To the ghost who's touch still lingers. I have your name set as ghost in my phone and everytime I see your contact I try not to slouch because I don't want to feel weak. You still haunt me.
Aug 13, 2016
Aug 13, 2016 at 4:27 AM UTC
I hold my heart in my hand and some times I blame myself because I give love to easy and because I love to hard but most the time I tell myself it's a beautiful thing so someone knows I love them with all of me so when they/ if they ever feel like they weren't or aren't loved they are by me I have so much love to give but I wish most I could love myself like the love I make others feel
Aug 13, 2016
Aug 13, 2016 at 4:25 AM UTC
I am getting so weak my knees want to give out on me when I try to walk. My shoulders slouch when I stand and I try to straighten them out but they remain the same. I try to fill this empty space with a cigarette between my lips because the memory of you is all that I have left and the thought of what could have been. I hate that I have a slouch when I stand and that my knees are getting to weak to carry me I am trying. You told me to let you go. So I did. I try and ask myself if you really loved me but i think I wanted love from you so bad I tricked myself into believing what you gave was. I will always remember this day. Please know that my slouch is temporary I will fix my slouch so that I stand tall and people see that I am bright and confident and no longer will I have the aching knees and slouch when I stand.
Jun 29, 2016
Jun 29, 2016 at 3:05 AM UTC
Me and my family are going down the highway again the day after you broke up with me I was okay till I noticed it was the same road that held my tears for me. my face was a blank canvas and when I tried to smile again I couldn't I felt my stomach knot up and my head full of memory's and moments we had sometimes I like to remember how your hand fit in mine and how your body fit perfectly against me no imperfections as I like to say but I know we had a problem we though it was okay we'd make it but I being a boy and you being a girl who's in love with girls couldn't handle it I thought love was over anything even a "preference " I was still the same person just not a girl. Sometimes I blame myself and I smoked a whole cigarette down to the filter I never thought I'd do it but lately My minds a tornado ruining everything I am I don't ever think I'll stop thinking about you your name is imprinted into my memory I will never forget you.
Jun 7, 2016
Jun 7, 2016 at 10:58 PM UTC
I can still feel your kiss on my lips. I can feel you always. I get sad.
Jun 3, 2016
Jun 3, 2016 at 9:06 PM UTC
I avoided cigarettes because it kills your insides I have so many of them and have talked myself out of smoking them every time I often think going on my roof and sitting at the ledge and lighting and inhaling the poison to **** my insides I don't know why I haven't I'm not scared to die
Jun 3, 2016
Jun 3, 2016 at 9:04 PM UTC
My body is only a house to hole what I need and it's falling apart it needs repairs but I don't know how to make them
Jun 3, 2016
Jun 3, 2016 at 8:58 PM UTC
I think I'm the saddest I've ever been. I've never felt so much hate towards myself before. A feeling I told myself I'd never feel. I feel lost.
Jun 3, 2016
Jun 3, 2016 at 8:55 PM UTC
I'm sad that you could only call me Avery or use the right pronouns when we broke up. God you found it so hard to let ("him") or Avery slip off your tongue because you were holding onto someone who's been dead for a while now. I'm a boy and you knew it hoping/praying dear gods please not "(her)" please.. But I am. I am the sin you were praying could be prayed away. And now my heart hurts. Because I'm the sin that couldn't be prayed away and God those are the worst ones and I'm sorry.
Jun 3, 2016
Jun 3, 2016 at 8:54 PM UTC
In my head I'm sitting on a rock high above a beach enjoying everything life has to offer. And as I look around I look down... I see an anchor attached to my ankle and out of nowhere it pulled me out into the sea I tried to pull myself back on to shore but it pulled me down to far I am drowning in everything I was supposed to be and enjoy .
Jun 3, 2016
Jun 3, 2016 at 8:52 PM UTC