so I let you have *** with me
knowing this will lead
to nothing more than maybe a text
“see you again next week”
I let you have *** with me
so I can pretend
that when you hold my hand
it means the same to you as it does to me
and I let you have *** with me
and I let you have *** with me
Sep 23, 2024
Sep 23, 2024 at 8:26 PM UTC
made my bed for the first time since you left
now it’s easier to pretend as if
you’ve never laid your head beside mine
almost
i still can’t bear to look at the dishes
the ***** plates from our last dinner together
i hope they rot
Sep 23, 2024
Sep 23, 2024 at 8:25 PM UTC
the first time i broke a boy’s heart
i cried as i watched his love bleed for me
it poured out into my hands and still sticks to my hair this day
i smell its death in the wind
now, i break hearts with no pain, no remorse
i watch the light flee from their eyes and i no longer cry
what it’s like to be me?
feel nothing
create chaos
feel nothing
Aug 6, 2020
Aug 6, 2020 at 6:26 PM UTC
but it is not that easy
distinguishing the need to extinguish
can only be perfected through repeated failures
burn holes of mistakes that will last, not a lifetime
but long enough for you to still smell the smoke
in your clothes and in your hair
maybe just your memory
i don’t know
but i still smell it
Jan 21, 2020
Jan 21, 2020 at 2:32 AM UTC
a sip of yesterday morning's coffee reminds me of you
cold and bitter and "what else would you expect"; you'd say
i keep drinking, knowing i could and should drink something better
but i don't, i can't, and i won't
this is life how i choose to make it;
an endless cycle of coffee I'll never drink when I'm supposed to, but will always finish
Jul 24, 2017
Jul 24, 2017 at 4:06 PM UTC
crooked teeth means crooked smiles
but perfect they are nonetheless
found a lover in a friend and that's more than okay
we don't have to promise each other anything
other than the night
Mar 21, 2017
Mar 21, 2017 at 2:31 AM UTC
it gets a lil lonely at the top
yeah i'm their number one to ****
but no one's number one to love
empty, i feel used
hurt me, not just sexually
break my heart one more time baby
tell me i'm ****
tell me i'm hot
but never beautiful or intriguing
i only fascinate your ****
i wanna be on your mind
****
Nov 15, 2016
Nov 15, 2016 at 2:09 PM UTC
tasting you takes me back
to times when I was younger
not for the worse
but for the better
and your smile shows me the future
light at the end of the tunnel
getting brighter
coming closer
Mar 17, 2016
Mar 17, 2016 at 3:53 PM UTC
familiarity is
knowing exactly where you are
just by looking at the tops of passing trees
familiarity is also
knowing every line and crack in his lips
even in the dark
Feb 3, 2016
Feb 3, 2016 at 4:00 PM UTC