Lost here in the city on a colorless night
I can’t feel the things that I keep inside of me
You know I need it
I should try to call you but there’s nothing left to say
Maybe what it was, wasn’t something to save
There’s nothing to say
And I’m waiting, waiting
You said you were taking me home
And I’m waiting, waiting
You can only live so much on your own
How do ones we love turn into strangers and ghosts?
How do I hold on when you’re letting me go now?
You know I need you
Have another drink because it’s in my blood
Maybe I believe that I’m too hard to love
I’m too hard to love
Take me to the light, I’m waiting
Take me to the light, take me home
Take me to the light
I’ll be here waiting for you
Feb 10, 2022
Feb 10, 2022 at 12:09 AM UTC
Why didn't you choose me?
Why did you leave when I needed you most?
Is that what love does...
it runs away, it's absent in the times it is needed most of all...?
I thought love was supposed to stay,
and stay...
but love always goes away.
Jul 19, 2021
Jul 19, 2021 at 5:24 AM UTC
My love, my dearest.
My thirst for you is never quenched.
My longing for your touch, always persists.
My hunger for your love, is never satisfied.
I need you!
I am an addict.
From the first kiss I was hooked.
A high that I reach, every time our lips meet.
The first touch of your hand, I was under your command.
The warmth of your body against mine, warms my soul. I will not ever let you go.
I am an addict.
You are my love, my obsession.
You are the other half of me.
You are the happy, when I am sad.
You are the best part of me.
I am an addict.
You are the addiction, that I will always have. You are the only person I want to spend eternity with.
My addiction for you is pure.
Yes I am an addict.
But you're a habit that my heart will not ever quit. You are the love of a lifetime and thank God you are mine ❤
My love for you will not ever rest.
My love for you will not ever die.
My love for you is eternal.
My love will take a bullet for you and still press on.
Apr 14, 2021
Apr 14, 2021 at 1:16 AM UTC
I've been up for days,
trying to find a way to write this confession down
for what I've done, I am not proud
but there's no need to pretend, no need for innocence
just got to be honest now
The verdict has come in,
it says I'm guilty for these sins of mine
i thought I could escape, but then I finally felt the weight,
of all your crimes
it's passion, it's not love, infatuation never ends up right
Ten thousand times I have screamed
over and over for you to notice me
until my voice breaks
for all this heartache
to gently fade away
Where are the pictures, of you and me?
put aside for no one else to see
afraid of what they might say
but if my heart breaks
at least I still have your yesterday
Not everything said should be heard
some things should stay
buried in the dirt
and when there is no target for your anger
could it be that you're the one who is hurt?
So many pointless conversations
about who's right or wrong,
you or me
every mirror it hides a different reflection
and we both got faces that we don't like to see
But I'll try to find some shelter in this quiet beauty
of a silent night
when the sun has finally set
and pray this worry will finally leave my mind
where it's just me and this pale moonlight
When I think of fates worse than death
all I can think of is something you once said
we were golden, bright like the sun
and now I am stranded
knowing I was never truly the one
With an ocean of anger flowing through me
blood-stained and broken from what I failed to see
that just like a snake charmer you led me astray
now I'm living in distress
just hoping some help is on it's way
In the midst of this storm searching for shelter
i came upon one single feather
and made a half-hearted wish for something better
all the while being gracefully cursed
i thirst
Burned into these ashes and soil
i'm dyed-in-the-wool
there's iron in my blood, yet i'm still so vulnerable
but after I'm truly gone, and once my heart finally leaves
you will be left alone to the wolves and real thieves.
Mar 10, 2021
Mar 10, 2021 at 1:45 AM UTC
So let's face it, this was never what you wanted
But I know that it's fun to pretend
Now blank stares and empty threats
Are all we have
They're all we have left
So drown me, if you can
Or we could just have conversation
And I fall, I fall, I falter
I find you before I drift away
Now you still speak of day old hate
Though your whole world has gone up in flames
And isn't it great to find that you're really worth nothing
And how safe it is to feel fake
The things we do just to stay alive
The things we do just to keep ourselves alive
Mar 8, 2021
Mar 8, 2021 at 1:01 AM UTC
You are where I want to be
You're my best friend
The one who knows me better than me
You've always had this way of looking past the mess that is me
Into my heart, my soul, you see infinity
I never see judgement or fear in your eyes
I see compassion and kindness
The longing I feel, your patience I see
You have and would wait eternities for me
Ever familiar, forever home
Never wavering faith, strong
The solid ground to my constant shifting sands
Arms that feel like home, like they won't ever let me go
Fingertips play me like a piano
Hands so strong and powerful, yet touch me soft as an angel
Lips that kiss life back into my spirit
A tongue that speaks no evil or lies
And a smile like the most beautiful sunrise
Mar 4, 2021
Mar 4, 2021 at 12:38 AM UTC
In the morning when I wake
And the sun is coming through,
You fill my lungs with sweetness,
And you fill my head with you
Shall I write it in a letter?
Shall I try to get it down?
You fill my head with pieces
Of a song I can't get out
Can I be close to you?
Can I take it to a morning
Where the fields are painted gold
And the trees are filled with memories
Of the feelings never told?
When the evening pulls the sun down,
And the day is almost through,
The whole world it is sleeping,
But my world is you
Oct 23, 2020
Oct 23, 2020 at 12:44 AM UTC
They say,
People don't change unless they have a reason,
And I wanted so badly to be your reason.
Sep 16, 2020
Sep 16, 2020 at 6:59 PM UTC
Recalled your fears, now they become tears,
remember I once needed you
Sweet emptiness of love
It's a crime to take all the treasures that I've kept
The lock to my chest now is broken
A hypnotizing stain that drifted between our souls and melts away
An extraordinary color
Brought by cold metal on skin
It's the sweetest emptiness of love
A bitter poison is everything that I've become
And every single tear I owned has run dry on this face
Now that you are gone
I lived enough to know all the reasons why
I felt the end coming
Made a deal with death
And it gives me happy memories of you that turn into amazing horrors
Drains my strength and breath
There is nothing to find, nothing behind, only the ashes of me and you
And some cold rain drops wash us from the floor
Through these eyes the world gives me pain
Knowing the sadness, all the lies and the gain that we share
Something my touch gives to your soul, I know you're here, it's not that you love me but of what you fear
Without me you're nothing, you're just one in a million
Wait everyday inside this black cage
Hope doesn't seem to fade away
Tomorrow brings the same again
I'm a mirror reflecting your soul
The way you like to see it
It's not really there
As that little boy cries, I cry as well
Strange complexity of torture and madness my awareness brings to me
As i tried to reach you I could grab only air
I reached out for the end
Don't you ever go outside afraid of what is waiting
You said "the world is so cruel sweet baby and I'm the one you can call for help" but you know that's not the answer
'Cause you're lost and so afraid right now you feel the anger coming, and now who will you blame?
Who do you hurt now? Because you are always bleeding
Don't you ever wonder why the streets look dark and dangerous
And your room is getting smaller everyday, inch by inch its your daily torture, you don't seem to be able to live by yourself
From pervert eyes amazing sights, wipe your tears and light a smile
You are ready to come outside and breathe some life
Feel some flesh, and stop hiding, now you know how to deal with this and stop crying, these are the last tears you wept and now they run down another's face
Shattered by rain, shrouded by thoughts on a runaway train
Seeking shelter from the storm and from the pain
Another empty glass, another line, another friend, yet no sight or track, you can’t find your way back and your flame grows colder
as the night is over
Now you’re lost for following your heart
It guided you so far and you don’t know where you are, cause, baby, now you’re lost
Holding you head up high but the mirror can’t lie, it shows tears in your eyes
Sadness blurs your sight, like ether numbs your mind
If I only knew what you’d get yourself into... I wish I could
Wish I was able to save you
And your flame grows colder as the night is over, open the door to a dream
Ran the playground, found a maze you dared to enter, took a deep breath, we were just friends holding hands
Walk deeper into the green, ignore the colors as they fade
The world grows larger as you shrink, you turn around and no one’s there...
Aug 5, 2020
Aug 5, 2020 at 3:53 AM UTC