azealangel
American
“I stood still, vision blurring, and in that moment, I heard my heart break. It was a small, clean sound, like the snapping of a flower's stem.” / ― Diana Gabaldon, Dragonfly in Amber / / Wanting him is hard to forget, loving him is hard to regret, losing him is hard to accept, but even with all the hurt I've felt, letting go is the most painful yet. / ----Unknown
From afar I admire you
your beauty and your grace
the way you push hair behidn your ear that has fallen to your face
your brillance..you're o so intelligent
the way you speak in class
so bold and without fear
the sparkle for learning in your eyes
that look so pure and clear
All of these things, only perceived by me from afar
I wish to know yout thoughts
likes, dislikes, and hobbies
your opinion on politics
Do you about the trees?
What is your faith?
Do you have pets?
Your favorite book, movie, food.
What is it that you are passionate about?
My dear Brazil
I want to talk to you
To obtain all the answer to every question I wish to ask you
This morning in the rain you were only a few feet away
all alone were you
But my feet, they would not move
So I did not go to you
Instead I watched my Beautiful Brazil place her earphones in her ear
We could have talked and laughed
But we didn't cause I am ruled by fear
Alas, My Beautiful Brazil
I am not your average admirer
No, not at all
But until I gather up the courage
The strength to loose my fear
I'll admire you from afar
My Beautiful Brazil
Aug 10, 2012
Aug 10, 2012 at 12:45 PM UTC
The truth about you is that
You ****
Epically
Period
Apr 19, 2012
Apr 19, 2012 at 8:19 AM UTC
There’s two sides of being on the side
The reason that makes it all worth it
&
The reason that makes you feel like dirt
So here’s the reason it’s (almost) worth it
When I’m with you I (think) know love
I get beautiful whispers in my ear
I have times when I just know we’ll be together
I get that feeling that you do love me
That I’m of some significance in your life
I (almost) get love
Now here’s the part that makes you feel like dirt
When we see one another in public and look away as if you didn’t just kiss me and tell me you loved me
When we have to plan our time together around hers and yours
When the whole world only knows about her
When I’m in the shadows
When I feel like dirt
When deep down…
I just know I can or at least deserve better
But my heart loves you
Why? I wish I knew...but it does
Maybe because you where the first one I ever fell in love with and now my heart feel as though it is indebted to you eternally
What a stupid, foolish heart
Your a liar and a cheat
And so am I…
But I’m going to stop
I am
This time
I swear
So to you I say this
I will always love you...and
F*** you darling
Apr 17, 2012
Apr 17, 2012 at 12:18 PM UTC
I’m letting you go
Again
But this will be the last time
You see, I let you go once before
I did just like they said
If you love something set them free
If it comes back then it loves thee
You came back
You love me too?
I can’t answer that and neither can you
You returned to me, yet again
But she was still with you
You returned to me yet again with promises of love that would’t end
And I a fool believed in you
But can I really blame you?
No
I’ll let you go
One more time
For myself
So can try to learn all over again to be happy
Without you…
I don’t think it possible now
But all my friends do
So this is my last piece of writing to you
This is goodbye
Again
This is I’ll never forget you
This is you’ll always have a place in my heart
And this is...
I love you
for the last time
Apr 17, 2012
Apr 17, 2012 at 10:16 AM UTC
I can’t love him because he’s different from me
His kind is scary, bad, and nasty
….But wait
Are you blind?
Can you not see?
Mother...dear
Mother darling
He’s human like you and like me
Underneath the color of his skin is a soul
It’s alive and it’s well and it’s in control
He loves me and I him,
But you won’t let us be
Who are you to stop what we do?
Who are you to tell love that it’s through?
Who are you to take love from me?
Mother dear
Mother darling
You said find someone who loves you back
Find someone who cares for you
Find someone who’ll learn you through and through
Find someone who’s your other half
And I did exactly what you asked
Then when I tell the good news
Your smile fades away and your shoulder turns icy blue
I guess you forgot one of your rules
The one that meant the most to you
Find someone of whom I approve
Apr 13, 2012
Apr 13, 2012 at 3:50 PM UTC
Today I realized how realistic you are when I reminisce
Apr 5, 2012
Apr 5, 2012 at 3:33 PM UTC
Today I had an epiphany
I realized something important
I thought that with time I’d fall out of love with you
But instead realized that I’d only learned to live without you
I thought that I would move on and find another love
Only to learn that you are my one true
I thought that I didn’t need you
But realized that I couldn’t be without you
Apr 4, 2012
Apr 4, 2012 at 3:26 PM UTC
I think I’m going to leave you
I let those words slowly slip out of my mouth
I think I’m going to leave you
I can’t believe I just thought that
I think I’m going to leave you
Just apologize and I’ll forgive you
I think I’m going to leave you
You don’t walk away because I tell you to
I might not leave you
I love being with you
No, I won’t leave you
But you ***** up so much
Yes, I have to leave you
I deserve so much more
Do I have the power to leave you?
….
I don’t know anymore
Mar 22, 2012
Mar 22, 2012 at 10:22 AM UTC
I used to fear that I loved you so much God would take you away from me
Rip you out of my life
Cause I was too enthralled with you
Cause I would just die without you
Cause I couldn't breath without you
....
Now I find myself wishing that I'd never met you
Ever
Cause you enthralled me
Cause you made me unable to live without you
Cause now I can't breath
Mar 20, 2012
Mar 20, 2012 at 10:07 AM UTC
Now, of all the times, you choose to walk back into my life
What about when I wanted you?
needed you
prayed for you
longed for you
Where were you then?
Now, when I've moved on you choose to look for me
I'm not in love with you,
I'm not
I swear
I think...
....You don't have my heart anymore
I promise...
I don't think about us or what we had...
Just to let you know
Take you back? Now? Really?
I....I.....
Yes, your all I wanted
Yes, I still love you, and since we're being honest I don't think I ever stopped
I'm with someone else
I moved on..
I love him, too
I do
No....not like how I loved you
So i'm supposed to drop everything for you?
You didn't do that for me
Yes, I know..I love you too
Think about it overnight?
Okay, I will. Give me 24 hours.
hugs
It's a deal.
.....so what......who do I choose?
Mar 19, 2012
Mar 19, 2012 at 3:20 PM UTC