I was once in love with a Captain
And I never thought he would caused me pain
Since he promised me a happy ever after
Then set aside my fear
He was always ready to leave me
For a treasure chest across the sea
Every day that will passed
I longed that we will last
I was once in love with the ocean
Even if I live in the kingdom
Now, I wander my emotion
And plead for my freedom
I stop hoping for a fairytale
Even if I met a prince along the way
He was as I expected him to be
Very charming yet free
He made me laugh and cry
And never knew how to lie
He was the ideal of every human
And I wasnt an exception woman
The Captain came back with hope of another chance
And as the naive princess I can be
I was willing to give him a glance
Yet he couldnt take the risk to stay for me
Now, the princess living in the kingdom
Finally met the prince to give her freedom
For I was once imprisoned
With my love to the Captain
The prince never heard of my Captain
And didnt know about the pain
But he did lit up my heart
As he pointed out my worth
And as the prince set my heart free
I wish that my used to be Captain
Find the best treasure across the sea
For I am now happy, that I found my own King
Dec 16, 2018
Dec 16, 2018 at 8:43 AM UTC
I always love new beginnings, new year resolutions. I love change. I love how January made me feel that "Oh, another year to have fun". I quickly grabbed a chocolate and watched my parents having their own quality time.
They were talking about divorce, and I've always wondered how did divorce even became an option? I never thought he would end the fight with his own fist and her blood. And I hated February, ever since then.
I told my friends that I hated love and how ****** love made me felt last month. They wished love will knock at their door this March. I asked why, they just told me "love isn't always a bad thing, and it never will."
I saw her crying and cursing her boyfriend's name at the corner. The day after that, I hated my Mom for forgiving my Dad, right after what he did. She just told me that's how love works. I guess April was made for bitter people like me.
May is my birth month. It was also the month, when we first met. I never liked the idea of you. You were the kind of guy, everyone can love but not everyone can handle.
I saw you with your friends, you were having fun. You asked me if you can court and steal my heart, I said no, but you continued anyway. June gave me feelings I thought I will never have.
You hugged me tight and asked me to stay. I said, I can't not because I didn't want to, but because I have to. You held my hand and told me you love me. July ended well because of you.
August started with a fight. My Mom hated me. You started talking to other girls, just like how my Dad did. All I did was to cry like tomorrow doesn't exist. You told me how sorry you are, the next day.
I hated September. You told me you didn't love me anymore. I let go of you. I started writing poems since the day you left me. And I guess that was bitter and sweet at the same time.
October wasn't that fun. I drunk my love away and let alcohol control my body. The next day, I found out how I told you how much I love you. And I don't blame alcohol for that.
"You need to move on, it's November already." my friends told me. I remember what my Mom said, so I forgave you for leaving me. But I wished you would never forget about me.
December came with coldness and your warmth is all I craved. I asked your friends, how you were doing, they said, you're fine without me. I used to love change, but now I hate how change overwhelm you completely.
Nov 10, 2017
Nov 10, 2017 at 7:51 AM UTC
I often wonder how it feels like to fall in love with someone who could love you back, but chose not to.
They could fall in love with the way your eyes sparkle.
They could fall in love with the way you smile and laugh at their jokes.
They could fall in love with you, but chose not to.
They could fall in love with the way you dance at their favourite song.
With the way you sing with them.
Or maybe with the way you write all the things you love about them.
They could fall in love with you, but chose not to.
Instead, they chose to fall in love with someone.
Someone who doesn’t know them
Someone who doesn’t love them
Doesnt know their favourite song
Then you wonder why
Why did they chose not to fall in love with you
When you know everything about them
When they know that you will always be there for them
When you love them
But sometimes, love isn’t enough.
Just because you love someone, they will love you back.
Even if you’re loveable person, they will still choose not to love you back
Because maybe, maybe they really wasn’t for you
Oct 14, 2017
Oct 14, 2017 at 8:00 AM UTC
Mahal,
Naalala mo pa ba yung mga panahon na puro ngiti at saya?
Mga araw na puno ng kwentuhan, asaran at tawanan
Na hindi ko malaman
Kung saan nanggaling ang mga iyan
Naalala mo pa ba kung paano ko lagyan ng ngiti ang iyong mga labi
At tila nilagyan ng bituin ang iyong mga mata?
Naalala mo pa ba kung paano mo sinabi sa akin na gusto mo ako?
Tila hindi ka pa nga sigurado sa nadarama mo
Naalala mo pa ba nung tinanong mo ako kung pwede bang manligaw?
Tila nanlumo ka pa nga sa sagot ko.
At hindi nagtagal, ay unti unti mo din binitawan ang salitang “Mahal kita. Mahal na mahal kita”
Dahil ako? Naalala ko pa
Naalala ko pa kung paano tayo nagkakilala
Kung paano sinabi sa akin ng kaibigan mo, na gusto mo ako
Kung paano mismo nanggaling sa bibig mo, na gusto mo nga ako
Kung paano ko binigkas ang salitang “Mahal din kita”
Kung paano mo unti unting binabawi ang salitang “Mahal kita”
Dahil sabi mo,
Sabi mo pagod ka na, ayaw mo na, sawa ka na
Kung paano ako nagpakatanga, habang tinutulak ka sa babaeng gusto mo
Habang sinasabing “Kung saan ka masaya, duon ako
Kahit masakit, kakayanin ko”
At naalala ko pa, kung paano mo sinabing “Patawad, mahal pa din kita.”
Tinanggap kita.
Tinanggap ko lahat ng eksplenasyon at rason mo.
Lahat lahat, kahit ilang beses kong narinig na ang tanga ko
Dahil tinanggap kita, pero masisisi ba nila ako?
Masisisi ba nila ako kung mahal pa din kita?
Masisisi ba nila ako kung patuloy pa din akong umaasa na babalik yung tayo?
Hindi naman diba?
Kasi unang una sa lahat, hindi sila yung nagmahal
Hindi sila yung sinaktan at iniwan
Ilang gabi akong umiyak
Ilang gabi kong iniyakan ang paulit ulit na dahilan
Ilang beses akong nagpakatanga sa paulit ulit na rason
Ilang beses akong tinanong kung kaya ko pa ba?
Kung masaya pa ba ako?
Kung pagod na ba ako?
Hanggang saan yung kaya ko?
At duon ko natagpuan
Duon ko natagpuan ang sarili ko
Namamahinga sa pagitan ng “Mahal kita” at “Pagod na ako”
Pero mahal, masisisi mo ba ako kapag sinabi kong pagod na ako?
Masisisi mo ba ako kung sinabi ko sayong gusto kong magpahinga habang minamahal mo?
Kung ang gusto ko lang ay ipadama mo ulit sa akin ang nadarama mo?
Kung ang gusto ko lang kalimutan ang sakit na dinulot mo?
Kung pagod na ako kakaisip sa salitang “kayo”?
Kung pagod na ako kakaiyak dahil parang siya pa din ang gusto mo?
Kung lagi kong naiisip na baka kaya mo ako binalikan, dahil hindi ka niya gusto?
Mahal, wag **** iisipin na ayoko na sayo
Wag **** iisipin na kaya ko gustong magpahinga dahil pagod na ako
Dahil tulad ng sabi mo, kung pagod na ako, magpahinga ako
Kasi mahal, gusto kong magpahinga
Para muling madama ang init ng pagibig
Na tila ba sa akin ay iyong ipinagkait Muling masulyapan ang mga matang
Tila ba hinahanap ako sa libo libong tao
Mahal, patawad.
Mahal kita, pero pagod na ako
Pero hindi ibigsabihin nito ay palayain mo ako
Ibig kong sabihin, ipaglaban mo naman ako.
Ipaglaban mo naman ako, dahil pagod na ako.
Oct 14, 2017
Oct 14, 2017 at 7:54 AM UTC
You know what's the worst thing about love?
It's falling in love with someone
And that someone made you feel that they're also in love with you
But little did you know, he will leave you
He will leave you with different I love yous
In every corner of your room
Different scents
In your sweater, or jacket rather
I gave you everything
Every love
Every attention
Every word, poem, song I can think of
But I guess, it wasn't enough to make you stay
Love will never be enough to make you stay
Dear, I can feel you forgetting me
I can feel that you’re hiding me between the words of I miss you
I love you and I'm sorry
Don’t.
If you want to leave then go
Don’t hesitate
Don’t think of my feelings, because I will always be vulnerable
If you want to come back
Don’t
Sorry won't fix anything
Love will never be enough to come back, if it doesn’t make you stay
Then suddenly, all the promises became empty
All I love yous became boring
All I miss yous became lie
Dear, you are more than drugs and alcohol
You gave more damage than them
But dear, this is not about you
This about the feelings you leave
The pieces you tear apart
This is about me
About how fool I am to think that maybe
Maybe, deep down in your heart I am there.
I never feared losing someone.
Because I've always been the one to leave
But when I saw that dull eyes
It terrifies me, that someday you will leave
And you did
Oct 4, 2017
Oct 4, 2017 at 10:09 AM UTC
People often ask me what love is
And I seriously don't know what it means
All I can think about is you
Your eyes, those brown eyes
Those eyes which saw me naked
You saw every scar on my body
Yet the only thing you said was
“You are beautiful”
Love, I am not beautiful
Scars, stretch marks, blood, wounds
Doesn't mean beautiful
I am not an art
Yet your lips kissed me
The way the sun kissed my skin every morning
Without a fail, without any doubt
You smiled.
And the only words that came to my mind was
**** this is trouble"
My love, your words hold me like a hostage
Trapped inside an empty box, finding a way out.
A way I can never ever get a glimpse of.
I knew that this love
Our love would last a lifetime
Or so I thought
We were torn apart by hatreds, insecurities, confusions
Maybe if it wasn't for distance
We would be still together, we could have worked it out
But maybe, no matter what decisions we'll make
We will still come to an end
Confused about the future
Insecure about other people
Hating each other
You, giving up
And me, craving for more
Craving for something that can fill up the hole inside my chest
I wanted you to stay forever, here beside me
But every time I would ask about it
You always said
"You deserve so much more"
You were once my everything
My other half
My partner in crime
You were someone so freaking important to me
You were the kind of mistake, I wouldn't mind repeating
I fell so hard for you
And guess what happened?
Love, I am broken
How many days, months, years
For me, to forget
That once upon a time
You were here
I was there
Hands holding tighter
Eyes locked to each other
Hearts that beat in a synchronizing manner
How much would it cost?
For the pain to stop
For the memories to abandon
For the feelings to fade
My love, I did not expect any of this
I didn't know that love can be deadly
A love that can force someone to commit suicide
That loving someone means tearing every part of yourself
Now, do you think I'm suicidal?
Love, do not be afraid
I'm not going to die
Being suicidal doesn’t mean killing yourself
Suicidal means I wouldn't mind dying
I kept on dying anyway
I kept on dying at the same place I thought was giving life to me
Because the day, you decided to give up on me
I already gave up on myself.
Oct 3, 2017
Oct 3, 2017 at 10:55 AM UTC
Mahal, bitawan mo na ako
Bitawan mo na ang mga kamay ko
Dahil bibigyan ko na ng halaga ang sarili ko
Bitawan na ang mga paa ko
At hayaang tumakbo palayo sayo
Mahal, hanggang dito na lang tayo
Ayoko ng dumating sa punto
Na magkasakitan pa tayo
Mahal, alam kong hindi na ako
Ang nilalaman ng iyong puso
Kaya mahal, palayain mo na ako.
Jul 27, 2017
Jul 27, 2017 at 8:30 AM UTC
May mga klase ng pagmamahalan
Pagmamahalan na sinimulan ngunit hindi hanggang huli
Pagmamahalan na sinimulan at hanggang huli
May pagmamahalan din naman ng katulad ng atin
Hindi naman sinimulan ngunit, subalit, datapwat, kailangan tapusin
Dahil kahit paulit ulit kong isugal ang puso ko
Alam ko sa huli talo pa din ako dahil hindi lang naman oras at panahon ang kalaban ko
Pati na din ikaw at siya na mahal mo
Gusto ko man ipagsigawan na mahal kita
Mahal kita kahit nakaakibat dito na ayoko na
Mahal kita kahit alam kong siya pa din ang pipiliin mo sa aming dalawa
Mahal kita
Mahal kita
Mahal kita --- kahit walang tayo
Ay mali, ikaw lang pala at ako
Kasi sa simula palang wala naman akong matatawag na tayo
Walang tayo na pinaglalaban ko
Walang tayo na dapat tapusin ko
Jul 21, 2017
Jul 21, 2017 at 6:59 AM UTC
Pinilit kong sabayan, ang takbo ng panahon
Nagbabakasakaling malilimutan ka rin
Ginawa na ang tamang desisyon
Na sarili naman ang bibigyan ng pansin
Sinusubukang kalimutan ang mga alaala
Na magpapabalik ng aking dadamdamin
Idinilat ko na ang aking mga mata
Sa mga bagay na maari kong sapitin
Tinahak na ang daan ng hindi ka kasama
Nang hindi lumilingon pabalik sa iyong mga mata
Sinubukan ko
At pilit na sinusubukan
Subalit ito ako, nagaantay sa dati nating tagpuan
Lugar kung saan kita unang nakita at nakilala
Lugar na aking kinamumuhian
Dahil dito, dito mo din tinapos ang lahat
Mahal, hihintayin kita
Hihintayin ko ang pagbabalik mo
Hihintayin ko kahit imposible naman ito
Hihintayin ko na sabihin mo ulit na mahal mo ako
Maghihintay ako
Ngunit mahal, hindi ko maipapangako
Hindi ko maipapangako na hindi ako mapapagod
Hindi ko maipapangako na hindi ako dadating sa puntong aayaw ako
Dahil mahal, tao din ako
Gusto ko din na pahalagahan ako
Gusto kong mahalin ako
Yun nga lang gusto ko galing sayo
Pero sabi nga nila, mahalin mo muna ang sarili mo
Kaya mahal, maghihintay ako
Habang minamahal ko ang sarili ko
Ngunit kung hindi na kita kayang hintayin pa
Sana mahal, maintindihan mo
Dahil mahirap ang dinanas ko para lang makuha yang pagmamahal mo
Jul 21, 2017
Jul 21, 2017 at 6:48 AM UTC