i wasnt always the way that i am
afraid to wake up alone in 40 years
afraid of my emotions
scared to speak my truth
terrified of what may be
life has done this to me
and it has left me bitter
May 23, 2019
May 23, 2019 at 10:47 AM UTC
i will no longer resent you
and all that you are
i won't ask the night sky why
why why why
you entered my life
there won't be a you sized hole in my chest
that brings pain every time i breathe
and i will forgive you
for making me love you
i will feel no regret
when you come to mind
i will be at peace with what was
and what will never be
May 15, 2019
May 15, 2019 at 10:29 AM UTC
imagine being so beaten down,
your heart left so mistreated,
that the word
love
sends a shiver down your spine
and knocks the wind out of you
all at once
May 13, 2019
May 13, 2019 at 10:44 AM UTC
these days feel quiet,
so muted and blurry.
as May drags on
i find myself searching.
searching for memories of you
down every avenue.
time moves slow
like your fingers tracing my lips.
but sometimes far too fast
like our drives down I-90.
i wish i could just press pause
and take it all in.
truly feel the moment
because i never know when it ends.
May 10, 2019
May 10, 2019 at 2:17 PM UTC
It's tiring to know
that life is an endless
revolving door
of people.
In and out,
some staying longer
than others.
Those who stay,
whose feet refuse to move,
are few and far between.
So when you find someone
who is firm by your side,
keep them close
and love them hard.
Feb 20, 2019
Feb 20, 2019 at 10:14 PM UTC
The moment I laid eyes on you I knew it would be you. I looked you up and down and I said to myself, "He looks like the kind of person that will break my heart." So I walked over, braced myself, and said hello.
Jan 17, 2019
Jan 17, 2019 at 1:55 PM UTC
there once a bittersweet girl
she was fragile like a porcelain doll
and had a hopeful heart, unbroken yet
she fell in love with a boy
dark and stormy on the inside,
shattered more than a few times
their story is anything but a fairy tale
tumultuous from start to end
taking place a long, long time ago
this girl was not the nicest
not the happiest
or the easiest to please
but with him she was
a star, a summer breeze, a
soul truly at ease
his gloomy blue clouds
began to follow her around
stifling her golden glow
it wasn’t long before this
sad boy
got bored of his lovely doll
soon he found a new toy
something fun to entertain
and this new dolly quickly fell right into his trap
he whispered to his secret toy
sweet nothings all night long
although she knew he wasn’t hers all along
his golden girl never heard
a thing
her ignorance was simply bliss
his pretty new toy made him so happy
he couldn’t bear to part ways, so with her
he spent his sleepy nights, with his doll his days
he told her she was special,
his favorite little princess,
the secret was now far too much to hide
rumors only grow
so soon enough the word got round
and our stormy boy was caught
the porcelain doll
was shattered
from the inside out
but time went fast
the cracks were sealed
and the golden girl moved on
the same cannot be said
of the boy
who broke her heart
he loves her still
and lives alone
ashamed of what he’s done
he left his toys
and the years blew past
yet he never loved again
Dec 6, 2018
Dec 6, 2018 at 8:34 AM UTC
I miss the you I used to know
The you I fell in love with
The you who made me laugh
The you who teased me just to see my smile
The you who cared about me
The you who couldn’t go more than a week without speaking to me
The you who always told me what was wrong
The you who said I’d never lose you
The you who let me into your space
I hate that version of you
Because you made me fall in love with you
You broke my heart and
It’s been months
And I haven’t been myself since
The pieces are too small to glue back together
Dec 5, 2018
Dec 5, 2018 at 9:56 PM UTC
You play the victim well
Beg for sympathy where you know you’ll get it
As if you aren’t the galvanizer of the hell that you live in
Present yourself as the sad boy
With the broken heart
Left alone with no one to love
As if you didn’t isolate yourself
The destructor of each and every single relationship
Like a tornado
Blowing through all that once was happy
I have no sympathy for you, lonely boy
Just a hope
That one day you’ll open your eyes
And end your pity party
Nov 25, 2018
Nov 25, 2018 at 2:13 PM UTC
I've waited 84 days
to feel a joy like I feel today.
It was always you, you ,you
never once leaving my thoughts.
Even on days where things felt okay,
it wasn't real happiness,
just going through the motions.
But today?
I think I really do,
I feel happy without you.
Nov 15, 2018
Nov 15, 2018 at 10:48 AM UTC