b-7
“The only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars.” / / Jack Kerouac
It's impossible to like you
I never truly did
It's impossible to like you
when I’ve always loved him
Even though we're not together,
we’ll always have this thing
Me for him
him for me
We’re simply meant to be.
Nov 21, 2013
Nov 21, 2013 at 11:26 AM UTC
Time ticking on the wall
It enters my thoughts, consumes them all
Envelops me, body and soul
It simply devours me whole
Why do I care? Why am I concerned?
I wish I had never learned
Then I wouldn’t know what the ticking meant
And to my mind it wouldn’t make the slightest dent
I need to tear it down, that petrifying sound
Break free and live my life unbound
So here I go and down it crashes
To me all time turns to ashes
I am free - free to soar
Inside I hear time’s distant roar
Nov 7, 2013
Nov 7, 2013 at 9:35 AM UTC
I can’t get to sleep
Because my brain over thinks
I wish I could shrink it
For a night at least,
Just close my eyes and drift off
But my mind is racing
Steadily chasing
The thoughts overcoming me,
The thoughts keep outrunning me
I wish I was with you
I can't help but miss you
I try to tell myself otherwise
Keep piling lies on lies
I wish the lies were true
I don’t know why I want you
Alone the sleep won’t come
But you’re not coming either
Nov 7, 2013
Nov 7, 2013 at 9:35 AM UTC
I glance out the window
It’s still there
The wall
I built it there last winter
After you left
I thought you would stay for good that time
I know better now
The snow is beginning to fall again
So I know you’ll be by soon
This time it will be different
The wall is strong and steady
You won’t be able to break it down
Thanks to you, no one ever will
Nov 7, 2013
Nov 7, 2013 at 9:34 AM UTC
I reached out
I grasped a handful of sand
I held so tight
The small grains fell right through my fingers
I tried to catch them
They ignored my attempt
Crashing to the ground
I fell with them
Buried my face in the sand
And let the ocean pull me in
Nov 7, 2013
Nov 7, 2013 at 9:33 AM UTC
I wish I didn’t want you
If only it was a decision
A conscious one anyway
Why you out of everyone?
You’re nothing special
Is what they all say
But they don’t know you
I speak as if I do
Maybe my mind is tricking me
Playing a harmless game
Only it’s not harmless
I'm falling
I’ve fallen
For you
You look me in the eyes
And
Walk away
Nov 5, 2013
Nov 5, 2013 at 11:04 AM UTC
Astronauts dance across you
Leaving trails of star dust and milky way paths
Illuminated by the glow of the night
I trace the patterns with my earthly fingertips
Jumping from star to star and moon to moon
I say you belong in outer space
You're far too perfect for the world I'm bound to
I star gaze at your eyes, the planets of your soul
Smile, see what I see, my dear
For you are my beautiful atmosphere
Nov 5, 2013
Nov 5, 2013 at 11:02 AM UTC
I keep trying to quit you
And start over new
So time and time again I erase you from my life
But always come back because only you can solve all my strife
I tell myself life without you will be fine
But when my blood turns to alcohol, I need to call you mine
I want to find the we, we are destined to be
That’s why you still find your bed warm with me
But another side of me is scared to be all in
Afraid I’ll ruin us before we even begin
Will all my second guessing ever cease?
Will my brain and my heart ever make peace?
I don’t have the answers to pull me through
So I keep trying to find them all in you
Please, I beg you, do something to fix it
Don’t you have some kind of tool in your tool kit?
I like you too much to just let you go
Cause I'm your starry night and you’re my van gogh
There must be a reason we always come back to each other
And a reason for why I never look the same way at another
I think it’s because I know we’ll be great
Please tell me, my dear, I’m not too late
Nov 5, 2013
Nov 5, 2013 at 1:15 AM UTC
Down by the water you'd find her,
Humming a happy tune
Laughing with the wind and swinging from the trees
Dancing with the grass and painting pictures out of clouds
Wading into the water and making faces at the fish
The girl no one could ever figure out
And the one whose smile made it all okay
Until the world anchored her
Vibrant colors to pale grays
Loud laughter silenced
Wild hair tamed
Down by the water it’s empty now
No longer a sight to see
Vacant of the free spirit that once lived in me
Nov 5, 2013
Nov 5, 2013 at 12:56 AM UTC
Do you remember
When we’d climb the old oak tree
Sit atop it and look
Look out at the world
Our world
Ours to conquer
Together, of course
Side by side, hand in hand
It’s different now
We’re both grown
I still visit the tree
And
I secretly hope I’ll find you there
Sitting atop, waiting for me
Our eyes would meet
It’d be as though we were young again
We’d join hands, and jump
Into our world
Together again, together at last
Yes, I remember
Nov 5, 2013
Nov 5, 2013 at 12:50 AM UTC