azuraine - Hello Poetry

“As much as I love you” ..... as much as I’m still in love with you .... as much as I am still so attracted to you ....as much as my heart and body and soul may still crave you ... as much as my head and heart do flips thinking of us...........I can say goodbye and still love you. As much as I love you .....I can stop speaking to you and still care for you . As much as I love you ........I can let you go and still wish and hope you the best . If I’m leaving you alone it’s not because I’m angry or bitter . If I’m leaving you alone it’s for my own well being . As much as I love you........I am accepting I can still love you but I also need to be happy.......even without you . As much as I love you ........I have to accept still being in love with you you....... but not needing you for me to be happy . If I seem to be moving on it’s because I can’t force myself to stop loving you ,but I can tell myself that I deserve better than sadness , tears , sorrow and regret ...........As much as I love you . ♾

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Dec 27, 2019

Dec 27, 2019 at 4:08 PM UTC

As much as I love you

“As much as I love you” ..... as much as I’m still in love with you .... as much as I am still so attracted to you ....as much as my heart and body and soul may still crave you ... as much as my head and heart do flips thinking of us...........I can say goodbye and still love you. As much as I love you .....I can stop speaking to you and still care for you . As much as I love you ........I can let you go and still wish and hope you the best . If I’m leaving you alone it’s not because I’m angry or bitter . If I’m leaving you alone it’s for my own well being . As much as I love you........I am accepting I can still love you but I also need to be happy.......even without you . As much as I love you ........I have to accept still being in love with you you....... but not needing you for me to be happy . If I seem to be moving on it’s because I can’t force myself to stop loving you ,but I can tell myself that I deserve better than sadness , tears , sorrow and regret ...........As much as I love you . ♾

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Rationalization and realization replaces overwhelming desire . Need and want is smothered by words that cut thick oozing painful slits . My once full heart bleeds into my stomach smothering flutters of hope and love . Wrongs swim where eagerly revisited moments lived . This new place implodes

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Dec 15, 2019

Dec 15, 2019 at 9:42 PM UTC

A new place

Rationalization and realization replaces overwhelming desire . Need and want is smothered by words that cut thick oozing painful slits . My once full heart bleeds into my stomach smothering flutters of hope and love . Wrongs swim where eagerly revisited moments lived . This new place implodes

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Walking up there , floating from emotion to emotion Safe ... floating floating floating Certain the belly butterflies are keeping me high Swirling heart strings connect us like love puppets and the gods must be the puppeteers Lightning strikes suddenly and kills our time Everything safe shatters as the clouds squeeze us until what we covet is lost The butterflies leave a hole of shooting pain Cloud 9 is now upside down.

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Dec 15, 2019

Dec 15, 2019 at 9:07 AM UTC

Cloud 9 upside down

Walking up there , floating from emotion to emotion Safe ... floating floating floating Certain the belly butterflies are keeping me high Swirling heart strings connect us like love puppets and the gods must be the puppeteers Lightning strikes suddenly and kills our time Everything safe shatters as the clouds squeeze us until what we covet is lost The butterflies leave a hole of shooting pain Cloud 9 is now upside down.

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Yes, you are my love . Your voice is the revelation that heals my heart and touches my soul. I survive on the magical letters of your words. I am gifted life’s air from the breath on your lips. I have become an addicted lover of the madness of our love . I escape with you in the vast blue oceans in your eyes.I am consumed by the US of we . Yes, you are my love , and you are so much more.

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Feb 27, 2019

Feb 27, 2019 at 9:21 PM UTC

More

Yes, you are my love . Your voice is the revelation that heals my heart and touches my soul. I survive on the magical letters of your words. I am gifted life’s air from the breath on your lips. I have become an addicted lover of the madness of our love . I escape with you in the vast blue oceans in your eyes.I am consumed by the US of we . Yes, you are my love , and you are so much more.

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You will heal in time they say Minutes pass They pass into mass I don’t want this time Minutes take time They steal space I don’t want this time Time heals all wounds they say Minutes steal passion They steal unity I don’t want this time Minutes are more painful than hours More painful than days More painful than weeks Minutes are killing me I don’t want this time

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Apr 6, 2018

Apr 6, 2018 at 11:10 PM UTC

Minutes

You will heal in time they say Minutes pass They pass into mass I don’t want this time Minutes take time They steal space I don’t want this time Time heals all wounds they say Minutes steal passion They steal unity I don’t want this time Minutes are more painful than hours More painful than days More painful than weeks Minutes are killing me I don’t want this time

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Emotions like turbulent seas I am standing before you I am so small My heart shatters like fragile glass I hear your words I am so small Your words cut me like icy wind on my face My feet fail to budge as if in cement casts I am so small My mouth opens but no words come out I am silenced by fear I am so small A million little pieces I am rendered as you go away I am so so small.

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Apr 6, 2018

Apr 6, 2018 at 10:57 PM UTC

I am small

Emotions like turbulent seas I am standing before you I am so small My heart shatters like fragile glass I hear your words I am so small Your words cut me like icy wind on my face My feet fail to budge as if in cement casts I am so small My mouth opens but no words come out I am silenced by fear I am so small A million little pieces I am rendered as you go away I am so so small.

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To the moon and back you professed. But….. The Crescent moons edge drains me as it pierces my flesh. To the moon and back you pledged. Only…. The new moon is heavy now, smothering, as it presses down on my chest. To the moon and back you alleged. Except…. The full moons beam blinds me as it steals my fight . Luminously I am led to my emotional death…. I love you to the moon and back, he said

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Feb 5, 2018

Feb 5, 2018 at 6:18 AM UTC

To the Moon and Back

To the moon and back you professed. But….. The Crescent moons edge drains me as it pierces my flesh. To the moon and back you pledged. Only…. The new moon is heavy now, smothering, as it presses down on my chest. To the moon and back you alleged. Except…. The full moons beam blinds me as it steals my fight . Luminously I am led to my emotional death…. I love you to the moon and back, he said

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I know the exact moments that you break through, and you are with me . I always love you for that. I feel you totally at times and am overwhelmed in so many wonderful ways.I really love you for that. Pain wasn’t something you dealt . You were a love dealer ...I completely loved you for that . I hate that you are gone still but I know you needed to go to be free . I just don’t want to be free of you . I still love you... even with that.

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Feb 5, 2018

Feb 5, 2018 at 5:57 AM UTC

Still love

I know the exact moments that you break through, and you are with me . I always love you for that. I feel you totally at times and am overwhelmed in so many wonderful ways.I really love you for that. Pain wasn’t something you dealt . You were a love dealer ...I completely loved you for that . I hate that you are gone still but I know you needed to go to be free . I just don’t want to be free of you . I still love you... even with that.

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Illusion folds into reality twisting reason and undermining wisdom. You confused me just to wear me down. This love isn’t real I whisper. Barriers crashing exposing raw emotion, brand new, but not ready for the light You broke through just to watch me fall. This love isn’t real I whisper. Words lashing through the air finding me, landing like a million razors exposing my treasure You cut me open just to watch me bleed. This love isn’t real I whisper. Darkness settled in the space where fire was sworn with murmurs of love and hope You deceived me just feel the heat die. But you have always known…. This love isn’t real.

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Feb 5, 2018

Feb 5, 2018 at 5:41 AM UTC

The Whisper

Illusion folds into reality twisting reason and undermining wisdom. You confused me just to wear me down. This love isn’t real I whisper. Barriers crashing exposing raw emotion, brand new, but not ready for the light You broke through just to watch me fall. This love isn’t real I whisper. Words lashing through the air finding me, landing like a million razors exposing my treasure You cut me open just to watch me bleed. This love isn’t real I whisper. Darkness settled in the space where fire was sworn with murmurs of love and hope You deceived me just feel the heat die. But you have always known…. This love isn’t real.

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You came to me in a wave. Emotion dances on the swirling tips , enticing me to drown in your depths. I am the sea . I am swallowed, but I am free. Take me as your waves retreat after crashing on the sand. I have waited for you . I am less without you . I am the sea. I am swallowed, but I am free.

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Jan 24, 2018

Jan 24, 2018 at 5:20 AM UTC

I am free.

You came to me in a wave. Emotion dances on the swirling tips , enticing me to drown in your depths. I am the sea . I am swallowed, but I am free. Take me as your waves retreat after crashing on the sand. I have waited for you . I am less without you . I am the sea. I am swallowed, but I am free.

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