Wherever you are right now,
I just want you to know that
I've never given up on
us.
We'll never be meant for each other,
and that I understand.
I never expected you to love me
back the way I did, but I just want you
to know that I care.
I still do,
and I forever will.
Two years have gone by,
and just as time depletes,
so does my trust in you.
So do the reasons to love you.
But I love you the same.
I want you to know that you are why
I stay up at night until three in the morning,
why I stay alive, and why I never
want to wake up from my dreams.
With God as my witness, I never always liked you, but my love perpetually
remained the same.
I want to let go.
I want to be strong enough
to see myself free from these shackles,
so may this be my way of
surrender.
Let this signify that the gravity pulling me down to my world,
that is you,
no longer exists.
You no longer act as my
world.
No longer are you the
reason for my lack of sleep.
No longer are you my
drug.
No longer are you my
dream.
But I still
love you
the same.
I will always
be here for you,
but not in the way
I would've wanted it.
I miss it,
but that's what love is:
letting go.
So I will let go.
I let go.
I love you.
Aug 16, 2016
Aug 16, 2016 at 10:27 AM UTC
i don't know anymore
what can you do when
you feel like you've lost grasp
of the human being you
might've even trusted the most
the greatest tandem
i thought we were
but then again
probably thats because
i trusted you too much
you ******* me over
so hard, yes, you did
and no words can
ever describe the pain
that i felt, that i feel
and i don't know
what hurts even more
being far from you or
being near to you and
reminding me of the pain
i hate that it all
makes so much sense
i looked up to you
and you up there
looked down at me
so i'll i try to recover
and i swear when i do
i'll run back to you
to make the same mistake—
the best one i've ever made
Oct 10, 2015
Oct 10, 2015 at 10:01 AM UTC
these scars i've gained
in battles fought
they eat me from
the outside-in
but there are those
from lovers all
that eat me from
the inside-out
but if these scars
are all i'll have
and remember
from our love
then so be it
Apr 23, 2015
Apr 23, 2015 at 1:42 PM UTC
The reason why I always forget,
Why my life would always reset
To some kind of euphoric state;
In a phase of unflawed perfection
Your voice: it's some pleasing sound
And to this, I am happily bound
'Tis the drug that I truly love most
'Tis the crime—this crime is why I live
My thoughts would always stop with you
But one thing I regrettably knew:
Your thoughts you have, when about me—
Opposite from mine: in that exact direction
Yet my love: so overly ignited—
In addition, obviously unrequited
Yet let this be known: that I won't give up
That my all in all: I will to give
Nov 15, 2014
Nov 15, 2014 at 9:48 AM UTC
I have been held captive
By this stupid trait
And I'm on the road
To my ugly fate
Jealous: I always was;
Jealous: I definitely still am
Oh, how I wish I were not,
Yet still I am ******
Free from these shackles;
How I wish I were
But what my future holds:
Appears unfortunately as a blur
So I'll be waiting
Right here in agony—
Waiting to be saved
From my utter jealousy
Oct 28, 2014
Oct 28, 2014 at 5:07 AM UTC
How do I restart
To those perfect days?
Deception: an art
That leaves me to gaze
Yet I will depart
From all these dismays
So I'll have my heart
Away from this haze
Oct 25, 2014
Oct 25, 2014 at 5:05 AM UTC
I tell myself
To forget you
Since you were never
Any good
The sweetest sin
You've always been
To indulge—
I insist I should
They all knew what
Was going on—
We were doomed and bound
For our hell
But you and I
Knew who you were—
Too good to be
All heaven-sent
Having been warned
To stay away
From the demon
That you are
They told me
Not to love again
But after you
I never can
Oct 23, 2014
Oct 23, 2014 at 6:27 AM UTC
Seemingly obsessed
Latched onto this mess
Constantly depressed
Too scared to express
Locked stuck in a cage
Can't seem to get out
Drowned in my own rage
And filled with much doubt
It's swift and so quick—
This thing that they do
Horrendously sick—
This I found too true
They can't be this blind—
Enslaved to these lies?
My faith in mankind
Depletes as time flies
But standing so still,
I take a deep breath
No weapons to ****
Just hoping on death
Oct 20, 2014
Oct 20, 2014 at 7:13 AM UTC
Have you seen these oceans?—
They rise and crash on me
But my feet stand strong here
So I do not fall down
You are my own ocean—
Crashing against me
So blue and so unclear
Yet I will never drown
Oct 18, 2014
Oct 18, 2014 at 3:16 AM UTC
It's all in the mind
This crazy feeling
But I'll never find
The right words falling
Although intertwined—
These thoughts, they're running
And I'm left behind
Desperately crawling
Oct 16, 2014
Oct 16, 2014 at 3:15 AM UTC