august-snow - Hello Poetry

I wish you all the best, but I want all your best. I want you to finally be happy and be in a good place, just as long as that place is inside my house. I can’t promise that I’ll ever be happy for you, because I want to love you at your happiest. I crave you at your most productive. most passionate. least insecure. I want the best you, and I still can’t understand why you couldn’t be him for me.

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Nov 18, 2018

Nov 18, 2018 at 1:41 AM UTC

The man on the train doesn’t know closure

I wish you all the best, but I want all your best. I want you to finally be happy and be in a good place, just as long as that place is inside my house. I can’t promise that I’ll ever be happy for you, because I want to love you at your happiest. I crave you at your most productive. most passionate. least insecure. I want the best you, and I still can’t understand why you couldn’t be him for me.

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I googled how to feel and I wish it told me something new. I’m always thinking of you. When I can’t sleep at night. I’ll put up any fight. Just to watch myself lose. I’m decoding all the cues. From you. Blinded by the shadow of regret. Your love is the weakest bet. I can’t wait to lose.

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Nov 6, 2015

Nov 6, 2015 at 12:58 AM UTC

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I googled how to feel and I wish it told me something new. I’m always thinking of you. When I can’t sleep at night. I’ll put up any fight. Just to watch myself lose. I’m decoding all the cues. From you. Blinded by the shadow of regret. Your love is the weakest bet. I can’t wait to lose.

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I remember you wore that shirt when we would stay in long nights together. It made me feel so safe, seeing you decorated in those perfectly stitched designs. In your sleeves you would wrap me and tell me everything would be fine next time. Your collar was a burying ground for my secrets. But now it's just a target for my tears. That shirt reminds me of when you spoke to me softly as my panic attacks turned to night terrors and I was terrified to shut my own eyes. I remember when I put on that shirt. With the red collar. You begged me to get into bed with you. You clothed my fears with the cotton nooses of your wardrobe. I thought I cut them off and destroyed the straight jackets in your closet They could never hold me down again. You're wearing that T-shirt. Without me. but Somehow, I still can't breathe.

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Jul 3, 2015

Jul 3, 2015 at 10:12 PM UTC

Your old t-shirt

I remember you wore that shirt when we would stay in long nights together. It made me feel so safe, seeing you decorated in those perfectly stitched designs. In your sleeves you would wrap me and tell me everything would be fine next time. Your collar was a burying ground for my secrets. But now it's just a target for my tears. That shirt reminds me of when you spoke to me softly as my panic attacks turned to night terrors and I was terrified to shut my own eyes. I remember when I put on that shirt. With the red collar. You begged me to get into bed with you. You clothed my fears with the cotton nooses of your wardrobe. I thought I cut them off and destroyed the straight jackets in your closet They could never hold me down again. You're wearing that T-shirt. Without me. but Somehow, I still can't breathe.

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Being in a relationship was like doing a puzzle. Always trying to complete it to view the beautiful picture we had to offer. Our sides somehow fit together like they had been perfectly constructed for exact placement. The four seasons cornered each end of our picture and changed everything around us, but never the potential of a great portrait. Center pieces showed the shades of ourselves we so desperately searched for in the color scheme. Our many shapes pieced what we needed to do in order to see the final product. The love we once shard held the pieces of us together and revealed the picture of all we could become if we just prevented the puzzle from getting boring. Discovering where each piece belonged was you struggling to read my mind, and knowing when not to. I never imagined our final picture; that took such determination and careful execution would never been seen. In the cracks of our piece of art lied the fears and guilts that grew thicker and made our pieces dull. Before our picture could turn dark by the cracks and disappear into the black I knocked out puzzle to the ground and put away the table that once so generously held us up. But puzzles aren't fun by yourself. Lately, as I scatter to clean up the pieces of our once adored scenery, I see yours are missing. And my edges don't seem to fit correctly.

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Jun 22, 2015

Jun 22, 2015 at 11:31 PM UTC

Puzzles

Being in a relationship was like doing a puzzle. Always trying to complete it to view the beautiful picture we had to offer. Our sides somehow fit together like they had been perfectly constructed for exact placement. The four seasons cornered each end of our picture and changed everything around us, but never the potential of a great portrait. Center pieces showed the shades of ourselves we so desperately searched for in the color scheme. Our many shapes pieced what we needed to do in order to see the final product. The love we once shard held the pieces of us together and revealed the picture of all we could become if we just prevented the puzzle from getting boring. Discovering where each piece belonged was you struggling to read my mind, and knowing when not to. I never imagined our final picture; that took such determination and careful execution would never been seen. In the cracks of our piece of art lied the fears and guilts that grew thicker and made our pieces dull. Before our picture could turn dark by the cracks and disappear into the black I knocked out puzzle to the ground and put away the table that once so generously held us up. But puzzles aren't fun by yourself. Lately, as I scatter to clean up the pieces of our once adored scenery, I see yours are missing. And my edges don't seem to fit correctly.

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You deserve the kind of love that drives your crazy You deserve the kind of love that maks you sick you deserve the kind of love that makes me cry whenever I see you with another woman The love that makes you happy. The love that makes you whole. the love I could have given you. If the time were right.

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Feb 16, 2015

Feb 16, 2015 at 10:40 AM UTC

too late.

You deserve the kind of love that drives your crazy You deserve the kind of love that maks you sick you deserve the kind of love that makes me cry whenever I see you with another woman The love that makes you happy. The love that makes you whole. the love I could have given you. If the time were right.

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completely incapable of holding any and all functioning relationships

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Dec 5, 2014

Dec 5, 2014 at 3:32 PM UTC

me

completely incapable of holding any and all functioning relationships

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thankful for each time you kissed me, and tried to mend my open wounds. thankful for the pain you gave me, I know its for my own good. thankful for the scars you caused me, continuing to show me that I will overcome. But most of all. thankful for the day you left me, so I can be whole again.

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Nov 27, 2014

Nov 27, 2014 at 5:32 PM UTC

Thankful

thankful for each time you kissed me, and tried to mend my open wounds. thankful for the pain you gave me, I know its for my own good. thankful for the scars you caused me, continuing to show me that I will overcome. But most of all. thankful for the day you left me, so I can be whole again.

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I get high and I don't think of you. ****** out of mind, and somehow you're not on mine What do I do when all my reality is hazey and you're finally gone? Soon you'll appear out from behind the fog in my eyes. And haunt me.

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Nov 13, 2014

Nov 13, 2014 at 2:06 AM UTC

High

I get high and I don't think of you. ****** out of mind, and somehow you're not on mine What do I do when all my reality is hazey and you're finally gone? Soon you'll appear out from behind the fog in my eyes. And haunt me.

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None of my words will bring you back, No amount of tears will make you see the pain you put me through. You are not allowed to hurt me. You may not be in charge of my life. It's not my fault she broke you It's not my fault you fight It's not my fault that you can't control your own life. But the truth is, I've grown so accustomed to seeing your face, holding your hands, kissing your lips, sleeping in your bed, that I don't think I can go without you for one more day.

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Nov 10, 2014

Nov 10, 2014 at 3:54 PM UTC

gone.

None of my words will bring you back, No amount of tears will make you see the pain you put me through. You are not allowed to hurt me. You may not be in charge of my life. It's not my fault she broke you It's not my fault you fight It's not my fault that you can't control your own life. But the truth is, I've grown so accustomed to seeing your face, holding your hands, kissing your lips, sleeping in your bed, that I don't think I can go without you for one more day.

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Time goes by Days turn to weeks I just keep making the same mistakes.

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Nov 6, 2014

Nov 6, 2014 at 11:20 AM UTC

Same Mistakes

Time goes by Days turn to weeks I just keep making the same mistakes.

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