to exist - to not - I know not of your nevermore poetic-eyesore,
(Do we always give in-or-give-up?)
I won’t be coming home this dark December,
but,
during the daylight I will keep your memory warm forevermore.
I hate the city we were raised in
I only can accept bleak new daring beginnings
I am not the soldier you think I am
So once again I shall pick up this digital pen
Back and forth just like,
a broken pendulum.
tick-tock tick-tock
blank screen as I type,
Looking for the right,
Rhyme to reuse again.
space and time is the only thing to come between just us …
Jan 6
Jan 6, 2026 at 11:34 PM UTC
you were so content keeping to yourself crying in the corner
Filling the empty space
With silent symphonies
Of sorrow and solace
A solo profromace
In this theater of solitude
~
Epilog.
__________________________________________
father was downstairs trying to get the power back
mom was in the attic getting high off of alcohol
brothers in their rooms addicted to
P o r no graphy.
Me? Planning to **** myself silently in this
Theater
Of
Solitude
May 28, 2024
May 28, 2024 at 12:02 AM UTC
Addicted to You
I have a terrible addiction to gambling with your love
The stakes are high, the risk so sweet
Every bet I place, I long to win your heart
But with every loss, I feel another tear start
The thrill of the game, the rush of hope
Keeps me coming back, unable to cope
I'm locked in this cycle, a prisoner of desire
Addicted to you, my burning, consuming Crimson fire
May 26, 2024
May 26, 2024 at 1:51 AM UTC
Another Miserable Tormented Soul
Darkness engulfs his mind, disgusts him
Trapped in Satan's domain, twisted thoughts
To suffer for all life, until a miserable death
To suffer for his thoughts and actions, a truly unforgivable mistake
Sincerely~a someone who knows the truth~you waste of space
May 26, 2024
May 26, 2024 at 1:13 AM UTC
I lost myself in the most
pathetic possible way,
I will never be able to handle
losing myself.
But in the midst of darkness,
I found a glimmer of light,
a moment of grace that whispered,
you are more than your flaws.
I may have lost the old me,
but the new me is still growing,
finding strength in vulnerability,
and resilience in the face of loss.
So, here's to the journey of
losing and finding oneself,
for in the broken pieces,
we discover our truest beauty.
~
Dearest reader ;
I know it's unbelievable, unfortunately we have to be able to handle this inescapable truth :
We
Have
Worth
May 25, 2024
May 25, 2024 at 8:13 PM UTC
Innocence is Lost
The sun sinks low
Casting long shadows
A farewell to youth
As innocence departs
Fading like summer
Leaves changing color
Gone with the wind
Lost to the passage of time
But within this loss
A seed of wisdom
Planted in the heart
New growth from old wounds
Though innocence fades
Its memory lingers
In the beauty of scars
And the strength of the soul
We reunite together under this moonlight forever ourselves but never understood by the youth
May 25, 2024
May 25, 2024 at 12:42 AM UTC
Riddles twist and turn
Words dance in perplexing ways
A maze of meaning
May 24, 2024
May 24, 2024 at 10:10 PM UTC
Tragic Life | Lifeless Accomplishments
Ah, how tragic life is so pointless and unforgiving,
A dark and dismal journey, through which we are driven.
The weight of sorrow, the burden of despair,
Never ceasing, never ending, a relentless snare.
In the shadows we wander, lost and forlorn,
Seeking solace, seeking meaning, from dusk till dawn.
But alas, life mocks us with its cruel deceit,
Leaving us to suffer, in silence and defeat.
Yet still we press on, in our futile quest,
For a glimmer of hope, in this endless unrest.
Oh, tragic life, how bitter and unkind,
Leaving us to wonder, what purpose we might find.
May 24, 2024
May 24, 2024 at 10:05 PM UTC
Desire Disgusts Even The Likes of Me
The moon, shrouded in a veil of clouds,
Cast a pallid glow upon the scene,
As they, haunted by their own yearnings,
Found themselves entangled in its embrace.
But lo, as the shadows lengthened,
And the air grew thick with unease,
They recoiled at the touch of desire,
For it was a foul and wretched thing.
It was a night of eerie whispers,
When desire, with its tainted allure,
Crept into the hearts of those
Who feared no sin, no darkness.
Even those who knew no fear
Were repelled by its twisted form,
And thus they turned away,
Leaving behind the stench of their own loathing.
See me as a man not as the monster you came to know
May 24, 2024
May 24, 2024 at 10:00 PM UTC
Flowers Bloom
Petals unfurled,
Amidst the tangled web of deceit,
Truth triumphed,
And in its wake,
Flowers bloomed,
A quiet testament,
To the enduring beauty,
Of honesty's embrace.
Petals Fall with angelic grace
May 24, 2024
May 24, 2024 at 9:55 PM UTC