I’ve created pathways in my mind that are filled by your voice.
Every road turns to you and no longer by my choice.
I can’t block you out
you play on repeat.
Jan 11, 2019
Jan 11, 2019 at 3:05 PM UTC
You delight in my sorrow
You smile at my tears
You love the control you have
Breaking me down year by year
What will future me have left
When I’ve been consumed by you
Swallowed down into your dungeon
Chained up to the wall
Beaten for my pleasures
Broken by withdrawl
Because my happiness is your pain
My smile makes you insane
You want me broken and blue
Because it easier for you
Nov 8, 2018
Nov 8, 2018 at 9:17 PM UTC
The subtle art of not giving a ****
is lost on me.
My cups of ***** runneth over.
I will throw these ***** in the river
and let them float
Down the swift river of regret.
Aug 31, 2018
Aug 31, 2018 at 9:21 PM UTC
His hands. His fingers.
He is the painter
that paints a masterpiece upon my soul.
He is the conductor
that plays the tune of ecstasy.
He is the poet
that writes sonnets in my skin.
Dips the ink deep within.
Jul 1, 2018
Jul 1, 2018 at 2:08 AM UTC
Gone but not forgotten
You’re always on my mind.
I think about you when I wake.
I think about you in my sleep.
I doubt you even know...
Your memory burns slow.
You’re still haunting me
It’s not fair what you do.
Driving me to madness
No way to contact you.
Your voice a whisper in my soul.
Your face a black hole.
Still a ghost I’ll never see
...All you’ll ever be.
And it hurts because I’ll never know.
Back to ghost status again
Living in my mind, my friend.
Jun 28, 2018
Jun 28, 2018 at 3:57 PM UTC
Happily embarrassed as they say
Happy to be near your aura
even if I’m in the way.
You radiate a mellow confidence
Sure of the world and your presence.
Your voice a quiet baratone
that reminds me of soft blankets
and long walks home.
Turn my shallow breathing to hyperventilation.
Turn my cold heart away from
hibernation.
Make me become the completion of you.
The Bonnie to your Clyde
The Benny to your Joon.
May 16, 2018
May 16, 2018 at 4:17 PM UTC
I’m orbiting you too closely.
Floating into your atmosphere.
I can’t resist the pull.
I can’t overcome the fear.
Your planet is a desert.
My moon is filled with life.
I’m certain if I let you.
You’ll slay my day and my night.
May 8, 2018
May 8, 2018 at 12:57 PM UTC
I’ve followed you into the rain
You said I wouldn’t get wet.
I let you make me insane
You said don’t turn back yet.
You are my protector,
but I need protection from you.
You are my savior,
but who will save me when we’re through.
I’m soaking all the way to my soul.
Drowning in your puddles.
May 8, 2018
May 8, 2018 at 12:48 PM UTC
I didn’t feed my addictions today,
They took me over and got in the way.
I couldn’t keep back the flood.
Swift river of regret.
Is this depression or anxiety ?
I don’t feel anxious. I don’t feel sad.
I feel like I’ve been here before.
Walked in this room...opened this door.
On the other side, I found poetry.
I found words that flowed eloquently.
Poetry to free my mind. Release me from rewind.
Free me from regret and pain.
Make me feel.
Poetry I’m counting on you.
My newest addiction to get me through.
Feb 24, 2018
Feb 24, 2018 at 1:58 AM UTC
I feel you in the air
Even though I know you’re not there.
Your presence burning holes in my skin.
People can’t just follow you around.
But I hear your voice
even though there’s no sound.
I feel you walking next to me.
Surely this should be diagnosed clinically.
Because I can’t keep the real and fake apart
Dancing between the imperceptible cracks in light and dark.
Sit beside me ghost of mine.
I’m not afraid of You...
I’m afraid of my own mind.
Feb 19, 2018
Feb 19, 2018 at 1:14 PM UTC