I’ve always supported you, no matter what.
Whether you wanted to be a doctor or a space engineer,
I stood by you and agreed with your choices.
Whether it was your favorite Marvel's hero or your Dota picks,
I cheered for them right along with you.
Whether it was your political views or conflicts with your friends,
I rooted for whatever you believed was right.
Even when you disagreed with certain social views or ways of living,
I still supported your beliefs.
And even when you told me you hated certain parts of me,
I couldn’t help but hate them too
from the way I talk,
the way I dress,
the way I walk,
to my upbringing,
my habits,
my flaws,
even the cellulite on my skin.
The way I cry whenever I try to express how I feel,
the way I haven’t lost weight even though I tried,
the way I struggle to understand things,
and how I make the same mistakes again and again
I ended up hating all of that even more.
I hate that I’m small,
that I’m not as capable as I thought I was,
that the quirks that make me me are the ones that made you lose your feelings.
But still, I have always been your biggest supporter,
and I’ve always rooted for your thoughts.
Dec 1, 2025
Dec 1, 2025 at 2:04 AM UTC
His "good morning" text
Have given me more warmth
Than the ray of the sun
Have lightened me up
Than the breath of fresh air
Jumbled words that resonate with the happiness
Comes from within two souls that lived on different miles
Jul 4, 2021
Jul 4, 2021 at 3:40 PM UTC
I bet the sounds inside my head were noisier than the sounds of cars that jammed in the middle of traffic in Surabaya.
Especially when it comes to rush hour.
I often caught myself were slowly dying.
And I'm not even sure who the hell I am.
But I'm always like this, isn't it?
Isn't it a tragedy?
For being someone who watches me with misery.
That's why I made this poetry.
But someone out there is despising this part of me.
I wrote this because my capability with words that I put and I spend to think are well composed than the words that I never been able to say out loud.
So please, honks by all means.
So I wouldn't hear the sound inside my head was talking about.
Feb 5, 2021
Feb 5, 2021 at 9:23 AM UTC
Why would I let in anyone from the start
Just so they know
How to properly breaking my heart?
And tearing it apart?
Then pretend that it wasn’t a big deal afterwards
Dec 22, 2020
Dec 22, 2020 at 3:45 PM UTC
Raindrop, drop-top
You hit me on my soft spot
Thought it was just a play
But I won't let you go away
At least, not today
Can't I keep you Lil bit longer?
As someone to linger
I promise I won't be a burden
Or leaving you all of the sudden
Happiness is near
When you are here
Why don't we cherished
Before our memories vanished?
Dec 21, 2020
Dec 21, 2020 at 10:47 AM UTC
We are the same creature
With language gap
Of expressing
What do we feel
I’m whispering words to his ear
While he’s doing things
That I can't hear
He's cold as winter
While I'm coming
As fast as spring
That chase winter away
He's as smooth as a calm sea
While I'm the tempest
That crippled the wave
In sailor's night
However,
We are giving
Each one of us
A part of ourself
That's fragile
Easily broken
Foolishly hoping
No damage will be taken
So many differences between us
And there will be obstacles ahead of us
I took a chance
Without any second glance
To believe
For what we had
What shared
Were real
So then
When the honeymoon phase
Is driving away
Our true colour start to ablaze
Every single day
Deep down there
We still have a reason to stay
Dec 20, 2020
Dec 20, 2020 at 5:47 AM UTC
The walls of the bedroom have heard more prayers than any religion places
To the night that I prayed
To the tears that put me to sleep
Longing for your presence
The night you were walking to my door
The night I want to get to know you more
When I touch your hand
It took every ounce of me not to get comfortable with you
When I saw your smile
It took every ounce of me not to fall in love
When I saw your eyes
You took every ounce of me
So then, I made myself a promise
To the darkness nights
To the brightest days
I want you to know
I'll be there
Anyone could love your best features
Or cling for your best day
But I'll take
Pick up
Glued
All the pieces that everyone wants to get rid
I'll love you
For a wholesome
As a person
Ever thine
Ever mine
Ever ours
Oct 23, 2020
Oct 23, 2020 at 1:09 PM UTC
Why would anyone ever let you go?
When summer breeze isn't even a match for your warmth and tenderness.
More lovable than the sun at the sunrise.
Sometimes the flame is too hot to touch, and then I'm hiding under the tree.
But your figure won't fade, nor rough winds make you decayed.
Like a flower that's waiting for its bee,
your presence is the only one anyone would want to see.
Aug 24, 2020
Aug 24, 2020 at 5:50 AM UTC
Intrusion.
Don't you realized what you've done?
You acted like you were the almighty.
But yet all of these insecurities make you worry?
You've failed before too, ain't you, honey?
Here, I've writ you this passage.
You know, for a bit of message.
Be adviced and armed.
For I know, I'm not an easy prey.
Life never treated me well.
So do not be alarmed,
just run and pray.
Before you face your own hell.
But, be my guest, come and play.
First, let me light my cigars
and start to sing.
Truly yours,
A lady who used her scars,
to make her wings.
Aug 20, 2020
Aug 20, 2020 at 3:00 PM UTC
For all of those days, when I felt empty inside.
I often blamed myself for something I can't control.
I hate the scars from my past.
I hate the flaws that already there since the day I was born.
I hate my imperfections, for I know I always less than anyone.
Then, you came.
Break into walls that I've built.
Saved me from my darkest thoughts.
Treated me like I’m not damaged from my past,
embraced my scars that I'm dying to hide.
So, I decided.
As long as I live.
To embrace every single of your side,
To give you all the strength that you need,
To hold you when you're all alone,
to the point
you can't remember the last time when I wasn't there
neither can remember the times when you were loved like this.
Jul 29, 2020
Jul 29, 2020 at 10:36 AM UTC