and full of hatred
but avoidance is possible
so maybe peace is as well
4d ago
May 31, 2026 at 3:12 PM UTC
the context of a lie often dictates its entire existence
or does it?
does it matter why we say things, or how?
are there really exceptions
for bad behavior
and if there are, then is anything really
always bad?
May 12
May 12, 2026 at 5:20 PM UTC
he wants to come visit
come visit? I say
yes
when? (I am hesitant)
at the end of May
okay...
what's wrong? you don't want him to come?
it's just that... he scares me (and I start to cry)
I can understand that
I don't really know why, he just-
I don't like being around him either
he's never done anything to me
well that's good
and I don't mean to be mean, but the things he has done
are forever
etched into my understanding; how do I say
that I don't want to see him?
Apr 27
Apr 27, 2026 at 11:31 PM UTC
is pick up a chair and
slam it through the window
then the diving board
becomes available
veer off the road just
a little bit, when no
other drivers are
rushing by
mix the chemicals when
I'm cleaning the bathroom
and shut the vents
till the air disappears
take apart my razor and
cut off all the things
that really bother me more
than I'd like to admit
make sure that the rod
for the shower curtain
is ******* in tight enough
to hold my weight
say yes when my father
asks if I want to go shoot
out at the range way back
past the old dirt road
but I won't
I won't I won't I won't
I can't
I wouldn't dare
harm my worst enemy
Apr 23
Apr 23, 2026 at 8:59 AM UTC
it's cold, frozen mud takes their footprints
sun sets or rises in the distance
those without limbs walk to the edge
any who have them are scared half to death
a brother is gone, a sister is beaten
children eat anything they can sneak in
sleeping's so tiring, when will it end
going home isn't so lovely again
because hardly any will, you know
their tracks start fading when falls the snow
freezing, starving, screaming and bleeding
women are taken for torture and breeding
I'd like to applaud the leaders of nations
and what pleasant wars you're deploying;
good gracious.
Apr 22
Apr 22, 2026 at 10:31 PM UTC
the bell tolls
oh my; what a
big and scary world
I don't know much
and no one will tell me
definitively, what to do
with the feelings I feel
after all, is everyone not
just a child, but in the body
of responsibility?
I am
Apr 22
Apr 22, 2026 at 8:50 PM UTC
Who am I kidding?
I know it's just me.
It always has been and
always will be,
and yet,
I wish to understand
I want a new feeling
When is it my turn
to be a human being?
Why is it always the end
before I even begin
I shouldn't complain;
aware of my sins,
but please, I don't even
know if you're there
still, oh God on high,
send some way to tell me
really
who am I?
Apr 19
Apr 19, 2026 at 10:54 PM UTC
I've yet to open the door
sweat curls down my skin
I consider leaving
the other
side of the coin looks so
different
not better
but a change
so I open up that place
and I am met with myself
in other words
I have found
once again
disappointment
Apr 19
Apr 19, 2026 at 10:40 PM UTC
when I hear noises downstairs
I always assume the worst
and I am surprised when
I travel down the steps,
only to find that my
mother has not
been crying
the tv is
just on
and all
is well
but
feels
so
wrong
Apr 12
Apr 12, 2026 at 11:17 PM UTC