Love did not find me unknowingly,
Stricken and sick. Rather,
I found it suspect to a closed heart
Before I willed this love into existence,
Sparking metals forging something foreign.
A resilient something to bear the time-passing
Feb 20, 2025
Feb 20, 2025 at 2:55 PM UTC
You say
You feel
Dizzy when you
Kiss me
So do
I
Is it the slow dance of
Dopamine digging grooves
Between our bodies? Or
Is it the velvet hum of
Desire, lulling us to quiet?
Watch me, watching you
Can you see it? This is
Hunger, wanting taking shape.
(Anything more definitive,
And you will scare the birds off)
I like to burn slow but
You, dipped in Sun
Blessed by God
Looked so sweet beneath
Changing skies I couldn’t
Help but tilt
Towards your beams
Now tangled in
Your taste, I try
To decipher what
Lies beneath desire.
Feb 20, 2025
Feb 20, 2025 at 2:53 PM UTC
They took
My God away from me.
Told me
I won’t be loved by You.
Your believers
Killed and I was
To worship blood
Instead.
Sink in all the
Shame inside, and
Take it as a
Lesson earned.
Jul 1, 2024
Jul 1, 2024 at 5:17 PM UTC
Today, a
Simple day
To wake with
Someone gentle
And sweet, who
I will be
Extra quiet
For when I
Zip my things.
Fluttering
In and out
Of sleep, I
Can’t predict
When you’ll speak.
_“Are you going on a walk?”_
_“Not yet, darling.”_
But I leave
Before you
Rise because
Yesterday,
You held me
When I cried
And looked at
Me in a
Way that pulled
Me towards you,
Wondering
When I will
Stop burning
With such shame.
But I, ever-miss
Touche-à-tout, have
Never steadied
A decision
And can only
Look away, fear
Of what I’d do.
Oh, but today
You told me you
Dreamt of kissing.
A vague and hazy
Something to remind
Me not to tell you
That I dreamt the same.
Dec 14, 2023
Dec 14, 2023 at 2:33 AM UTC
I am always half awake,
Occupying the space between
Then and now
Today and tomorrow
One half dreaming, dizzy,
Falling. Always falling,
Graced in gravity’s pull
I’ve never found the bottom
But when I do
I’ll just keep digging and
keep falling.
Feb 23, 2023
Feb 23, 2023 at 2:21 AM UTC
My eyes are blurry with tears but oh,
How the lights glow in the haze
I try to step outside myself and
Ask the sky what made me this way,
But the fog only stared back silently
One single star blinking back,
The same star that I’ve always seen
Under the same sky I’ve always breathed
In the same place I’ve always been
Nothing has changed except everything
(And that, too, has faint traces of you)
You and I, I liked to believe we’re the same
But your life isn’t mine and your
Love isn’t mine. I’ll imagine
The distance between us, tied together
Over countless fields and mountaintops
Stretching from here to there
_lets meet somewhere in the middle,_
_where it grazes Missouri._
_or is it Montana? I’m not sure but_
I’ve always
Been sure
Of this heart
And I left it
In the airport
The night I left you
With sleep
In my eyes
And tears
On my cheeks
Oh, tears, tears.
Feb 23, 2023
Feb 23, 2023 at 2:19 AM UTC
Imagine
All the lives
I’ve lived and
Things I’ve seen
Gone by noon, dizzy
As a dream, fevered
Bodies clutching
Clammy skin.
Oh, dear. Oh, my. Please,
Don’t wait to wake me.
May 25, 2022
May 25, 2022 at 1:31 AM UTC
Cursed child,
Whisper your sorrows
To unforgiving
Water and
Drain your tears
Wash the blood
And the dirt from your
Hands to purify
This pain and
Pacify your soul
May 22, 2022
May 22, 2022 at 2:27 AM UTC
i had a dream of us
aged like the finest wine,
one comes to the other
looking for the knowing glances
and careful smiles
underneath all of
the time we spent apart
lays a love so untouched
and so bright
it may blind us both
May 22, 2022
May 22, 2022 at 2:24 AM UTC
at the end of the
night my mind
falls back to you
fingers tracing a
shiny pink scar,
sealed memories from
a lifetime ago
dear cosmic wound,
achingly profound pain
twist the knife
and still, I will
beg you to stay
May 22, 2022
May 22, 2022 at 2:21 AM UTC